I'm such a bum

[jbkhy523]

I'm such a bum

hey friends, i am still awake and drinking stupid amounts of diluted vodka. the thing about bac (rewiring your brain) is that you slowly feel it, and know that it is the light at the end of the tunnel! the SE's are hell but i will make it there eventually (indifference)

[jbkhy523]

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friends, i hope that i am near the switch cuz i am starting to see visual hallucinations when i close my eyes - looks like my android cellie minimizing a window

[jbkhy523]

I'm such a bum

that SE went away quickly - whew

[chaos]

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Thank God the loooong weekend is gone!

[jbkhy523]

I'm such a bum

ok, maybe i am titrating up too fast. I went up to 180/d and drank plenty - woke up with the worst anxiety ever - i def. wish i had a benzo, but theanine helps some

[chaos]

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O man I was such a chaos this morning literrally sweating buckets, 5mg of valium felt like pure placebo/sugar pill, coupled by another 5mg an hour later finally made a dent.

Benzos are such life saving meds, but I take them when absolutely nessesary only. The last thing on earth I would want my body/mind to buld a tolerance for them.

[StuckinLA]

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So I want to be super supportive, and helpful, and I want everyone here to find their way out.

But what's going on with you 2? And what's really going on with this thread?

You guys are giving no doses, no titration schedules. You're giving no details. More importantly, you're not reaching out and you're not participating. You aren't even asking for help. You just pop in every so often with some tragedy about drinking too much, or a weird SE, you both kind of freak out for a second, and then disappear.

Now you both start bringing up benzos out of the blue.

To put it plainly, I no longer believe this is a real thread. I believe this is a made up "dialogue" between two usernames, who are quite possibly the same person, and I believe the ultimate aim of this thread is to show a fictitious crash and burn on bac and benzos. I believe this thread will then be used as "evidence" later on in a much larger "discussion"--a discussion that does not need to happen because the whole benzo "debate" is a made up issue, perpetuated by a few usernames.

If I am wrong, and either or both of you are looking for help, please PM me because I will no longer be reading this thread.

If either or both of you are real, you are nevertheless treating bac very carelessly, from what little of it I can see. The information you need is right here, but it seems you refuse to take advantage of it. If you are real, I wish both of you way more than luck.

~Stuck

[jbkhy523]

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@StuckinLA: i'm not so sure about your conspiracy theory. i can tell you this: i have no idea who that other user of the "2" you speak of is. i think we are all excited for the prospect of "indifference" and titrate up fast to speed up the process. at 180/d and (i have had a random 220 and 240 day) the other day after drinking FAR too much (that had to be a big part of it), i had a massive anxiety attack and it freaked me out. i haven't drank for 4 days now, -not one drop- but have had 2 x 30mg doses ea (60 total) and have not felt like drinking (it scared the crap out of me.)

[jbkhy523]

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*crickets*

[StuckinLA]

I'm such a bum

I know you want to hit indifference really quickly. But it very rarely works like that. It's not a race.

If you have to think of it like a race, be the tortoise. He's the one who wins anyway.

Hang in there you two.

[chaos]

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Upon awakening decided to increase my morning dose of bac by 10mg (50mg total) coupled by small shot of vodka. Three hours later feel no need of drinking anymore. There is somewhat slight desire to go and by some, but only motivated by the fact that I'm home alone this weekend on the other hand I simply feel to lazy to do so. Anyhow unfrigginbelievable!

[jbkhy523]

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@chaos: that is an interesting method! i may experiment with that as far as 50,60, or 70 coupled with a shot. if it takes away my desire for the rest of the day, mission accomplished!

[chaos]

I'm such a bum

jbkhy523;1372822 wrote: SE's are hell but i will make it there eventually (indifference)

Hi JB, in terms of SE the only one I experience is excessive snoring, and sometimes like sudden changes of body temperature.

Again, I follow the 'easy does it' type of route...took me several months to get to my current 130mg/day dose.

[jbkhy523]

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yep, i hate the snoring part - my neighbors are pissed, i am sure... also waking up in a pool of sweat(ed out alc.) and another load of laundry is never fun.

[chaos]

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20 oz of vodka and not feeling any buzz...that's unheard of