just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

anyway, i'm glad that after the big crying outburst, i got angry and thought i'm not gonna let that asshole scare me.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

:H

Lol. Really. I'm not sure what to say...

If he bothers you again just kick his ass. Good hairspray is nothing to waste. The cheap stuff may actually blind him. (Very, very sorry about your dog. That isn't funny, and I don't mean to make light of it. I would be...hmmm.) Isn't that A LOT of actual dollars? (Long standing joke around here about how you all have to describe everything to us-all in American. Like kilos. I mean how hard is it to use inches? Sheesh.)

I miss my sense of humor too, when it's missing. And at it's best, Jo, it ain't that great. But I amuse myself! And sometimes Ed plays along.
Speaking of whom, he just walked in and I'm busted on MWO! again. Hope it's a peaceful night. Tomorrow will be much, much better.
:l

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

hahaha please! you don't speak dutch, we at least try to speak your language!
can you expect us to try and convey your medieval weighing and temperature scales (not to start about the centimeters and kilometers and stuff. you use feet!)

i feel okay right now, though angry and annoyed (which is good) cause i managed to do some good wor after all today

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

(i was joking here, badly of course)

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

you see and that bothers me, i don't want to hurt anyone, and certainly not blind someone (i got cheap spray of course, i'm not gonna use it for my hair or anything )
but last year i got bit in the face by another dog, an american stafford that got crazy, attacked another dog (not mine, but i was nearby when this happened) and going for a kill (these dogs are bread for dog fights). the owner didn't know what to do, so in an impulse i jumped in and pulled the dog off.
but these dogs, when they get in a fighting state they go into a frenzy. so it bit my face. i'm fortunate he just missed my eye, and the muscles of my face. a plastic surgeon stitched me up and now you can actually hardly see it. hurray for that doctor!

i decided not to press charges against him, 'cause otherwise the dog would have been finished off probably, and i don't want that on my conscience (don't know if that was wise, 'cause it was obviously a very diturbed dog), but i thought the owner had to take his responsibility and get that dog in training or something).

but now this (other) man threatened to set his dog on me when he sees me. i'm not gonna let this happen again, not to me, or my dog. i already know what a crazy dog it is, 'cause he injured my dog badly a few weeks ago. he just started attacking out of the blue. and the man is even more crazy, the way he acted and yelled at me yesterday

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

I really didn't mean to make light of what happened to your dog (and you). That's not what made me giggle. There's a big difference between a bully (who tend to be cowards) and crazy. Both are dangerous, right? But crazy brings a whole new level of danger. I can tell that you have given this some reasonable thought, and I hope you'll continue to take steps to make sure you and your dog are safe. (Some of my American brethren would suggest you buy a gun. And/or call a lawyer. What's it like to live in a country where you don't get to shoot people and lawyers are not the first resort??? :H)

I don't actually know what I would do if someone, or someone's dog, hurt my dog. I don't think I would be as reasonable as you are being.

I'm also very glad that you intervened in, and that you have healed from, the dog fight. I'd have done the same.

How are you today?

[Xadrian]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Hey Joanna, It's not your fault his dog attacked yours and he knows that. His only concern is the 450 euro's. He has probably an insurance for it (aansprakelijkheidsverzekering in Dutch), but maybe he's not aware of that, so he makes a lot of noise for nothing.
Anyway, he shouldn threat you and it's a good thing now he can receive a phone call from the police.
If he threatens you again, just tell him that you decided not to press charges because you wanted to save his dog, but if he insists, you can do it as yet.

But those kind of days can really trigger drinking, huh? It used to take me straight to the bottle. But those times are over. I even are less affected by those matters that before Baclofen could keep me busy for days, but now don't seem so important.

I'm convinced that in a while, you will experience the same. You don't want to give that pathetic guy his pleasure to scare you and to make you drink yourself sick because of that miserable ugly creature he is. And he stinks too! Flock him. You're the one who will continue to change the worse for the better.

Keep on going girl and take care

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

Yep. Exactly that, Xadrian.
Especially this part:

Xadrian;1402165 wrote:

But those kind of days can really trigger drinking, huh? It used to take me straight to the bottle. But those times are over. I even are less affected by those matters that before Baclofen could keep me busy for days, but now don't seem so important.

I'm convinced that in a while, you will experience the same.
...
Keep on going girl and take care

You guys have insurance for that kind of thing? What kind of insurance? Interesting.

[Xadrian]

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Ne/Neva Eva;1402173 wrote: You guys have insurance for that kind of thing? What kind of insurance? Interesting.

Over 90% of the people have a liability insurance that includes damage caused by pets.

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

hey Xadrian, you're dutch too??! or did i know that already and has my brain started to deteriorate?

of course you're right, and i try not to let him scare me, or to invest too much energy in this. i can choose to not let myself get sucked into his negative energy (i realized this after waking up this morning, furious and having monologues inside my head to this guy ).
i can focus on the nice people around here, instead of the few horrible ones.
and that's the stupid thing, instead of just taking his responsibility for an unleashed dog that has attacked before and just use your liability insurance, he starts calling me names, yelling and threatening. i'm not gonna stand for that kind of shit. i hope the police at least give him a warning or something. he can't just go around abusing people like that.

