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[GeauxGirl]

I really messed myself up last week. A couple downer events, plus inability to be able to help a sister-friend, and I caved in and drank, and then drank a lot for the past 3 days. Didn't even give a thought to any other method to deal.

I did continue, more or less, with 60mg of bac, so I don't have to start over with that. Can't sleep, too much alcohol, even with a benedryl. It will be a hard start to the work week. :bang

My plan for today: 1- see therapist (confession is good for the soul?) 2 - exercise, if only 15 min on treadmill. 3- take bac 4 x @ 20mg, 4- eat nutritious food 5- take all vitamins, glut, meds. Beat myself up.:dang: just kidding, I hope.

And most important: DON'T DRINK!

GG

? How to change mood icon? On iPad and when I press it nothing happens.

[caro]

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Dear GG,

Try not to beat yourself up too much. I don't think that there is a person on this site who cannot relate to what has just happened to you. I did something similar recently too, felt rubbish for a bit but I am now back on track and you will be too.

It is NOT YOUR FAULT you have a horrible disease through no fault of your own.

A couple of days of the sauce and licking your wounds will make you feel much better.

Caro x

[YouKayBee]

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Yeah, can be so easy to use alcohol when events and emotions let us down.

Re the therapy, use it as a way to talk through your feelings rather than beating yourself up.

[caro]

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GG,

I meant to say OFF the sauce!

Just try and be kind to yourself, what have you done that is so bad? Nothing at all, you just tried to cope with some difficult emotions.

I have felt like you are at the moment so many times and for very similar reasons.

You are not alone, sending you good wishes.

Caro x

[emc]

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Hi GeauxGirl,
i think u don't need to worry about a drinking night... it happens and thats all!

You decide to cure yourself and the first BIG step is done.
I'm trying to going out of this alcohl nightmare and bac makes me feel already better. Not you?

I would say...now, simply continue to take your bac, easily, constant and precise in the hours, slowly titrate up (if the SE they are not too hard to manage).. and that's really all.

Its what i'm doing ,today, these days from when i start bac...

I don't like a lot when i drink little more than preview but i even dont stress myself too much about it.

I will keep you thread on my favs and try to help you when or just listen to you... ;-)

Stay well GG, we are here!

[COSGringo]

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Yup, GG. I would not sweat it. You are still in the driver's seat and you want to make a difference.

I think that's the main thing.

[StuckinLA]

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Drink or don't drink, but don't beat yourself up. Slips happen to the best of us--you really don't need to do the mea culpa self-flagellation bit (unless you're into that ). Just be gentle with yourself and do what you have to do to feel better. The rest will come.

JKTTGDP.

:l:l:l

[Kradle123]

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Hi Ms. Geaux,

Here's a big old fashion hug. :l. Words of wisdom and lots of experience from everyone here.

The primary thing is to be kind to yourself and repeat over and over in your head that this is all part of your journey...the good the bad and the ugly so to speak.

None of us got to where we are in a week or less so mathematically , none of us are getting out in less time...

You are well you way; I can see that.

Now drink lots of water, stock up on the lemons. Ice cream is good. And I see you are on the Gulf coast. Do you have lots of sunshine there yet? Maybe a nice sit on the back porch under the sun will be good.

Stay close. I'm in and out today with a sick 14 year old...I apparently i have to relinquish my iPad so he can catch up on The Walking Dead season 3...

God what we don't sacrifice for ur children. :H

Here's another hug. :l

[Siren136]

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[QUOTE=Kradle123;1476073]I apparently i have to relinquish my iPad so he can catch up on The Walking Dead season 3.../QUOTE]

The last couple of episodes have been incredible.

[GeauxGirl]

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A BIG Thank You to all who sent good vibes and well wishes. I realize that I am in for a real fight with the Demon Alcohol, and I doubt that I would make it one day if I had not found mwo.

So far, the day is okay. I've taken the bac and glut and am eating a nutritious lunch. The weather is improving: high 50's and bright sky, just the kind of weather that lifts my spirits. No self-flagellation today. Tonight may be harder. I have already been awake 12 hours, so I will be tired after work. I need to go to the grocery store now, when my willpower is high. At 5:00 I'll be crashing and the vino would call my name as soon as I walked in the door!

I can do this! Again thanks bunches for your well wishes and support.

GG

[dundrinkn]

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Hi GG. I was into my fourth week on bac last week and drank every single night. Had 5 beers one night, mostly 3 and 4 on the other nights. But I had gone AF for 6 days the week before so I was majorly bummed out. Over the course of the last week I have upped bac from 50 mg to 70. Going to 80 today. Yesterday I was AF. Today is the first day I haven't started thinking about drinking by noon. Obviously it is a process. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and JKTTP.

[bleep]

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Many of the people that I know of on this forum who have successfully used baclofen to curb their drinking drank all the way to indifference. Almost by definition, if you think about it. I realise that if you have set your sights on abstinence it is very demoralizing to slip up, but I think that you will be able to look back on it and view it as a non-event.

Best of luck!

[Kradle123]

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[quote]Siren136;1476082 wrote:

I apparently i have to relinquish my iPad so he can catch up on The Walking Dead season 3.../QUOTE]

The last couple of episodes have been incredible.

Don't mean to hijack Geaux but yesSiren. They are a lot of fun.

Just watched 13 of season three..I think I'm behind! Feel guilty though as the twins started watching....

:l
PS- your fighting your fight Ms. G. with all of us!! :l
:h

[GeauxGirl]

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Knowing that others know how hard it is
To relinquish alc really makes it possible. I don't get the shakes but I SO want the respite a little alcohol can give. The operative word is "little". And that word seems to have no meaning for me at this point. Didnt exercise yesterday, but did eat right, took my bac and other supp. and NO alcohol! Day 1.

[caro]

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GG,

Well done for keeping it together yesterday. Only if you have the disease can you understand the tremendous struggle about whether or not to drink. So in my book going without booze for one day is a magificant achievement. Give yourself a pat on the back.

Sometimes the struggle is too much. On those days remember most people are lucky enough not to be driven crazy on a daily basis with the craving for alcohol. They (and why should they) have no insight into the magical relief booze brings to dampen anxiety and the exquisite ending of the craving. So if you do have a drink it is hardly surprising and nothing to feel bad about, some days we just do not have the strengh to fight the monster.

Yes we are very much aware that alcohol is the enemy, but a very seductive one that is trying to bring us to destruction. Anyway it is not going to destroy you GG because you are on the right path.
Sorry about the flowery language but I can really feel your pain, I have been in your shoes so many times.

Hang in there. I am now on 140mg Bac and the cravings that were driving me insane have gone.

YES GONE.

It can happen for you too. I admit it is hard to believe and I am not a medic so I don't know what will happen long term, but just to have the relief from the contstant cravings is a minor miracle.

Best wishes,

Caro