I drank after 3 months AF

[StuckinLA]

I drank after 3 months AF

fishcake;1529611 wrote: Thanks Stuck,

What details would you like exactly?

Um... ah... er, nevermind, dude.

I just want a shot and a beer.

[JDizzle]

I drank after 3 months AF

Where u at u lush? We wanna hear about jail. Hahahaha. Hope ur still doing good.

[fishcake]

I drank after 3 months AF

Still around and healthy. No drinking events this week, no temptations neither. I'll try as hard as I can to find two successive events on Fri and Sat to get piss drunk and see what happens.

[JDizzle]

I drank after 3 months AF

Always lookin out for us. Love u bro!! U know what... I'm tellin u, giving away ur last drink was a big deal. I wouldn't rule out that u hit ur switch. I feel ya... Not only would I had not given mine away, I'd a been plotting on other people's drinks.

[StuckinLA]

I drank after 3 months AF

It's not even necessarily like a "switch." I mean, don't get me wrong, there was a definite moment when I realized I did not want another drink, and it was right after very slowly having a drink. But even on the way up, there were times I preferred something nonalcoholic, or that I "wanted" a beer but would forget about it and take an hour or more to drink it.

Basically I think I knew bac was working when I would go to the bar and not start a tab, because I knew there was NO WAY I'd want to drink enough to meet the credit card minimum.

So maybe think of it more as a continuum than a switch?

Either way, I'm rooting for you this weekend. I hope you find successive events at which to get pissed--so long as getting pissed isn't the event itself, ya' know?

[skullbabyland]

I drank after 3 months AF

StuckinLA;1530963 wrote: It's not even necessarily like a "switch." I mean, don't get me wrong, there was a definite moment when I realized I did not want another drink, and it was right after very slowly having a drink. But even on the way up, there were times I preferred something nonalcoholic, or that I "wanted" a beer but would forget about it and take an hour or more to drink it.

Basically I think I knew bac was working when I would go to the bar and not start a tab, because I knew there was NO WAY I'd want to drink enough to meet the credit card minimum.

So maybe think of it more as a continuum than a switch?

Either way, I'm rooting for you this weekend. I hope you find successive events at which to get pissed--so long as getting pissed isn't the event itself, ya' know?

Sounds like your sobriety is going well, Stuck. Congrats on the 61 days, too. Has the feeling of being flat/grey/frustrated lifted at all?

[JDizzle]

I drank after 3 months AF

U know I never was much for suicide. I always had the hope that one day I would get sober... No matter how dwindling that hope had become. The scary thing was that I was not contemplating suicide at all but I also wasnt like shrugging the idea totally off anymore. I'm glad I didn't stick around to see where that went.

[fishcake]

I drank after 3 months AF

Well, sorry to disappoint, did not find any events to get plastered this weekend...

Something really strange happened this weekend though:

- On Friday night after work, long story short, I got turned down by a girl I've been wanting to date for a while, a co-worker (i know..i know..), and let's just say I got into my self loathing "forever alone" phases, which I'm really good at. Started spiraling in a very low self-esteem phase and really really wanted to get hammered. Having no drinking events to attend, I was really contemplating the idea of getting something to drink on my own, and I started spiraling into even more negative thoughts on how "baclofen is not working for me". Thank god my roommate arrived home right before I went and bought a bottle and she was not feeling it to go out, we just ended the night playing...super mario world...and I was depressed as fuck.

- Saturday, after a shitty night sleep with insomnia, spent a chill day doing laundry and sending out emails. When the evening was getting closer, and my roommate was not around, I did not feel the temptation to get drunk alone. In my head it went like "pff too far, i dont want to walk 4 blocks to get a bottle of vodka..". Really good, really weird too, considering that I'm at the same dosage (250mg/day). So, bored out of my mind, with no events to attend, and still in my self-loathing phase, I decided to take a hit of weed in my roommates pipe. Man, was it a sweet high, I haven't smoked weed in almost 10 months. Last time I quit was after being 50-1-50ed, for a crazy drunken suicide call, and for some reason had no real desire to go back to it. And also, I noticed I slept much better with barely no insomnia thanks to it. I might actually go back to smoking weed just for that reason.

- Sunday, chill day, no temptation, went sailing with a couple of friends in the beautiful bay of san francisco, aboard there were beers, had two, could of had more if the boat wasn't rocking so much ! Drove back home after 4 hours spent on the water, had a good night, got a little high, and no cravings.

Voil? for the updates.

Peace!

[JDizzle]

I drank after 3 months AF

Weed is good. I don't smoke anymore just cause I don't like it. When I was younger, I actually had a very well respected dr of mine suggest that for depression. He had tried other things on me that didnt work. I have to say, it didnt work at night while I was smoking, but I would be very calm the next day. So weed at night and if I didn't smoke for whatever reason, Valium in the morning. That was a past remedy of mine that did pretty good for a few years.

And yes I'm disappointed. I wanna hear about strippers and cocaine. I want u to leave ur own house in the morning to get away from her. Honestly bro, I know that alone forever feeling. I kinda miss it. It was a beautiful kind of depression. I used to listen to jewel when it got bad.... Fuck I said that out loud didnt I.

[StuckinLA]

I drank after 3 months AF

I am the master of "[blank]'s better off without me, and I want her to be happy" drinking. Oh, I miss those nights.

I also miss strippers.

That is all.

[Xadrian]

I drank after 3 months AF

StuckinLA;1532817 wrote: I am the master of "[blank]'s better off without me, and I want her to be happy" drinking. Oh, I miss those nights.

I also miss strippers.

That is all.

We aren't going to romanticize drinking episodes, are we?

[JDizzle]

I drank after 3 months AF

We wouldn't have gone to hell and back for something we didnt love.

[fishcake]

I drank after 3 months AF

After spending a happy week AF with no cravings, this is what happened last weekend:

- Friday night: my roommate comes back home: "Let's go out, let's drink". We went out, had probably three beers each, then she passed out. Not really satisfied with this (remember I wanted to get piss drunk two nights in a row), I nevertheless went to bed without any cravings.
- Saturday night: after a day AF with no cravings, good spirits, my roommate comes back home: "party tonight, wanna join?". This time, I felt, was a good time to get really drunk. While she was in the shower, I pounded 3 tall ones, drank them like water, got high too. We arrive at the party, there I down probably 5 heavy whisky cokes, started getting nice n drunk. A lil too drunk at the end, not able to socialize anymore, I decide to walk home. There, I grab one last beer in the fridge, thinking "I gotta get drunk all the way to see what happens".
This incredible thing happened: The beer didnt taste as good, I couldnt even finish it, I really did not see the point of getting even more drunk, UN-F*CKIN-BELIEVABLE! I woke up the next day with only a slight hangover and no cravings, kept my same dose of bac, 250mg/day.

If this happens a couple more times, I will have to come to the conclusion that bac is really working for me: I can have fun and get the buzz from alcohol, without craving it too much and avoid what has been the worst for me for a decade: isolating and drinking alone until I lose my mind.

Peace

[fishcake]

I drank after 3 months AF

On another note, I just learned through french news (I'm french) that Dr. Ameisen is dead. I am really sadden by this. RIP to the man who probably saved my life.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

I drank after 3 months AF

Hi Fishcake.

Can you translate this article? Or at least give the basics? I would very much appreciate it.

Olivier Ameisen, l'ap?tre du Baclof?ne, est mort