Tonight, I'm quite the opposite. Last night I drank about a 6 beers. In the former life, I would have about 12 and knew I was just getting started. After just two beers (would normally taken 6), I caught a buzz. Felt ok. Decided a few more might keep the buzz going. Did not work. All that happened was that I became very, very tired and begged myself to never do this bullshit again.
I finally accept and realize that I have always drank to overcome my anxiety. Yea, a buzz was nice at times, but really, all I wanted to do was change the way I was feeling -just not be so damned panicky-on edge. Baclofen has given me what I have always wanted -relief from anxiety with the ability to focus and function. I've finally have what I have always wanted and it does not include alcohol. I'm not afraid of alcohol anymore. I have no desire for it -it seems like such a waste of time now. Even now with times of depression and/or just feeling low, I'm happy (really?). Alcohol use to be answer for any occasion-it was my life line. And now, it's really kind of hard to believe that I use to drink that crap sun up to sun down.
Last night was the best $20.00 I ever spent and for the first time, I'm glad to report my conduct.
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