Baclofen, a personal journey.

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Oh wow it worked!! Yeah, now I know how all you long-time forum legends do it! :H
I will be back shortly to check out and edit my grammar. Bad grammar is a pet hate of mine. Even though I am fully aware that after 20 years I still don't know when to use to or too amongst a whole lot of other things, but anyways....

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Ok done with the editing, as I just can't be bothered to correct anymore people. Oh I do apolise as I had to delete some emoticons in the original messages. I found out there is a limit of 6 per message.
So hereby:
:H :l :thanks: :lalala: :nutso: rockon:

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

MissIndygo;1599831 wrote:

Haha I had tried to email you in the meantime, but your email is full again woman! Oh I am still waiting on a reply from my last one btw. Get your butt into gear girl

ACK! I just saw that my box is full and that there are some unanswered PMs in there. I am so sorry. But I should also confess to being really bad at keeping up with that. (And personal correspondence in general, recently.) No excuses, but I don't get prompts that tell me I got a PM. :/ I'm not sure why.

That said, I'm not going to answer now. My sleep is kerfuffled. I guess 2:40 am is the new wake up call for my body. And I woke up with all sorts of stress today. Finally went back to bed and now have to start my day...Though I'm really wanting to go back to bed again. Ugh. I hope it doesn't foreshadow my day. Booze, man. Two glasses of wine last night and I'm going to pay for it all day. pfffffft.

Congrats on the multi-quote! Woot! And the other more important stuff too.

Bacinabit.

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

[QUOTE=Ne/Neva Eva;1599861] ACK! I just saw that my box is full [QUOTE]

Sorry but I couldn't help, but crack up hihi :H Simple minds, simple humor lol.

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Ne/Neva Eva;1599861 wrote: ACK! I just saw that my box is full

Sorry but I couldn't help, but crack up hihi :H Simple minds, simple humor lol.

[Mandiekinz]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Wheeewwww.....Lady, you had quite the reply. Impressive!

Yes, 3 going on 4 weeks of sobriety. I trust myself right now that I could go and have a few drinks with my SO and I'll be okay. That's not on my agenda though. I was an -every day- drinker...usually a fifth or more/day of vodka pre bac from the second I opened my eyes. I've had many bouts of sobriety throughout the last 5 months on bac...and each time has brought me up and up. The differences I had with baclofen that started to arise, was when I was capable of going out and enjoying a few drinks and not FREAKING OUT on the way back home, begging and fighting to stop for more booze. Also, not waking up looking for my bottle the next morning. Or, if I was giving myself a "day drinking" session (because I loooove my one woman parties), the SO would sometimes ask me to pour out what I had left and I could easily do it. Pre-bac...I'd be breaking everything he had out of a fit of rage b/c alcohol was my absolute number one. On baclofen, once the alcohol came to an end, I don't rampage back to the store to purchase more. I noticed after a couple of months, my mind would slow down and I could ask myself...do I really want it? I wasn't craving it. I was just bored and was testing myself and the baclofen. Clearly, I'm very stubborn and defiant. I haven't really experienced cravings in awhile. Aside from one frustrating day recently, which alprazolam helped knock that off. Beyond cravings, I don't experience thoughts of alcohol. It's a trial and error adventure we are all embarking on with baclofen. Some people miraculously found immediate indifference, others had to beat themselves up over the course of a year or so...and others are in between. Each of our minds are programmed so different from another. Which makes this pretty exciting..it's our very own tailored remedy to rid us of this wretched thing that has had us locked up in a cage for so long. Instead of the drone way of abstinence, nail biting, lying to yourself and everyone else, and the big book. Even in my 5 months of sobriety following my last stint in the treatment, I didn't care for myself and well being as I do now. I was more so looking for things to keep myself occupied.

I'm truly sorry about your sister. It had to of been such an awful and dark time for you. I find it amazing you powered through it soberly. To me, it sounds like your sister in law has a very tender heart, she must really love you for her heart to break so badly for your loss. As for the family not bringing up emotional subjects...Perhaps that's their way of protecting themselves and you from facing any ill feelings. Besides, it's the holidays...who wants to talk about sad things? My family does the same thing though, I secretly and silently beg in my head for them to talk to me about past situations. They never do. Until we are all shit faced around the table and suddenly a certain subject is brought up. At which, none of us can really openly communicate about it because
A.) They're too drunk to listen and are too busy waiting to shout out the next thing that pops up in their head, continuously talking over each other
B.) They won't absorb a damn thing I say.
C.) We go through it each and every time...so what is the point? (please revert back to B)
D.) I'm too drunk to properly express what's going through my head and heart.(please revert back to A,B, and C)

The reason being behind all this...they're scared to hurt me unless they get some liquid courage pumping through their veins. I've been guilty of it too. They don't understand or know how to communicate and be emotionally supportive. They like to hide behind perfection and jokes. There are never any serious, emotional conversations. They are just really detached. It's not healthy. As you've been through treatment before and have had the opportunity to open yourself up and be true with your pain with other people...You understand the necessity of being open and true and confronting issues. Treatment is quite the blessing as you've been taught different techniques that the majority of the world does not understand or comprehend. You're more...evolved and in tune with what's healthy vs. unhealthy. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually. You understand humility and accountability. It can get rather frustrating when dealing with other people that don't know how to connect other than superficial topics.

