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[bkyogagurl]

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Hi Spud-
Seems like we are still on the same track. Friday night I had some horrible cramps in the middle of the night. I get them near my time of the month & deal with constipation a bit which can be painful in itself. I have a doctors appointment in January to make sure things are ok. I did drink quite a bit on that night and I thought maybe alcohol contributed to what was going on. I kinda wonder if Nal makes your body do strange stuff when you are drinking so you relate the pain or inconvenience to the alcohol. I sure wasn't in a hurry to down a bunch of beer Saturday night. Have you noticed being more tired on the Nal?

I do think waiting longer helps me. I have been trying to take my Nal as soon as I get the slightest urge and always wait the hour but lately I have been making it 2-3 hours before drinking & I can tell it makes a difference and making sure to eat is a plus too I think.

I am sorry to hear you lost your job. What happened? How come you are patching your roof. Is Mr. Spud helping I hope. I am pretty handy too and sometimes Mr. BK expects a little to much from me but he is getting better at not expecting me to do everything around the house. I would be on my roof too probably.

So here is to us and our AF week. It immediately scared me when I said that because I worry I won't make it. The closer it gets to the holiday the more I feel the urge to drink. My main goal is to stay under 6 drinks with each session. If I can do that I will be happy with myself. I have come to realize that you can have 3 or 4 drinks and still function in the morning- what a concept! HA! I even ran 4 miles the next day. We will get it if we just keep trying RIGHT!

Just like UK says patience. And baby steps. I am feeling happy inside myself- something that I haven't felt for awhile. It's nice. Thank you for being here. It's nice to have someone to share this with.:l

[spuddleduck]

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this seems to.have become our nal progress thread.. which is good.as.it contains the word progress. it is a week since my last drink and although Im not counting af days that's a big achievement for me. maybe i should vomit violently more often. back on the roof today. we had a bad windy storm last.week

[spuddleduck]

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whoops. had a bad windy storm last week that brought a flipping huge tree down on the conservatory. yes Mr spud is up there.with me. im his helper really. its a big job. as for losing my job. well its a.long story and i left in tears. too much to go into but it was nothing i did wrong or anything to.do.awith booze.at least it is giving me space to think. have been thinking about the coming festivities and wondering how it will be. a wonderful thread has been bumped in the general section about Christmas which i will keep reading. your Friday night sounds awful. to have that shit without drinking is so unfair. Im still focused on getting to the weekend af and determined to take my pill WITH FOOD 2 hours before drinking. coming here each day is keeping my mind on the job in hand. lets keep this going. it would be great to get more nal success here... and it can be us

[skullbabyland]

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Spud, I can't remember if anyone mentioned it to you yet, but if you want to read more Nal/TSM threads, for info or motivation or whatever, there's a forum for it specifically at thesinclairmethod.com • Index page . That being said, I'm glad that there's a continued Nal/TSM presence here as well. I'm glad you and UKB and others continue to post here on MWO.

Sorry to hear about the job loss, that is tough. Good luck on finding a new one- I hope it opens up new opportunities for you!

[bkyogagurl]

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Hey Spud-
It's almost Wednesday and I am thinking bout alcohol. I am having mixed feelings. I hate it but I know I will drink it again. My mind is such a funny thing. It keeps telling me that if I quit drinking I can be slim like I like. I am not overweight at all but I love being on the slender side of skinny. Scary huh. I got pretty thin when I wasn't drinking before. I think it's the nature of my beast. My addictive behavior. It's not just alcohol. It's a step in the right direction that I can recognize this. I am working hard to find balance in my life.
Will check in tomorrow. Am going to try and get a good nights rest. That always seems to help too.
I hope you are doing well and have your roof fixed. Let me know what your goals are for the weekend with drinking. I'm curious to see if we are on the same page. I have made a solid decision that I will not drink without the Nal. Ever. I love my kids and being present for them is so rewarding to me. I am not a perfect mom by a long shot but when I am sober it feels like I'm getting closer.

Hi Skull- sorry I haven't posted on your thread yet but I have done a little lurking.

[skullbabyland]

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bkyogagurl;1597392 wrote:
Hi Skull- sorry I haven't posted on your thread yet but I have done a little lurking.

No worries, lurk and/or post as you like.

