Observations:
Sleep: disasterous. Go to sleep with mild sleeping pill, wake 2 or 3 times during night. Need to spend half of next day grabbing sleep. Often feel forgetful in conversation,very dizzy and worry about driving or tripping over when walking.
Do notice that i'm drinking less most, but not every, night. Can still drink a bottle. But on an average night leave about one or two glases in a bottle, and twice over christmas didn't drink at all.
Feel that as bac is helping me, i should try and make an effort and not drink at all. Read that paper recently mentioned on this forum that said of those who fail on bac, some of them are people who just can't (won't?) break the habit. I can feel some lessening of the pull, but i still enjoy it's effect, still have my 'witching' hour, and - dare i say it - find that it's sometimes the only time in a dizzy, out-of-it day that i feel normal. This is coming from a bottle of wine a day evening drinker, not someone who drinks all day or anything. Will i reach a 'switch' of indifference if i keep going, or is this it, but i'm not listening?
How do i break the habit ritual that i enjoy so much?
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