It sounds like your hubby has it pretty good with you. He gets camping cards! I sometimes wish my SO would just go out and get wasted. He needs it sometimes, sheeesh. It's a shame I can't force some alprazolam down his throat as he gets drug tested. hehe shhhh...

His family must put a lot of pressure on him to strive for absolute perfectionism and have to hide his true self and faults. It must be conflicting for him too, to not be able to be real around his loved ones. Men's egos don't like to show much fault in their lives especially to family that hold such high standards. Mine won't even mention he's struggling with money right now. His family is shit broke too! hah! So strange.

I hope you're finding -some- good out of your visit, lady! Sounds like quite the testing time.

[skullbabyland]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Mandiekinz;1599532 wrote: Twitches, jerks, restlessness, insomnia, anxiety, fatigue, and weakness are all signs of magnesium deficiency.

Interesting- I didn't know this but it makes sense- I had a lot of all of the above but it's recently all gotten a lot better. I take a cal/mag/zinc supplement as well as vit C, D, and B. Maybe those have helped.

[Mandiekinz]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Yes, definitely. It helped me a bit too after some multi-vits, B's, and omega...however, once I amped up the magnesium...I tell ya, I slept better the past two nights than I have in 2 months COMBINED. Even my alprazolam hasn't helped me sleep. I'm starting to take 500mg/day...1-am 1-afternoon 2-before bed.

Careful not to take too much calcium with the magnesium as it may block the mag.

Are you taking a B-complex? Or certain B's?

[neophyte]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

thanks for reminding me to buy some more ZMA Mandie

ZMA powder can be bought on ebay pretty cheap which gives you 470mg of magnesium when taking 500mg a night. It's worth supplementing with magnesium, especially if you don't get enough green leaf vegies in your diet which are pretty expensive these days. according to wikipedia:

57% of the US population does not meet the US RDA for dietary intake of magnesium

A good quality multi vitamin is a good idea too, i take life force multi, its expensive, but i only take 1/4 of the dose. The reason i take this one is that the vitamins are in a bio available form that has high absorption in addition to that, some of the essential vitamins which are expensive by weight are not under dosed in this formulation. Often what supplement companies do is load up the multi with exceptionally high daily value cheap vitamins that are water soluable. You just end up urinating these out giving the classic bright yellow piss, b vitamins are usually the culprit for this as it makes it look like the multi is 'working' from a marketing standpoint.

I think the following are a good idea to supplement
- vitamin d3
- magnesium
- multi vitamin low dose
- fish oil

I also take creatine for my lifting

[Jazi's Mum]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Just be careful with magnesium....runny bum is just about the right term.

(think I first read "runny bum" on Skullbabyland's thread...)

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Oh that brings to mind another Good se from Bac: no more runny bum. I can put my watch on it. Like clock work and it is of the healthy kind of variant. Sorry discusting I know, but after years of runny bum a positive experience nonetheless.

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Hi Jazi's mum, nice to see you on board. Welcome

[Jazi's Mum]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Thanks, and thanks too for your nice long thread. It's been so helpful to sit here over the past few days and read, read, read. So much good information around and many stories to relate too.

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Jazi's Mum;1600119 wrote: Thanks, and thanks too for your nice long thread. It's been so helpful to sit here over the past few days and read, read, read. So much good information around and many stories to relate too.

Good to hear . I am looking forward to when you start your own thread. When were you expecting deliver of your bac order?

[MissIndygo]

Baclofen, a personal journey.

Hello all,

All is still good in my world

I am just enjoying my peace and quiet for another week and then I will deal with whatever comes my way the best I can. That's all I can do I have realised.

One more thing that I am a little concerned about is that I get so unbelievably tired following dinner.
That's all fine when I am at home, as I will just take myself off to bed, but when I am expected to socialise it might become a bit odd. Especially since the west is 3 hours behind so 8:30 pm will feel like 11:30 pm for quite a while before my bio-rhythm adjusts.

Any tips or tricks how I can deal with this?
Are there any over the counter drugs that may be able to give me a bit of a lift for a couple of hours every night?

For now, I thought I would tell everybody a little white lie and make out I am taking an anti-histamine for severe hay-fever. In my knowledge anti-histamines make you drowsy. I just have to google a name, so that I am all prepared to explain my tiredness. My tiredness shows in my face and I can hardly keep my eyes open (I look like a Basset hound []https://www.mywayout.org/community/attachments/f20/7684d1387351750-basset-hound.jpg] on good nights on really bad nights I look like a Neo Mastiff []https://www.mywayout.org/community/attachments/f20/7685d1387351783-neo-mastiff.jpg]. Photos are also attached in case they don't show up here. Both are cute though ).

I just thought I would put it out here and see what you people have done in the past in similar situations.

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