[spuddleduck]

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thanks skull baby, I have been on the tsm site and found plenty of good info. I have posted occasionally but it isn't a very active site. there are so many more differing aspects here covering loads of different topics so this is my 'home'.
bkyoga, funny you mention about your weight. I have actually put on loads of weight since I have cut down my drinking. when I was drinking daily or every other day I was about 8.5 stone am now about 10.5 which for my 5'3" is way too heavy. Though I have said all along that al is my biggest demon... I can worry about the weight when I can more sorted with al.
I took a nal today with food with no intention of drinking... which I managed. felt quite grotty for a few hours and just slobbed about (but not drinking so that's good). I got some awful news today, found out that one of my 'drinking pals' was found dead, choked in his own vomit. he was only in his thirties and leaves behind a young child. Can you believe my first thought when I heard the news was to go out and get some booze (this was 11am) how fucked up is that thinking. think I will post on main boards about this.
delighted to say I have now had a full week sober, 1st time for ages.. partly brought on by the puke session. hoping to wait till Saturday evening and to drink (with nal) though im not overly confident I will make it .... any time from Thursday will be my witching hour. my only goal is to make sure I take the nal, with food and with plenty of time for it to get to work. hope you get through Wednesday and beyond (not sure of time where you are but its 11pm here and time for sober bed)

[spuddleduck]

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just need to check in briefly.phone about to die. didn't last. took 25 mg with bun. wait 1 hr. shopping.g with little bottle vodka and orange. a little town called kendal . going for meal. sure i will be ok. had to post this for me before battery dies.

[bkyogagurl]

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Hi Spud-
So sorry to hear about your friend. Seems like when tragic things happen alcohol always comes to mind. And with that situation you would think that detour us from ever wanting to drink again. I am lucky I have not choked on my own puke. To be honest- it does poke at me and think people are dying from this every day. My son has health class in high school and they study the effects of drugs & alcohol extensively. He tells me about what he learns and it makes me ashamed to drink in front of him. He was telling me yesterday that girls are now soaking tampons in alcohol and using them so you can't smell the alcohol on their breath. That really bothered me. Made me sad. Even my 12 yr old has health and last year he was studying the effects of alcohol and he asked me why I would ever drink when it does such bad things to your body. I lied to him at first telling him that adults can have moderate amounts but he has seen me drunk and I knew he wasn't buying it. I am honest now and tell them both that it is really bad for you and that I developed an addiction to it and it's been hard for me to stop. That is why I never want them to start because it is so hard to stop.

I am feeling a bit blue today. I drank last night approximately 5-6 drinks which is really good for me but I didn't eat so I did feel drunk. I don't like that. I was getting my hair done and it took a long time so they offered me some wine- I said no at first but then after a while I asked for the glass. I did take my Nal because I was suspicious I might drink there. Then I met up with some friends at the wine shop with still not eating. I felt drunk right away which is sorta unusually for me. I don't usually recognize the drunk until the next day. I noticed when drinking my 3rd I was feeling loopy so I texted Mr. Bk and told him my situation. He came down to join us and helped me along. I love him for that. I finally told my friends I needed some food because I was feeling drunk. I like that I was able to be honest instead of continuing to drink because I believe I would have puked with the way my stomach feels today.
I am sick of the roller coaster with drinking.

We have a party on Friday and I wish I would just not drink. In fact I wish I would just take this whole weekend off. I was thinking I would tel Mr. Bk that I would drive so that would be a detourant but am afraid I will change my mind when we get there. It's always easy to say I won't drink when I feel like shit but when I start feeling better the craving returns.

So great you have made it so long without drinking. Maybe this is it for you. Maybe that puking session hurt enough to keep from drinking forever.

I just read your last post. Let me know how you are when you can ok.

Take care of you.

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1598162 wrote: Hi Spud-
So sorry to hear about your friend. Seems like when tragic things happen alcohol always comes to mind. And with that situation you would think that detour us from ever wanting to drink again. I am lucky I have not choked on my own puke. To be honest- it does poke at me and think people are dying from this every day. My son has health class in high school and they study the effects of drugs & alcohol extensively. He tells me about what he learns and it makes me ashamed to drink in front of him. He was telling me yesterday that girls are now soaking tampons in alcohol and using them so you can't smell the alcohol on their breath. That really bothered me. Made me sad. Even my 12 yr old has health and last year he was studying the effects of alcohol and he asked me why I would ever drink when it does such bad things to your body. I lied to him at first telling him that adults can have moderate amounts but he has seen me drunk and I knew he wasn't buying it. I am honest now and tell them both that it is really bad for you and that I developed an addiction to it and it's been hard for me to stop. That is why I never want them to start because it is so hard to stop.

