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[bkyogagurl]

anyone on nal/tsm

I'm trying to stay positive. I think I'm a bit tired tonight cause I am feeling some anxiety. So maybe I will post In the morn when I am fresh and more "tits up" or I guess that means your screwed up huh?? How bout not tits up:H
I have deciphered some of your lingo as I figured pissed meant drunk... I learned about waffling and gobsmacked too.. Funny words I will use here in the US to confuse my friends.

I went to the doc today and she said she would support my Nal use if my liver functions look ok.

See you tomorrow Spud... It will be a new day and a new start.:l

Stay away from the lying scale.

[YouKayBee]

anyone on nal/tsm

bkyogagurl;1609288 wrote: I'm trying to stay positive. I think I'm a bit tired tonight cause I am feeling some anxiety. So maybe I will post In the morn when I am fresh and more "tits up" or I guess that means your screwed up huh?? How bout not tits up:H
I have deciphered some of your lingo as I figured pissed meant drunk... I learned about waffling and gobsmacked too.. Funny words I will use here in the US to confuse my friends.

I went to the doc today and she said she would support my Nal use if my liver functions look ok.

See you tomorrow Spud... It will be a new day and a new start.:l

Stay away from the lying scale.

I'm laughing at you learning and using the words:H That'll confuse 'em a bit.

Up at Spuddle I say any AF time is good, means you have to face up to life as it is, no hiding, lots of learning so well done.:goodjob:

It's around 8.30am here, so time for a new day to begin.

[spuddleduck]

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ha ha, bkyoga, I have this vision of you with your friends..... 'oh yeah she's stopped drinking but has started talking this funny language.... must be the withdrawals'. maybe this is why there is so much war in the world... communication breakdown.
ukb, ive almost felt as if I 'should be drinking' to further the work of nal but that would just be ridiculous.. the drinking will come soon enough without letting it slip through my swerving net.

for some strange reason, within 5 minutes of waking up this morning (earlier than usual so yeehaa to me) I started thinking about drinking... I don't mean about drinking there and then, more about 'oh maybe later'. no reason at all for this thought. I can only think that somehow my subconscious has thought 'oh well done, 6 days af, time for a drink'. I know I was aware of the af time but I certainly hadn't consciously put that thought process in there. I will have to be extra vigilant today.... and if this thought keeps banging away in my head I will TAKE MY NAL IN GOOD TIME before any real thoughts of drinking pop in. I know to some this my seem like a battle I don't need to be doing, ie just take nal and drink, but to me that just doesn't seem right.

bkyoga, I wonder if your anxiety is a bit the same as my thoughts, although counting af days is a great way of tracking success and going for goals it can also make remind you of how long it is since you drank.... and letting the silly thoughts of drinking creep in.
ive been considering approaching my doc about nal, but at the rate im going what I have now should last quite a while.... I hate going to the docs, don't know why, I just do.

[skullbabyland]

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Regarding the scale...

http://healthyjasmine.com/wp-content...cale-image.jpg

[bkyogagurl]

anyone on nal/tsm

Love it Skull.. Almost got a little tear. I'm sensitive.

Spuds- I hate it when you wake up like that and have to plan your day with thoughts of drinking in your head. Swerve baby Swerver.. Kinda reminds of twerking... Not the same by any means.

I haven't been thinking about drinking much and I think my anxiety comes from the thoughts that swirl thru my head that need to be dealt with. I can usually keep them at bay for awhile then usual drink them out of my head. So I have decided they are just feelings and they can't hurt me so I'm going to feel them. I have been feeling so I just don't want to drink.

I am fasting for my blood test this morn ugh.... Be back later.

[spuddleduck]

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skullbabyland;1609465 wrote: Regarding the scale...

http://healthyjasmine.com/wp-content...cale-image.jpg

hee hee love it skull, think I may have to get my marker pen out and attack my evil scales.

[spuddleduck]

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well as expected today was a bit of a rollercoaster on the drink front. I kept getting little mini cravings which I kept shoving to the back of my mind. then I popped into town for some shopping.... 3 times round the booze section, picking up then putting down vodka..... this game ended in putting down and leaving down. I do have wine at home if I wanted it but the devil in me just wanted vodka and wanted it RIGHT NOW. luckily the angel in me won over and the bottle stayed on the shelf and the wine stayed in the bottle. this evening I wasn't feeling too good, just a bit sicky for no apparent reason so I settled down to an evening of slonking in front of the telly and watching mindless crap. at this rate my packet of nal is going to last me ages.

