Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

[Raven2012]

lHi Ladies,
I thank you all but for prvacy issues I need to step away. Sad, I really need your hep but I need to protect myself. Much love Raven

[FarfallaP]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Hi Raven,

It makes me sad to hear that you are in such a blue mood. I tried Topamax several years ago but did not care for the side effects. When I titrated down, carefully, I had a terrible headache...never knew for sure if it was the Topamax or the flu. after three days, I felt healthier.
But, I never noticed either depression or weight loss. Maybe it would be a good idea for you to get a check-up with your regular doctor, or to schedule an annual visit with your obgyn ?
If your youngest child is six, you must be a busy mom, and sometimes it's hard to find time for yourself and to do the things which feed your soul...hopefully tomorrow you'll feel a bit better.
sending you warm thoughts... FFP

[paulywogg]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

hi raven,i dont know much about topimax,but i think quitting drinking brings on depression anyways,hopefully someone will come along who knows more about it,take care

[FarfallaP]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

PS. IMO weight loss calls for NEW clothes, too...plus, shopping for clothes usually cheers me up, too! Old Navy has sparkly tank tops for less than twenty dollars this week...LOTS of XS sizes left...(I plan to balance my checkbook after January 1, when we will have all fallen off the fiscal cliff anyway...LOL)
FFP

[Raven2012]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Thanks ladies, my husband lot his job so I have so many clothes I haven't worn in ten years. I have felt so bad for him (and he's barely noticed) that I thought I'd just pull from the trunk of this designer wear I've Ihad for years. It needs to be dry cleaned and and as the weeks go on i get smaller. I don't know. He is not paying attention. I was a size two. as the weeks go on as size zero. there are fewer things that fit. he doesn't care. It's sad how little pleasure Iget fromwearing these these things

Iknowmy health is not good.

When I die, he will not care. That is the thing that crushes me more than an anything.

[kuya]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

How very sad for you Raven to think he would not care if you died. Is this the depression talking or is an uncaring husband making you depressed?

If it is the former then you may need additional medication for depression or a complete quit from alcohol. If it is the latter then you should think about relationship counseling, sooner rather than later. :l

KY

[sunshinedaisies]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Hi Raven - I think it might be the Topa that is making you depressed. I need to get up to 300mg for it to actually have the drinking thing happen for me, BUT at 300mg, I get really badly depressed. I am on an AD anyway - but at the 300mg level I just get so down, so I cannot go up that high and let the Topa do it's thing. I would definitely come down on the topa - DEFINITELY !! Also the weight loss is not good - not that much that fast - and to not eat at all isn't good for you. One of the SE's of Topa is the lessening of desire to eat for about 17% of those who take it, but it sounds as if you are making yourself ill. If you are on 300mg a day, I would cut it to 200mg a day. you say that the Kudzu works for you anyway?

I know that for me, that 300mg level is just too high and I get super depressed - it sounds as if the same is happening to you. please go back down - you don't need to titrate unless you are prone to seizures - you can just take less tomorrow. Up the Kudzu.

Please feel free to PM me if you want to - I have been there and know exactly where you are coming from.

Much love and many hugs to you,

love, sun XXX

[Bruunhilde]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Hi Raven,

Your husband isn't recognizing the dramatic change in weight is symptomatic of depression an on top of that, you have suicidal thoughts. If you're thinking he will not care and that you WILL die, I'm no expert but think that sounds like suicidal thoughts from extreme depression. Do you have a sui ids hotline and can you see you doctor asap? I hope you can priortize this! Your husband likely has no idea how depressed you really are despite how you try to tell him. Much love to you!!:l

[Raven2012]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

I'm sorry ladies. I have been extreemly depressed. It stems from a suicide attempt I had a year ago. I took an entire bottle of sleeping pills and and drank a bottle of wine. My husband let me lay there all night. He said he checked on me every few hours to make sure I still had a pulse.

I did wake up. But when I asked him why he didn't call an ambulence, I'd told him what I;d done he said he didnt want the insurance records to know about a suicide attempt. Because I have a high income, he feared I'd become unemployable. That's what makes me so sad. It s the luck of the draw I woke up. I don't think our relationship has ever been the same.

I am better now. As of today, I have a new job! It is so easy for me. But my husband will never be in my heart again.

[paulywogg]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

oh my gosh raven,you poor thing! no wonder youre so sad,your husband is supposed to be your number one support,protecter,your partner him not calling an ambulance or rushing you to e.r,jeez i dont even know what to say,at least you have a new job hopefully youll start to feel better then, hugs to you im sorry your feeling so sad

[Kradle123]

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Raven2012;1425542 wrote: I'm sorry ladies. I have been extreemly depressed. It stems from a suicide attempt I had a year ago. I took an entire bottle of sleeping pills and and drank a bottle of wine. My husband let me lay there all night. He said he checked on me every few hours to make sure I still had a pulse.