I am feeling a bit blue today. I drank last night approximately 5-6 drinks which is really good for me but I didn't eat so I did feel drunk. I don't like that. I was getting my hair done and it took a long time so they offered me some wine- I said no at first but then after a while I asked for the glass. I did take my Nal because I was suspicious I might drink there. Then I met up with some friends at the wine shop with still not eating. I felt drunk right away which is sorta unusually for me. I don't usually recognize the drunk until the next day. I noticed when drinking my 3rd I was feeling loopy so I texted Mr. Bk and told him my situation. He came down to join us and helped me along. I love him for that. I finally told my friends I needed some food because I was feeling drunk. I like that I was able to be honest instead of continuing to drink because I believe I would have puked with the way my stomach feels today.
I am sick of the roller coaster with drinking.

We have a party on Friday and I wish I would just not drink. In fact I wish I would just take this whole weekend off. I was thinking I would tel Mr. Bk that I would drive so that would be a detourant but am afraid I will change my mind when we get there. It's always easy to say I won't drink when I feel like shit but when I start feeling better the craving returns.

So great you have made it so long without drinking. Maybe this is it for you. Maybe that puking session hurt enough to keep from drinking forever.

I just read your last post. Let me know how you are when you can ok.

Take care of you.

I am so glad you took your nal, I can feel the impatience still there though but also that you did recognise feeling drunk. I'm also enjoying this thread!

[bkyogagurl]

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Thank you UK- you are very intuitive. I love that you check in on us. :thanks:

Yes I am impatient and I have to remember it takes time to undo these things. I will never give up.
I need to remind myself that I am making progress by not getting snot slinging drunk. And I did stop. Just made the mistake of not eating. It's a learning curve of what is working for me and what isn't.
One thing I am noticing about the Nal is that it makes me tired so even if I wanted to drink more I am to tired and would prefer to go to bed. But I do feel groggy the next day too.

I will check in on your thread cause I would like to see how you are doing.
:l

[spuddleduck]

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what can I say. im checking in. I just about got away with a meal. mr spuds noticed I was a bit wrong. I will post soon...

[spuddleduck]

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still just checking in here. which is something I would not have been able to do without nal. I will make it quick. today me and mr spuds were going xmas shopping . just for stuff. ; shop separate and meet up for a meal later

[bkyogagurl]

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Are you still drinking? I saw your grrrrr post. If you need me Im here.

Just remember-
Every day you get a fresh start, every thought brings you closer, every word makes you more, every decision is the right one, every baby step makes it easier, every smile makes it happier.:h
:l

[spuddleduck]

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o bugger. am back on planet earth now.. and am feeling surprisingly well after drinking. am annoyed with me for not getting through to Saturday but pleased with nal. i must have secretly been planning drinking as i made sure i had my pills with me on my shopping trip. i bought a small bottle of vodka and mixed it with a bottle of orange juice and wandered about the shops. THIS IS NOT THE WAY I WANT TO DRINK. that is totally alki drinking. anyway i need to draw a line under it and move on. i drank a lot less than i would normally and the fact that i was still able to post (just about) 4 hours after drinking is amazing. Im usually completely trashed within 2 hours. the nal definitely takes away the urgency for my next drink and with you bkyoga i am aware (albeit vaguely) that i am drunk. i usually have absolutely no comprehension that i am drunk and slurring and loud etc. i have been scared about taking nal after my puking day but feel better about it now. maybe it was eating maybe it was splitting the dose. i suspect eating plays a big part so that is a must. i think i.will ditch the Saturday drinking . was supposed to be going out but its too soon after this drink and i only have 1 pill left. still waiting for next lot to arrive.i guess xmas post could delay things and Im determined not to drink without nal.. hey that could be a plan to stay af..if someone could intercept my post i couldn't drink as have no nal. Although i feel reasonably chirpy considering i drank Im gonna have a.quiet day with cushions and tv.