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[YouKayBee]

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You took the nal and drank, that's no problem.

[bkyogagurl]

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Spud-

YAH:goodjob:

What I am hearing is that you seem pretty good. I think we are both making progress. Baby steps right? I have to admit I was a little worried about you. I must have checked the board 50 times. I am so glad you didn't get snot slinging drunk. Just enough to remind that we are still fighting the good fight.

I didn't drink last night. Although I considered it- I decided not to take Nal & the urge was really fairly mild. Pretty easy not to do. I was thinking about this morning and thinking how my cravings use to be.. And how I would always give in to them. Progress!

I have a Xmas party tonight and am trying to put together a plan. Right now I don't even feel like drinking. I just wonder how I will feel when around everyone. If I could ask for one thing it would be to not get drunk. I wish I could commit to 2 drinks but I am not sure that would be a realistic goal. My plan will be to eat well today including lunch take my Nal which I am planning to take 100 mg a little spaced out so it doesn't make me feel yucky. And hope that I can stay within reason.
Will be in touch again today later for an extra boost of confidence.

:l

[bkyogagurl]

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Just took my second dose of Nal. I'm proud of myself.

My cravings are very low. I am looking forward to a low unit night.
Wish me luck.

How do you know when you are at a cure point?

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1598698 wrote: Just took my second dose of Nal. I'm proud of myself.

My cravings are very low. I am looking forward to a low unit night.
Wish me luck.

How do you know when you are at a cure point?

My cure point was when I realised I no longer had the burning desire to drink alcohol, I could quite easily without much effort, without having to fight, keep my drinking to within safe levels which in the UK is 14-21 units a week (by that I don't mean a minimum of 14 units, the authorities keep alternating between 14 and 21 being the safe level for women.

[spuddleduck]

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bkyoga, I love your phrase 'snot slinging drunk'. that's me. I do tend to wake up after drinking with snot all over my clothes..... as I have said it always ends in tears, and tears end in snot, and snot when drunk equals blowing my nose on my sleeve/jumper/ whatever.
sorry for causing any worry.. I really should not post like that when drinking, a rule I have broken. any way I move on.
still not sure what your time diff is from here in uk, perhaps you could post what time you are on. if you haven't yet been to your xmas party I hope it goes well. the fact you have taken 100mg should set you up for success. I can feel so very strong that I am not going to drink/ or just have a couple, and then come the event the inevitable happens (snot slinging drunk). as one drunk to another im not sure I have any great advice but I hope it goes well. if there is food on try and eat it. for me if I am at a party with food (which I would normally love) I don't even think about it... I just get stuck into the booze. well done for not giving in to the urge to drink last night. I think the fact that we are talking about it and focussing makes it a bit more doable

[spuddleduck]

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ukb, thanks for your continued updates and support. we must remember that you have been at this for some time now. the one thing you stuck with from the start was never drinking without nal. as you say I think this is the crucial thing.
I had a semi disaster earlier. I often leave a glass of orange juice in the fridge ready to drink.. (yep you can see where this is going). I glugged my oj down only to realize that it had vodka in from Friday. WHAT THE HELL HAD I LEFT THAT FOR. I suppose in a way it was good that I had left it. I didn't even think to sip it and check as I would never do that. I have to say even though it was 11am it woke up the 'beast' and I immediately found some left over wine and had about half a glass. HOW RIDICULOUS IS THAT. I went and had a bath and did a bit of pampering me... I have books by the bath about alcohol, confidence etc so I managed to swerve a drinking day. bit annoying though that a mere 'glug' can set me off so stupidly.

[bkyogagurl]

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:happy:Good morning!! And I mean "good".

Spud- I am so glad you posted when you were drinking. You can post here when ever you want. I'm here to support you. I am glad to hear you were able to avoid a full on drunk night by pampering yourself and doing your best to take a detour. I know how you feel tho it seems once you take that first drink it's like what the hell why not have another. That is my train of thinking a lot of time. I often save my drink I didn't finish from the night before but mine is usually obvious like a beer bottle or wine bottle. I did it last night but have no desire to drink this am.
It's 7:32 am right now. That time is it for you?

I had a pretty good night.:thumbs: last night. I started with 2 beers at home. Had 3 drinks at the party and had 1 drink with my husband as a night cap. 6 drinks is awesome for me. I took care of my husband & was the responsible one to get us home. I drank a lot of water & had an ok meal. Salad. Feel I could have had something more hearty. Anyway I did not sleep to well because I did not drink enough to pass out- another good thing. I felt collected and on my game. No slurring or stumbling. Had intelligent conversation and felt good about myself. Interesting enough I ended up sitting next to a guy who has been sober for 13 years. Awful story- he used to be a heavy heavy drinker and launched his best buddy thru his car windshield :wow: luckily his buddy did not die but obviously he got a DUI and the personal guilt he felt was atrocious. He blew a .28 BAC.
My guardian angel sat me next to him so I could hear that and I feel it helped me not consume more alcohol. I told him I was a heavy drinker and am looking to cut back. It was an interesting conversation. My aunt was at the party so drunk she could hardly eat. I think it's good to see what people you love look like when they are drunk because it probably mirrors myself.

