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[skullbabyland]

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Day 44 AF

[neophyte]

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skullbabyland;1598911 wrote:
When sober, I've got a fighting chance to be a strong man. And scary as that seems to me in some ways, that's what I desparately want to be. I know I can, but I know I can only do it sober. So that's the major reasons behind my 90 (120?) days. Well, that, plus it coincides nicely with my health/weight loss goals

hey skull, that really resonates with me. when i'm sober i feel so much stronger and confident. im not a shell of hung over anxious nerves where i get temporary relief at 6pm when its time to pound the whiskey.

[Mandiekinz]

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I certainly don't find that boring. You might feel like your boring or feel bored. I find it a personal mental/spiritual challenge that no one else is truly in on, nor understands but ourselves.

TOP SECRET! Stay the feck out.

I, personally, couldn't kill two birds with one stone. However, I did give it a valiant try once. The patch plus an e-cigarette wasn't so bad. Especially on naltrexone at the time...whoooofff...I hated my coffee even. Everything was yuk. That didn't last over a month. My career at the time involved a lot of company meetings at the bar. Actually, I recall my second interview being at the bar at 10:30 in the morning. I loved that job!

Stay strong against the smoke...the sluggishness, the depression, and failed work outs aren't worth it!

You know it's strange however, during my random goes of drinking on baclofen...I had very good moments of drinking just a few and calling it quits with no obsession. Even in my binges I wasn't obsessing, I was easily able to pour the rest of my liquor down the drain when prompted to. Of course the binging itself was no bueno. But progress!

I can say, right now, I don't fear social drinking events. It's not so bothersome. I do catch my eyes on on the prize, but it's not a prize anymore.

I hope you find that soon!

Also for weight loss...I have no idea what's going on with my body these days. A whole slur of craziness for sure, but I went down from a size 3/5 to 00 within 1-2 months without trying. Baclofen? Now, I'm trying to put weight on! It's not working very well.

Cheers, friend.

23AF.

[skullbabyland]

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Mandie- thanks. Yeah, my GF says I'm not boring either but I say that I know I am, kinda half-jokingly. I'm a little boring and often a little bored (at social events). But as I often say... I embrace the boring side of myself, it often treats me much better.

As for smoking... ACK I let myself smoke the last couple days! I went on an overnight trip out of town to see old friends. I had iced tea while they had margs/beer, so at least I didn't drink, but something about the road trip and the getaway made me break down and smoke. I smoked about 2/3rds of the pack then threw them out yesterday when I got home. Now, I have a couple days of moodiness to look forward to as I have nicotine withdrawals. Bah.

Anyway, I don't wanna hijack this thread from an drinking abstinence thread to a non-smoking one, so I digress.

Hope all are well.

[skullbabyland]

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Day 47 AF

[JDizzle]

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skullbabyland;1599942 wrote: Day 47 AF

Damn what's wrong with u. That's like 16 years in normal people time. Good job.

[skullbabyland]

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JDizzle;1599945 wrote: Damn what's wrong with u. That's like 16 years in normal people time. Good job.

Ha, thanks buddy. I'm enjoying reading up on your Gabapentin thread.

[skullbabyland]

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Day 48

[Mandiekinz]

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Keep pushing through, Skull!!

4 weeks AF and feeling fecking confident. Mew! >.

[JDizzle]

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Don't need it. Feel better, work better, having better time.

[skullbabyland]

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Skull- day 49

[Fred_The_Cat]

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Day 6.

[neophyte]

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day 13 here

codeine usage has been tapered from 30 tablets to 19. Originally i was going to taper one tablet a day, but this habit has been going on for 8-9 years, so i think i'll take it slow. It's been an easy taper though, in the past its been nearly impossible to taper unless i had an overseas holiday where getting codeine was impossible and other opiates were illegal. I think i can quit completely now.

[neophyte]

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on a side note, i find that at this level of indifference of 295mg one of my old behaviors has been removed. In the past i would spend a lot of time looking at dark web drug market places like silkroad on tor. for those who don't know what that is, its basically a website that sells illicit drugs via a network protocol that obscures identities, i ordered from there plenty of times: benzos, weed, mushrooms, mdma etc etc.

I would be obsessed with seeing what was for sale, constantly checking whats listed, contemplating what i could take. I often would tell myself i wouldn't order but then i would do it anyway. leading me into some not so great choices like xanax and tramadol abuse.

Since baclofen, i just don't care whats on these sites anymore. the thought of ordering new drugs to try just doesnt interest me. there is always a comedown, there is always side effects and the effects in general are always a let down. that and im just not interested in the high anymore.

Another behavior i don't partake in, i dont try and acquire benzos when i visit the doctor, usually i make up some story about going on a flight to try and get some tablets. Now i just don't care about it.

I think baclofen is making my drug seeking behavior indifferent also. Which is fantastic, i've always felt kind of ashamed of this behavior but i could never help it.

[Fred_The_Cat]

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Damn, I'm really glad silk road wasn't around in my heyday. I would certainly be dead now!

I remember asking for benzos when I was having anxiety attacks when I knew my ex was cheating on me, and she didn't know I knew and I had to act like I didn't know. My doc refused, saying that my anxiety was too chronic to be helped by benzos and that, besides, he did not want xanax loose on a college campus. I thank him to this day.