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**zampa75** · August 9, 2013, 02:09 PM

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**zampa75** · August 9, 2013, 05:00 PM

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Ok, I said yesterday that the incredible afternoon drowsiness had passed... Not. I spoke too soon. I definitely feel it today, and I haven't even taken half of my daily dose yet.
Should I expect it to be always like this, going up?

**zampa75** · August 13, 2013, 01:30 PM

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Is it possible that the pain in my back is Bac related? It feels a lot like my herniation pain, except... It is on the wrong side! And it seems it's only getting worse...

Also, this last weekend I did not experience the close-to-indifference to alcohol I did the previous... Bummer... I felt I had more control on it, and one night I actually managed to stop before getting drunk- unbelievable... I drank more slowly and without desperation, but I still drank to get a buzz... Is it possible that Iam going up too slowly? Or what is it? I feel like my progress is going in the wrong direction... Help.

**Mandiekinz** · August 13, 2013, 02:26 PM

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From my own experience with sobriety, quantity control, and straight drinking, there are waves. None of this is -easy-. There are moments (very few) that I'm completely fine and can handle a night out drinking and not get out of control. But the majority of the time, I'm full fledged scratching and clawing to get more booze through the night, and more in the morning, afternoon, so on and so on...

You're still titrating up to your "switch". It takes time and effort on your part as well. A completely different lifestyle and thought process can't possibly change in the matter of a couple of weeks. Try not to get too discouraged. The frustration will lead you to drink more. Any excuse, right? Have you attempted to go AF through this yet? It might help to give the Bac a better chance at fighting for you.

**zampa75** · August 13, 2013, 02:53 PM

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I go AF for two or three days in a row- not more. But that I've managed that in the last 3 weeks is already a huge change compared to the past...

**zampa75** · August 13, 2013, 02:55 PM

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Are you?

**Mandiekinz** · August 13, 2013, 04:55 PM

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That's progress! I am AF for 25 days now. It really helps for me to be very conscious of what's going on mentally and physically with the Bac. It wasn't easy at first, but I'm noticing a change coming on and it makes the days easier. Not that there aren't bad days. There really are, but fewer and further between. I'm also blessed to have a fiance who won't drink for me and refuses to let me drink. Not that it stopped me before.

**zampa75** · August 14, 2013, 11:38 AM

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So, this morning I had my FINAL session with the vampire therapist and doctor - I believe they are married... Since I won't commit to AA, he won't be prescribing me Baclofen anymore, which I totally expected. I could not wait to get out of there...I am sooo happy I won't be going back! And, get this, though it was my last time there, they still wanted to take a urine sample for drug screening...???? It doesn't make any sense. I should have just refused.

Now of course the problem is that I have to get my Bac elsewhere: I had already asked for Dr.L's details in the past here but they got buried somewhere in this long thread, so, post it again please??

And thank you LoOp for your private message. I will call you tomorrow as you asked : ) Liquid Bac sounds really promising...

**zampa75** · August 14, 2013, 08:05 PM

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Feeling a little discouraged right now... Those first two weeks on Bac were awesome. Now it's just as if reality kicked in and told me, It was all an illusion. It sucks... I know it's gonna take time and I just should be patient, but these past few days I've felt more and more like the old me. Without the utter desperation, but the result is the same... Once again, help guys. Help me push on... I still believe in the switch. I'm just not acting accordingly...

**Colin** · August 15, 2013, 07:58 AM

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It's not an illusion. You know objectively and dispassionately that baclofen is not an illusion and the events of the last few weeks really happened. The gut feeling will come back and probably just as soon as you get your reliable supply of baclofen.

This trip is an emotional roller-coaster - just hang on tight and you'll get where you want to get to.

**zampa75** · August 15, 2013, 06:35 PM

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Colin;1544103 wrote: It's not an illusion. You know objectively and dispassionately that baclofen is not an illusion and the events of the last few weeks really happened. The gut feeling will come back and probably just as soon as you get your reliable supply of baclofen.

This trip is an emotional roller-coaster - just hang on tight and you'll get where you want to get to.

Thanks so much, Colin. Your words did help, but the news of Levin not being able to prescribe anymore bombed me. That's really what I was counting on... I really do not know where to go now- I've already emailed a few members and posted like crazy here today. How do you get your supply? Any ideas??
I will have to taper down and stop if I don't find another way, and I really really don't want to do that...
Thanks

**skullbabyland** · August 15, 2013, 08:20 PM

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Z, I thought I remembered that you'd decided to go the liquid bac route? Did I remember that incorrectly?

**zampa75** · August 15, 2013, 08:29 PM

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Yes I did consider that and contacted LoOp, but my husband insists that I take it from a doctor. I haven't ruled the liquid out yet, but I am trying to do things by the book, more or less. Also, the liquid seems not to get rid of the terrible drowsiness affecting me....

Why? You're using it? Successfully?

**skullbabyland** · August 15, 2013, 10:46 PM

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zampa75;1544353 wrote: Yes I did consider that and contacted LoOp, but my husband insists that I take it from a doctor. I haven't ruled the liquid out yet, but I am trying to do things by the book, more or less. Also, the liquid seems not to get rid of the terrible drowsiness affecting me....

Why? You're using it? Successfully?

Oh, I brought it up because you seemed to be looking for another solution aside from Dr. L, and I thought I'd remembered reading that you were going to go that route.

I haven't tried it myself but I've read nothing but positives on MWO from multiple members... If you feel more comfortable with a doctor's prescription, have you consulted Cassander's doctors list? Are you close in proximity to any listed there?

**zampa75** · August 15, 2013, 10:47 PM

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skullbabyland;1544378 wrote: Oh, I brought it up because you seemed to be looking for another solution aside from Dr. L, and I thought I'd remembered reading that you were going to go that route.

I haven't tried it myself but I've read nothing but positives on MWO from multiple members... If you feel more comfortable with a doctor's prescription, have you consulted Cassander's doctors list? Are you close in proximity to any listed there?

Nope... Lucky me lucky me.
I've taken a real close look at that list a few hours ago.

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