Ok folks, the results from this experiment are in- and you most certainly DO NOT develop an ability to reduce your maintenance dose over time as a result of increased sobriety.
I stayed at 62.5 mg this past week with no ill effects like cravings or anxiety- this morning I dialed down to 50 and felt kind of irritable at work. Next I'm relaxing at home doing some programming and playing guitar and I feel like a beer at 3:00- BOOM. I downed it in 5 minutes and started craving more.
It is now 5:00 and I have not had more, nor will I go pick some up. Instead I will down 50 more mg and step back up to 75 tomorrow morning.
This underscores a very basic and unpalatable fact- the changes to our brains are permanent and there is no renegotiating the maintenance dose for good behavior. It is what it is.
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