sorry if this rambles on a bit.so i've been on bac since june 4th and am now up to 180mg per day. since i've pushed past 150 i'm now getting a whole raft of side effects (i only had drowsiness up to 150) and i don't know how worried i should be. the worst is the shallow breathing where it feels i have to force myself to inhale.it's woken me up numerous times and continues to do so and has worried the shit out of me and my wife is worried too. my sleep is also screwed, less sleep which is ok but i find myself waking at stupid times of the night as well. i also have a lot of itching all over, but quite often on my neck. the daytime drowsiness is now quite strong but luckily i work on my own so can work with around it.i also have a sense of smoothness to my taste, as if i have a silk lining in my mouth, strange, and just recently, my sense of smell has vastly increased. the main worry i have is about my breathing. i've moved doctors so was going to tell them about it but as i'm getting private prescriptions up to 100mg and i've bought a supply to take me up to where im at 180 now and beyond, i don't think i should really mention it in case they take me off it straight away, but it's still quite worrying.
when it comes to my drinking, bac has completely stopped my blackouts which is an absolute joy but it's not slowing me down. i've still been soldiering on at my usual levels (15-18units per night), probably hoping that bac would stop me on it's own. as of today, im stopping drinking completely as i really must help it do it's stuff instead of hindering it. i always thought that you could merrily drink away on it and it would stop me, have i got that wrong? also, because i dont have blackouts anymore, i think i've lost the serious intent to stop drinking a little bit and i don't want to lose sight of the reason im on bac in the first place and i'm worried about that too.
i know a lot of the side effects are to be expected but should i be overly worried about the breathing? it's ok to deal with but i don't want to forget to breathe and not wake up!! should i have been lowering my beer intake? i've been going at the same levels as i said and am stopping outright from today (i once did 2 months with nothing but strong resolve built up via councilling). i still have beer thoughts though if i can get a solid two weeks under my belt from today I'm hoping the bac can start changing that because i don't really want to go pushing past the 200 mark but if needs must....
any advice/guidance/encouragement is greatly appreciated as it's getting tough.
ps: im also not sure if i'm dosing correctly. as i said, im on 18 tabs a day. im doing 5 in the morning, 6 when i get home and 7 a little before bed. is there a better way to dose which would bring benefits quicker? my wife contacted a doctor in northern england who said a lot of it is down to dosing correctly but (and maybe i'm being tight and/or cynical) i reckon he'd love to have me as a patient as its just money into his coffers.
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