Ne/Neva Eva;1402163 wrote: I really didn't mean to make light of what happened to your dog (and you). That's not what made me giggle. There's a big difference between a bully (who tend to be cowards) and crazy. Both are dangerous, right? But crazy brings a whole new level of danger. I can tell that you have given this some reasonable thought, and I hope you'll continue to take steps to make sure you and your dog are safe. (Some of my American brethren would suggest you buy a gun. And/or call a lawyer. What's it like to live in a country where you don't get to shoot people and lawyers are not the first resort??? :H)

oh i know you weren't laughing at that Ne! i was laughing to yesterday evening.
and i'm laughing again now about your how can you live in a country where you can't just shoot someone or run to a lawyer when someone as much as farts is your viscinity (well, if i did shoot him, i probably would have to get me a damned good lawyer)

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

thanks for asking Ne.

yep, yesterday was such an interesting day with all that excitement :P and afterwards picking myself up and going to work and managing do actually do some not to bad work, that after i got home at night i drank way more than i intended to.
well, you win some, you lose some, today's another day. i'm very tired, didn't get much sleep last night. can't get myself to do much. but i have some work i really need to do so i'm gonna kick my ass (i am the only one who has permission to do that) and start getting to it.

tonight a visitor (iiiiirgh ). i hope i can watch myself and call it a night when i feel i want to be alone again.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

A visitor? that's so...romantic in a noir kind of way. And then "I vant to be alone." (Who is that? Garbo? Isn't she dutch? Or something very practical...

I signed on to lament about the American measuring system. I love metric. Love it. (I think, maybe, that in sobriety and with age, I am becoming German. :H Practical. Exacting. No humor. Hope there aren't any Germans around! ) Celsius confuses the hell out of me, so I've converted our thermometer to it. This is just one of the many small things I do that my husband puts up with.

I read recently that people around the world watch American politics like it's a sport. Because it resembles one so. I will not even begin to discuss politics. I'm in a swing state, which means that at any given time there are either 49% or 51% that are reasonable. (I'll let you guess which is which. It really makes no nevermind most of the time.) That also means that the politicians spend an incredible amount of their time and money here, which is enough to make anyone drink. Heavily.

Do you know about the American penny? It costs more to make 'em than they are worth. Apparently there are 6 or 8 people who think it would be a terrible insult to Abraham Lincoln (whose head graces the penny) to do away with it. I'm pretty sure Honest Abe would not appreciate being on a completely worthless coin. That's if he gave a hoot. Which I'm pretty sure he doesn't.

Every country's got something. Ya' know? I like mine. It's mostly made up of foibles I understand. But I sure like yours too. Healthcare! Liability insurance! Wow!

I decided to go with a dark gray (grey) blue (bleu). I can't have an art installation on the wall because my family is having a very hard time getting over the 20+ years of absolute flakiness that I was. I'm sure you can understand. But they're probably going to hate the color I chose, so whatever. I'm looking forward to a den-like cozy living and dining room for the winter. Then in the spring, maybe lime green. The JOY of paint. Right?

I frequently kick my own ass. Then I am very, very nice to myself. Both are wise decisions.

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

argh!! romantic is probably what he'd like it to be tonight.
he is very sweet and concerned and a very interesting person too, but i got myself into a mess when i jumped (or whatever, i don't remember a thing of what happened that night, though i'm sure he had a great time, 'cause he was so happy in the morning, kissing me and being romantic and all. and we were naked in a bed). horrible!! and i couln't tell him i didn't remember diddly, that would be nasty.

i told him afterwards that i have a fear of commitment (which is true. my last two relationships were very bad, and since that, two and a half years ago, i like being on my own right now. also, i have to solve mt issues with relationships) and don't want to be more than good friends and all. but i think he is in love with this bag of couch potatoes (he doesn't see me as that of course).

it's like i'm back in highschool huh? embarassing. i am an asshole. why am i telling you this??

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

unfortunately in Holland things are getting worse and worse politicswise. but it's still preferrable to living in lots of other countries.

i always thought i understood about miles, but when i visited the states a month ago, i found out i'd gotten it totally wrong all my life. what a bummer. when i do work for an exhibition in another coutry, or work on a design based on that, i of course have to calculate eveything in inches. it's a drag, but well, i guess for a good cause.

dark grey (blue) sounds nice!

[joanna_d]

just started with baclofen, a bit desperate

by the way: Greta Garbo was Swedish (i just looked that up ). dutch people don't have that sexy french accent when speaking english, nor the german v for w as in "please, i vvhant tsso be alone"
i think dutch accent must sound stupid in english, but of course people don't tell me zzhat