anyone on nal/tsm

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

bkyoga, great choice on not drinking, sure your son appreciated it... and how good to actually feel you have the choice. its 21.35 here so i guess you are 9 hours time difference from here in uk.

feeling ok for this week (hmph, ive said that before).. first thing tomorrow i will chase up my nal order.

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

thanks ukb. ref to your earlier post i hadnt taken nal since thursday (and of course not drank) so i did not have nal in me on saturday when i had my drink. what bothered me most is the unexpectedness of this 'session', though should i really be surprised as i know one sip can send me off.

my computer is playing up so im back on my phone which sometimes makes for odd reading and even odder puncuation

[YouKayBee]

anyone on nal/tsm

spuddleduck;1599641 wrote: thanks ukb. ref to your earlier post i hadnt taken nal since thursday (and of course not drank) so i did not have nal in me on saturday when i had my drink. what bothered me most is the unexpectedness of this 'session', though should i really be surprised as i know one sip can send me off.

my computer is playing up so im back on my phone which sometimes makes for odd reading and even odder puncuation

Bugger I obviously got mixed up.

Perhaps need to check all drinks carefully, and take nal at any sign. I used to take it in the morning because I couldn't trust myself to wait the hour later on - Dr C advised this he said take it before the cravings or temptations usually start. I know that's a bit odd if you are only drinking once a week but perhaps there's some way you could adapt it.

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

bugger its 5.30am and not been to sleep. was knitting till 1.30, tv till 3 which usually sends me to sleep , then counting sheep and other mental challenges till now. so given up and having a cuppa and a look on here. think its due to my recent hibernation under the duvet. don't have to be up before noon so trying not to fret but i like my 9 hours sleep.
ukb Im pretty sure if i take nal AT THE FIRST THOUGHT of drinking i will be ok. in the past i.have.gone through the pre drink battle (to drink or not to drink) and by the time i decide on drink Im kinda past.the point of waiting an hour, and for me it needs to be longer so my rule is gonna be take it straight away.

[skullbabyland]

anyone on nal/tsm

Spud, do you use any sleep aids? Melatonin works well for me... I hate not being able to sleep.

[bkyogagurl]

anyone on nal/tsm

I am feeling bummed- I just found out that my uncle died. I took my Nal a while ago because I figure I will be drinking by the evening.

I know he is in a better place.

Sorry to hear you aren't sleeping well Spud. I take trazadone. It works really well.

[sunshinedaisies]

anyone on nal/tsm

BK - SO sorry about your uncle - hugs to you :l:l

Love, Sun XX

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

bkyaga, sorry to hear about your uncle, but pleased to hear you have taken nal so hopefully you will be able to be a bit restrained in your drinking. this could so easily have been a time where it would have been easy to say 'to hell with it' and go for a bit of an bender/blanking session so well done you. im very much what I would call an emotional/reaction drinker (or maybe you could call it an any excuse drinker) but that would certainly have been in my mind.

as for my sleep, I finally got to sleep at about 7.30am, and got up at noon. have been grumpy all day, and out on the roof trying to fix something up as we are due some more windy storms.
I often take an overcounter med called sominex, which is an anti-histamine and works pretty well for me. though I have to be careful not to take it too often as it will lose its effect. Ive heard of melatonin and will have a read up on it, thanks skull. bkyoga I haven't heard of trazadone, it sounds like a prescription med?? hopefully it was a one off and I fortunately didn't have to be up and about in the morning. looking forward to a good nights sleep..... with a little help from sominex.
im still feeling positive about the next few days so just need to keep up with this thinking.

[bkyogagurl]

anyone on nal/tsm

I would totally agree that I am an emotional/excuse drinker. I hate feeling my feelings. I took my Nal and will soon probably crack open a beer. In a way I don't feel like drinking as in drunk drinking just want to taste the bubbly stuff going down my throat. That is how the it all starts- just one.
I feel sad. I know I want to escape from the sadness I feel. It's like I don't like to give myself permission to have sad feelings. It's like I want to wash away these feelings. But as we all know- it doesn't work like that and eventually you have to feel your emotions. I have to keep my shit together. Everything has been going so well and I don't want that to end.
I have a responsiblilty to my wonderful kids to keep it together.

I'm glad your back Spud.

[YouKayBee]

anyone on nal/tsm

I didn't reply earlier because I wasn't sure what to say.

I'm sorry about your loss but pleased you have taken the Nal. When these things happen you may experience what I called 'spikes' in your drinking, so long as you take the nal and wait the hour before starting you'll be fine. Way I looked at it was that I was breaking down different triggers, so I'd start to remove the connection between the bottle providing an escape. These episodes can be scary, and make you think it's not working, but it's all part of the process.

[bkyogagurl]

anyone on nal/tsm

Thank you UK- your support and advice is helping me to ride out the confusing stuff.

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

whaaaaaa. screaming at the wallssssssssss. I don't know how to put into words.... but I HAVE HAD NAL... ONLY 25MG AS I AM STILL WAITING...... arrrrrrrrrr I want to scream but iam here I will press the post button and post

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

there is know way of explaining the po o ppooooo now but I will try......... anyhway I HAve taken nal........ only 25mg as still waiting

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

again I must say that the fact I am aware and can post slightily coherently makes me think that there is something being here...... a little bit of awareness,,, which I have never had,,,,,,,

[spuddleduck]

anyone on nal/tsm

4.30 am in what should be sleep time. don't know what to do with myself but I will post here. I don't know where to start but I will start with saying I have taken 25mg nal. this was yesterday at approx. 4,pm. perhaps I am writing this for me . I don't know my head is going crazy.. there is too much info to put here but basics... I am in uk and have put myself forward for jobsekers allowance which is what we do herein uk when not working. it pays me ?71 week which I can get on with . just about pays for stuff. today I have had a visit from a 'compliance officer' from somewhere or other... with a whole load of questions to me....... as to my co habitation or not. asking so many questions... I will tell you peeps here... yes I do live with mr spuds. thie thing is he does not in any way support me as I am the onlyone here with any money.. what I am so very pissed off about is that it appears to be his ex wife or his daughter who has put forward an allegation for me to be stuffed and I am completely and utterly pissed off with her for doing this.