I did wake up. But when I asked him why he didn't call an ambulence, I'd told him what I;d done he said he didnt want the insurance records to know about a suicide attempt. Because I have a high income, he feared I'd become unemployable. That's what makes me so sad. It s the luck of the draw I woke up. I don't think our relationship has ever been the same.

I am better now. As of today, I have a new job! It is so easy for me. But my husband will never be in my heart again.

Hi Raven: big :l

I was in the same boat as you several years ago. Topa, weight loss, drinking under control for the most part and a husband who could have cared less. I called it- Marriage by neglect.

Now I understand that the depression was there way before the Topa and my relationship with my husband sucked in so many ways. I just didn't deal with it because I was drinking all the time...well, that's how I dealt with it :upset:

Your husband leaving you there all night IMO did not precipitate a change in your relationship. That relationship was already horrible. I have a marriage by neglect but you seem to have one of depraved indifference. Sorry to sound blunt but if I had a husband like that, I'd be depressed as well. No matter how awful your drinking got, not calling an ambulance is criminal. If you had passed, he would be in jail...
Please stay posted here Raven. you've come. The right place! :l:l
:h

[Raven2012]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Thanks ladies. I know the marrage is a joke, but if I'm to get out of it with my little ones I need to get to myself together. I thank you so much for your support. My parents were also puzzled about why he didn't call an ambulence. Afterwards I was so dazed it took me a few days to kind of put it altogether. He just said he didn't want the incident on our insurance records. And as well as I know him I put it altogether.

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your support. I wil be fine. Kradle I think you are right on, our relationship was already shot before this happened. I thank God I have my sweet children. They are such a blessing to me. So I'm trying the Topimax at 200 and I hope that will be the right balance.

[Slaythefear]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Hi Raven. First of all you need one of these:land some of this:h. I agree with Kradle 100%. I will, also, add other than the finer details, I'm right with you. Not only does my husband not care or show that he cares, I believe he would be happy if I passed away so he could get his hands on my money. His motivation for marrying me has become crystal clear so even my lying heart can't deny it. I'll be posting some various articles on a thread marked Being Alone with Yourself - Embrace it. Maybe some of the things I post there will help or give you some strength through any heartbreak you may be feeling. It's a horrible feeling to have the person you loved enough to marry treat you so badly and with such indifference. However, there are sunny skies beyond this horizon. Believe this and begin to prepare yourself and begin to move toward that place. It sounds like you are already doing that a bit and know this.

You aren't alone. I ended my marriage this last weekend but with a bleeding heart. Plenty of empty marriages out there. You now have the opportunity you didn't before...to move your life in a new direction.

I'm watching the 12/12/12 concert. Alicia Keys just performed Brand New Me. I love it. Maybe you will, too.

It's been a while, I'm not who I was before
You look surprised, your words don't burn me anymore
Been meaning to tell you, but I guess it's clear to see
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me
Can't be bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame
Had to grab my heart back
God know something had to change
I thought that you'd be happy
I found the one thing I need, why you mad
It's just the brand new kind of me

It took a long long time to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, don't be surprised

If I talk a little louder
If I speak up when you're wrong
If I walk a little taller
I've been on to you too long
If you noticed that I'm different
Don't take it personally
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of me
And it ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Oh, it took a long long road to get here
It took a brave brave girl to try
I've taken one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, oh see you look surprised

Hey, if you were a friend, you want to get know me again
If you were worth a while
You'd be happy to see me smile
I'm not expecting sorry
I'm too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me, yeah
I don't need your opinion
I'm not waiting for your ok
I'll never be perfect, but at least now i'm brave
Now, my heart is open
And I can finally breathe
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of free
That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me
Don't be mad, it's a brand new time for me, yeah

Love,

Slay

[Kradle123]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Slay, you always have the right words. :l I wish I could swing over and give you a big hug or a least play a game of cards....

Raven, I have a great feeling that you are so going to do really well despite all the obstacles. You sound stronger, more directed already.

Remember there is a Topa thread with lots of great advice, insight, experience. I am no longer on the Topa mainly because the SE are very hard on me and I was only up to 50mg...
I could barely function.

I now take the L-Glut and various other supps. And I am on here everyday sometimes just reading.

Stay close honey,,
:l:h

[Slaythefear]

Topimax, Depression Weight Loss

Slay, you always have the right words. I wish I could swing over and give you a big hug or a least play a game of cards....

I'd love that. Who doesn't need hugs? Would that be strip poker with some hot men?:H:H We'll invite Raven, too.

All these bad stories about relationships I'm hearing lately brings a quote to mind. I know, me and my quotes.

"You can't grow old as a woman without at least one lousy man in your life." ~Mr. Brooks~


How is everything in Kradle's world? Things calming down a bit?
Btw, I left you instructions on multi quoting on the evil thread. It's hard to tell and not show with instructions.

Love,

Slay