In my 7 months on baclofen I've started cleaning my home and yard. I'm growing some small trees and weeding--2 things I never imagined I'd do. I'm caring about my home and yard.
I took a trip to see friends/colleagues in Switzerland and this is the first visit out of 5 where I wasn't obsessed about how to drink more without them noticing! I also stuck to a budget and didn't use credit there. I'm translating a study they've done from Italian to English--a first. When I return to Switzerland I'm going to do a tandem jump and flight off the mountain above town.
I, too, am hearing what my son says and doesn't say and I can hold him to his chores better.
I'm getting out of debt. I'm going to the dentist and eye doctor. Self care is a good feeling. I'm not doing optional things I don't want to. I'm feeling good. I'm reading a lot of nonfiction and feel on the edge of something new.
Thanks again. I feel happy just writing what I'm doing.
I am sooo looking forward to feeling the way you guys feel already: FREE FROM SLAVERY! I know when you don't drink boredom disguised as depression, or the other way around, tends to be overwhelming: I've been there many times. You feel so lonely and empty without alcohol. But I bet that boredom/loneliness is a lot different when you are not drinking but you are still obsessed by the thought - chained to it all the time - and when you are not drinking because in fact you just do not care about it anymore (again... I can't wait for that to happen!!!! The day I feel like that will be the first day of freedom in a long, long, pitch-black dark time...)
As for how to kill the time, I just love it when I find a movie that just transports me elsewhere - or a book. In fact, if and when I hit the switch I bet I will be watching a lot of Downton Abbey reruns And I love to write - but right now it is a damn paradox that I always do with a glass of wine next to the keyboard as soon as the sun starts setting. I am looking forward to a lot of sober writing without the struggle against going to buy the damn wine...:yay:
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