I'm in an outpatient chemical dependency program at Kaiser here in San Francisco, CA USA. They are great and really helpful in general. They have group and individual sessions, education classes, and a medical department that includes psychiatrists.
I have been on Effexor 150MG and Nuerontin 900MG 3TD for a few months now. It's strange, but at about 15 days sober I started to feel really physically anxious. I feel like I'm on a low grade stimulant and it's not a euphoric feeling at all. It feels like bad cold medicine or something.
Anyways, I am trying to advocate for myself as far as the medicine goes. I have a lot of practice with the mindfulness practices and habits that can help me be sober and well, but have always just sort of taken whatever anti depressant/anxiety med that the doc wanted me too regardless of my intuition or experience.
I read The End of My Addiction and was really inspired by the info about the GABA2 receptors and the fact that Baclofen hits them. I have mentioned it twice to the doc and he just sort of changes the subject. He did say that he wanted to try all the standard stuff before trying any "fringe" treatments. I have a feeling that a large HMO like Kaiser will not be able to try out anything that is not big brand and has lots of controlled human trials to back it up. I almost went to another doc to get the bac but his treatment plan was going to be about 1200 Dollars US a month. I am not able to afford that. Buying Bac online from overseas and counting on it being available and good quality sounds like a bad plan for me. I also don't want to go behind the back of the good folks at the rehab. I understand their position about the Bac. Legally it's a way way off label thing for them to do. Especially at high doses.
For now I will work with the doc I have and can afford I guess. He did offer Campral (Acamprosate), as an option. It looks like it does at least affect this area of the brain although not the exact spot. I think I'll try it. Any positive experiences with this?
FYI, My goal is Abstinence. Moderation hasn't been successful for me recently, so clean is the way to go for now.
I may print out some literature and sneak it in to the hands of the medical department there regarding Bac. It just might have an effect!
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