Abstinence Challenge

[skullbabyland]

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PS, not sure it matters, but I notice I'm the only one to post a daily count in the thread- I'm not being rude in doing so, am I? I trust someone will let me know if I'm using bad form.

[StuckinLA]

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No way, dude. Keep it up. (The posting and the not drinking part, too )

[neophyte]

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i put in another thread about my successes with being AF for now 4 days, put me down for for the 30 day challenge too

thank you Dr Ameisen, they should build a statue to you!

[Juan BH]

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Whoa right on neo! Welcome aboard.

[skullbabyland]

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Cool, thanks Stuck, will do.

Neo, awesome to hear you're on board! And congrats on being 4 days in... it only gets better.

[skullbabyland]

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Day 36 AF.

[neophyte]

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Today marks day number 6 AF

My girlfriend is starting to get annoyed because i wake up euphoric every morning because i no longer wake up a nervous hung over wreck. I feel like I can tackle anything now. and the best part? no cravings. It was a friday night last night in Sydney, and i wasn't even thinking of drinking, while my buddies were out drinking probably feeling sorry for themselves this morning. I was busy with my projects. I have so much i want to do and for once i feel like i don't have enough time to accomplish all the things i want to do, its great! Before i would spend my days bored and just counting down the day until i could drink again.

I had tears of joy last night, i literately cried because i was so happy with how far I've come so far.

I think I might be starting to annoy people with me bumping all these posts in the forum!

seriously, fuck booze and fuck the status quo in our society as an acceptance as a pass time to get shit faced in some pub on a Friday night, obnoxiously making asses of ourselves.

I would rather go train brazillian ju jitsu, lift some weights, do some coding on my millions of projects i can never seem to complete. read up on the world events, go for a walk in the sun and annoy everyone with my constant posts on this forum or write on my blog!

Thank you everyone

[skullbabyland]

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Neo- I sometimes wonder too, if I'm annoying by bumping threads, but then I figure, the more conversation the better so it's cool. Don't worry about it, it's good for us to contribute.

Great job on 6 days keep it up mate!

[skullbabyland]

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Day 37 AF.

[neophyte]

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day 7 here and doing it with ease

skullbabyland;1556316 wrote: Day 37 AF.

grats on the 37 days. How does it feel on day 37?

[skullbabyland]

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Day 38 AF.

[skullbabyland]

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neophyte;1556452 wrote: day 7 here and doing it with ease



grats on the 37 days. How does it feel on day 37?

Thanks Neo. As to how it feels... well, I've gotta renew my vigilance, as the last couple days I found myself entertaining the notion of drinking again. My GF and I are moving to a new city at the end of the month, and I'll be saying goodbye to a handful of family and friends... That addict voice in my head that enjoys beer ("enjoys" being a slight understatement) was like... "let's go off the Antabuse now, so at the end of the month we'll be clear to drink at the goodbye parties... they'll be boring otherwise."

I successfully shut that voice up today... I'll just take the boring goodbye parties, bc my life is so much better and more manageable otherwise, without drinking.

I've also noticed the Pavlovian response that I literally salivate at times when thinking of drinking beer (I also get this when thinking of bread/sugar/pizza/donuts, haha). I do think the baclofen is working well for cravings, but I'm carefully monitoring these things just in case I need to titrate up my dose again.

The other feeling that I can describe is that some days (particularly the mornings when I wake up) I feel sad, guilty, shamed by thinking of all the stuff in my past I wish I could un-do. Some days I just seem to spin my wheels, thinking of all this terrible stuff over and over. Things can get rough emotionally sometimes when not drowning my emotions in poison. I'm working hard on forgiving my past self who was sick and drunk, and moving on to the present and future with as little guilt, sadness, and self-loathing as I can.

TMI? You asked

Great that you're feeling AF with ease! What is your bac dosage at the moment? Don't be surprised if/when some harder days pop up out of nowhere... early sobriety can be a total rollercoaster of ups and downs.

[skullbabyland]

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Day 39 AF

[skullbabyland]

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Day 40 AF

[neophyte]

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Day 10 AF

Skull - nice work on your progress so far. I have bought a house recently and had been doing great at work recently, its amazing how much more work you can get done when you're not crippled with anxiety and a hang over that does not abate until its 6pm and time to start drinking again :eeew:

So given the great news i felt like opening some champagne, with the lady, she asked me that if it's only 1/2 a bottle it should be fine. Well for a normal person it would be, but when i catch that buzz i want more until i get the buzz i want, which is probably closer to the two bottle mark. So we are going out to dinner instead.