I'm half way into week 6 since starting my journey with bac and thought it was about time I posted my progress.
I'm just went up to 60 mg per day and as I've went up really slowly SE have not been bad at all. Some days especially if I'm sitting on my butt I do feel really sleepy but if I get off my butt and do something the sleepiness completely disappears. Night time sleep has been great, out like a light.
Strangest side effect has been a burning sensation in my lungs a couple of times!! but nothing unbearable.
Something I noticed 2-3 weeks ago was that I have completely went off red wine. At first I thought I had just picked up a type of wine that I didn't like, literally poured the whole lot down the sink, unheard of before, -I would have plodded on through it regardless . I persevered and tried red wine again and similar thing. The thought of it now makes me feel a bit sick.
After the wedding hangover I drank a bottle of cava on the Wednesday and a bottle on the Thursday (just one bottle each night, another win as I drink it like lemonade and can easily get through 2 bottles).
On the Friday, I read a post about how bac balances brain chemistry and I thought I would go AF to give the medication a chance. On the Sunday I had 1 can of lager. My brain didn't have the usual 'light up' effect and there was no more beer anyway but usually it would have meant hubby going to the shop to buy more as one would never have been enough in the past, to the point that I would have left it because craving more and not being able to get it would have been awful.
AF all week without too much hassle although noticing I'm eating crap more which I'll have to put a lid on as I'm putting on weight. Anyway, cutting myself some slack so not being hard on myself on that score, time enough to get back to clean eating and I will start exercising again next week.
Last night I had around 4 small bottles of beer - not even buying Cava as scared of wanting two bottles, but again a plus as I would never, ever have considered 'just' drinking a few of hubby's beers before - I would have to have had my own wine for the night and plenty of it. I even left half of the last bottle, made a cup of tea and went to bed.
When I was drinking the beer I was very aware that I didn't really like the taste, bit chemically.
I am so pleased that this is happening and on a relatively low dose too.
I wil go up another 5 mgs next week and I am kind of wondering if this bubble is going to burst as I thought I would be ok at the wedding and well, that went tits up, big style.
Wondering though if maybe enough time has passed for the bac to kick in and my brain chemistry is changing, also I think going AF gave it a chance to work, don't know, maybe.
I'm very aware of the light up feeling and watched the You Tube video that was posted showing that the brain of an addict does actually light up. I can remember my first sip of wine after stopping for over two years and that is what it felt like, Blackpool bloody illuminations (a UK town that is decorated with lots of lights each Autumn) in my brain.
I'm truly hoping that the Bac is doing it's job and the light show in my brain has been dulled down to a couple of street lamps.
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