just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

ah thanks Eva.
i guess it's worth taking it slow and careful.. the quote about the beast sounds good i'll look him up later. for now i've been ready a lot on your post about the successes of people with baclofen and the links i find in there. great thread!!

man i feel like shit today, physically... hangover...

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

please let me keep my already too high a limits tonight...

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

can you give me some advice please?
because of work and things happening, i forgot one dose of baclofen (4 pm) 15mg and just in time to take the 7 pm dose.
should i take the next two doses at shorter time intervals, or same time intervals (set alarm clock for when i fall asleep), or just skip that one dose?

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Hiya, Jo!

I love the ability to delete. I mean, it drives me nuts when other people do it, but I am thankful that I don't have to live with everything I've ever written set in stone for all eternity. You know?

Anyhoo. I once forgot a dose, remembered it in the middle of the night, and couldn't decide whether or not to take it since it was almost exactly in between doses. I took it and then went back to bed. The next day I couldn't figure out which day to count it in. good times. (not.)

I did actually call the doc I worked with and he said that if it's close to the next dose, then skip it and stick to the regularly scheduled programming. If it's close to the dose you missed, you can take it. Or if it's a middle of the day dose, then you can add on to the other ones. It's just like other meds, I suppose. (Only not at all, in some ways!) Generally you don't want to over-do it, and you don't want to under-do it. Which is rather a pain to figure out, I know.

Sorry about the delay. Hope it's a good day for you!

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

i took the dose, so i thought i'd might as well delete my question

i'm on 85mg now. going okay, no bad side effects. and had a moment of choice again last night. not with alcohol (although i did stop drinking and didn't get some more - that damned night shop around the corner...), but with weed.
i smoke a joint every night, sometimes more than one (to get me blacked out a little sooner to go to bed :/ i have anxiety about going to bed too conscious, though at times i was AF i kind of enjoyed being able to read in bed etc), but yesterday i thought nah, not gonna get some. just like that. no struggle or whatever!
and drank a little less than the days before (still 6 cans of 33ml beer and 3 heavy belgian beers starting late afternoon)

feels like progression!

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

i'm feeling kind of peaceful today! maybe a side effect of the baclofen?

[TexasAg]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Peaceful is good!

Just read through your thread and sometimes forget how new and confusing things can get. But also they can be hopeful and peaceful.

congrats on your journey!

Cheers!

Day 98 on Bac – 120mg
Binge Free - 70 days

[StuckinLA]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Maybe I'm only following Tex around the interwebs this morning, but I've just now caught up on your thread as well. Nothing to add but thought I'd say hi, Joanna. And you're definitely not boring.

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

i've started writing the story of "my addictions", to post when i am sober
(thanx for your story and support, Xadrian, Neva-Eva and others)

[TexasAg]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Joanna, may I suggest totally-new-forum-sort-new-bac
Good story there, and the writing aint half bad!

Cheers!

Day 98 on Bac – 120mg
Binge Free - 70 days

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

joanna_d;1395477 wrote: i'm feeling kind of peaceful today! maybe a side effect of the baclofen?

Maybe bac. Maybe the decision you've made. Maybe just the idea that the end of addiction is near. Whatever it is, roll with it!

joanna_d;1395622 wrote: i've started writing the story of "my addictions", to post when i am sober
(thanx for your story and support, Xadrian, Neva-Eva and others)

I'm so glad you're doing that. And I suppose I owe it (info about bac, the ability to take bac all the way up to indifference, and my contented sobriety) to Ameisen and all of the many others who chronicled their stories before I got here.

I'm also really glad you're participating. It really helped me get to where I want to be. I hope that's true for you too! Oh, and don't worry about the drinking part. It's fair to say that the vast majority--99.76% were drinking when we got here. I could only post when drunk for at least the first 6 months. It's a different lifetime for me! But I haven't forgotten...
Hope it's a good day, Jo. (I hope it's okay to call you that. I hate it when people shorten my real name. My best friend does, and I've never had the heart to tell her I don't like it. I figure she's the exception to the rule. anyhoo)
:l

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

hi stuckinLA (is your name derived from Leaving Las Vegas?) and TexasAG! thanks for reacting
i feel a bit like a dork (is that the rigth word?) and have a stinging hangover again.

Jo is fine Neva. it's my middle name (with my real name i also hate it when people make stuff of it )

i'll just clean up the mess (god i hate that: waking up every morning, soaked in sweat from the alcohol, and finding a mess in my kitchen - but then i know at least i ate last night - on the coach, in the bedroom)
and start kind of afresh

[StuckinLA]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Hey there, Jo. JKTTGDP. Stick with it, sweetie. You're on the right path. Doesn't feel like it right now, moving from a sweat-stained bed to a couch for the rest of the morning, staring down the bottles on the nightstand and wondering just what you were really thinking last night.

I know. We all know. But it's not going to last much longer 'cause the pills really do truly work. So drink lots of water today. Eat a banana if you have one, and just take care of yourself. OK? Before you know it you'll be so annoyingly sober you won't know what to do with yourself.

And I'm going to over-share for a minute, so I hope you don't mind. Because you're going to read this, and then god forbid you're going to look at my thread, and you're going to think to yourself Stuck must think I'm a friggin' idiot. He's not sober! The pills don't work! Yeah, you might think that, so here:

I've got plenty of issues, just like everybody here. I had... an interesting night tonight. And all I want to do is get bombed out of my mind right now. Just obliterated and pass out and simply not know where or who I am. So what ended up happening? My lovely grad student friend dropped me off, I walked in the door and poured myself a shot and then drank a beer while writing some MWO nonsense. And even though I think there's nothing I want more than to drink more, I'm forced to realize that I'm done drinking for the night. Just like that, done. I can't even really force myself to drink right now. And believe me I've tried.

And I'm on a way lower dose than I probably should be. So stick with it, k? It works.

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

you bet i'll be checking your thread now!

ah that's so good to hear, and also what Neva wrote, that almost everyone was drinking when they got here. although i do feel like a friggin' idiot, having wasted yet another night of my life and walking my dog just now hoping not to bump into someone (thank god for sunglasses).
i have to still get used to posting my shit here, that's part of the dork feeling.

i'm probably not the only one that's been afraid of being the only one the pills won't work for.

by the way, what does JKTTGDP mean? (i'm dutch)

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

aha: just keep taking the god damned pills