[YouKayBee]

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spuddleduck;1609626 wrote: well as expected today was a bit of a rollercoaster on the drink front. I kept getting little mini cravings which I kept shoving to the back of my mind. then I popped into town for some shopping.... 3 times round the booze section, picking up then putting down vodka..... this game ended in putting down and leaving down. I do have wine at home if I wanted it but the devil in me just wanted vodka and wanted it RIGHT NOW. luckily the angel in me won over and the bottle stayed on the shelf and the wine stayed in the bottle. this evening I wasn't feeling too good, just a bit sicky for no apparent reason so I settled down to an evening of slonking in front of the telly and watching mindless crap. at this rate my packet of nal is going to last me ages.

Bloody well done Missus:goodjob:

Doesn't give you an excuse to drink tomoz though if you really don't want to. I've done the walking away from the shelf thing with both booze and food (seperately). There's a lot of pride to be had in it and you'll save yourself a shitty night and morning because of it.

Mindless crap on telly is better than mindless drinking:goodjob:

[bkyogagurl]

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Oh yes... And my favorite all time European word.... Bloody...
HA! I wish I could make it sound right in a sentence with my American accent....
I don't bloody want a bloody drink... HAHAHAHA much better than saying the f word which comes out of my mouth on occasion.

So proud of you Spud... It's hard swerving and it's awesome you are putting your mind to it. It's hard work but so worth the effort.
:yougo::rockon:

[spuddleduck]

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Oh yes... And my favorite all time European word.... Bloody...

well im getting educated, i didn't even realise these words were not internationally used... maybe i need to get out more.

im still planning on not drinking until the weekend.... but my weekend often starts on Thursday. for me a good thing about this nal/tsm programme is that i don't need to beat myself up if i drink AS LONG AS I TAKE THE NAL IN GOOD TIME. sometimes i get so pissed off with myself if i drink when i hadn't planned it i get into a real self destruct mode which doesn't help things at all and is likely to send me off to the bottle again. i know that sounds ridiculous but it happens.
without wanting to think about af days i am pretty chuffed that i am now on longer af days than i have for a long time. yes, maybe i am a closet sober person.

[spuddleduck]

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ukb, thanks for the support, and reminding me that putting the booze back was a good idea. im glad im not the only one who does that. i bet a lot of folk here do.
and bkyoga i don't even need to say but BLOODY WELL DONE YOU.

[skullbabyland]

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Great job, Duck, on putting back the booze, and even better on ignoring the wine at home!

There's interesting research that shows that cravings in the brain actually only last, on average, about 15 minutes. Though of course, they can feel much much longer because they feel so much more intense. And they can last longer if we continue to ruminate on them. But in my experience they do actually seem to subside after a short time and then I have more "choice" after. Is this what happened, once you got past the booze isle? By the time you got home, the craving had subsided and you were more easily able to choose regarding the wine??

Regarding the above, sometimes when I'm craving super hard, I tell myself "look, if you MUST have x, you CAN- but you must wait 30 minutes. If you must still have it after 30 min, then you can make that choice." But often, 30 minutes later, it seems less attractive.

Also, regarding TV- I find that TV/movies are actually one of the best tools I have against alcohol, and most welcome. They provide entertainment (from boredom) and distraction (from cravings). It's passive and mindless and easy at the click of a button, and gets me past cravings. Yes, that makes me occasionally a couch potato, but I'm cool with that

Bloody well done, all of you

[spuddleduck]

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just tried 4 times to start writing and I can't. so im going to rant. bugger bugger bugger. so much for not drinking till weekend. I HAVE TAKEN NAL (only 25mg) but I have taken it and waited over an hour.
I want to describe today but I cant get it to come out right. I will try. didn't get up till noon..didn't sleep very well cos back hurting again. so a bit pissed off about that. spent most of the afternoon helping mr spud trying to put scaffolding up (we need to get up with a chainsaw to try and get the rest of this bloody tree down before it falls on house). 2 things freaked me out a bit: 1) we are selling an old car and someone came to look and buy it 2)someone came to look at the rooms we rent out..... don't know why but people just freak me. I get tongue tied and edgy. mr spud didn't help by saying 'will you shut up and stop talking so much' argh! confidence battered. I over compensate for my nerves by rabbiting on too much.

[spuddleduck]

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pressed the post reply button as I cant get the words I want to say out. will post later or tomorrow or yesterday or the day after

[spuddleduck]

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bah, don't think I will be drinking anymore tonight.