UK- I think our standard here is 2 drinks per day which is a far cry from where I am right now but I am feeling progress now. It's tricky because a beer here is consider 12 oz and when you go to a brewery they have pints which is 16oz so maybe I should ask the bartender to only pour 12oz into my 16oz glass HA! Just kidding. I don't want to be a daily drinking but I will be very happy when I can have 2 and that is all I want. I did notice last night that I did feel like I wanted another drink but it was so easy not to order another. AMAZING!
I can't thank you enough for pushing us along to stick with It. I will never give up now.
I feel like the movie Rocky where he struggles and struggles then starts running thru the streets then up the stairs with his fists in the air. I don't feel I have made it up those stairs YET but I'm feeling the good struggle set in if you know what I mean. I'm gonna feel stupid if you have no idea who Rocky is.

Today is a new day and I'm hoping for an AF day. Saturdays are a hard day for me to commit to that so we will see but that is what I am hoping for now.
:l:l

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1598932 wrote: :happy:Good morning!! And I mean "good".

Spud- I am so glad you posted when you were drinking. You can post here when ever you want. I'm here to support you. I am glad to hear you were able to avoid a full on drunk night by pampering yourself and doing your best to take a detour. I know how you feel tho it seems once you take that first drink it's like what the hell why not have another. That is my train of thinking a lot of time. I often save my drink I didn't finish from the night before but mine is usually obvious like a beer bottle or wine bottle. I did it last night but have no desire to drink this am.
It's 7:32 am right now. That time is it for you?

I had a pretty good night.:thumbs: last night. I started with 2 beers at home. Had 3 drinks at the party and had 1 drink with my husband as a night cap. 6 drinks is awesome for me. I took care of my husband & was the responsible one to get us home. I drank a lot of water & had an ok meal. Salad. Feel I could have had something more hearty. Anyway I did not sleep to well because I did not drink enough to pass out- another good thing. I felt collected and on my game. No slurring or stumbling. Had intelligent conversation and felt good about myself. Interesting enough I ended up sitting next to a guy who has been sober for 13 years. Awful story- he used to be a heavy heavy drinker and launched his best buddy thru his car windshield :wow: luckily his buddy did not die but obviously he got a DUI and the personal guilt he felt was atrocious. He blew a .28 BAC.
My guardian angel sat me next to him so I could hear that and I feel it helped me not consume more alcohol. I told him I was a heavy drinker and am looking to cut back. It was an interesting conversation. My aunt was at the party so drunk she could hardly eat. I think it's good to see what people you love look like when they are drunk because it probably mirrors myself.

UK- I think our standard here is 2 drinks per day which is a far cry from where I am right now but I am feeling progress now. It's tricky because a beer here is consider 12 oz and when you go to a brewery they have pints which is 16oz so maybe I should ask the bartender to only pour 12oz into my 16oz glass HA! Just kidding. I don't want to be a daily drinking but I will be very happy when I can have 2 and that is all I want. I did notice last night that I did feel like I wanted another drink but it was so easy not to order another. AMAZING!
I can't thank you enough for pushing us along to stick with It. I will never give up now.
I feel like the movie Rocky where he struggles and struggles then starts running thru the streets then up the stairs with his fists in the air. I don't feel I have made it up those stairs YET but I'm feeling the good struggle set in if you know what I mean. I'm gonna feel stupid if you have no idea who Rocky is.

Today is a new day and I'm hoping for an AF day. Saturdays are a hard day for me to commit to that so we will see but that is what I am hoping for now.
:l:l

I do remember Rocky.

It's there - it's there for you it's that being able to not have to order another, not being a slave to it and practising doing just that forms new habits.

[spuddleduck]

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failed misereably.. the orange with vodka awakened the beast, I wenrt and got more, wobbled off and wemt to town and pubs and had drink drink drink. talk to people and now I am home and drink dri/nk drink drink.. bugger but at least I am am aware that I am being a drunk bum,,, oh bugger trying and failinf but I am stll trying , oh bugger I don't like thkis . I kow my own advise is to stop drinkimg right now . bugger :thanks::thanks:

[bkyogagurl]

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Hang in there Spud- you are going to have good days and bad days just like with anything. Don't beat yourself up and just ride the wave. Just remember how you felt when you puked so try to slow down so that don't happen again. To be completely honest- those thoughts never slowed me down.

Tomorrow will be a new day. Keep me updated.

UK-:thanks:
I know it's there and I am really starting to believe in myself. I can do this. I like the thought of not being a slave to the drink.

[YouKayBee]

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spuddleduck;1598962 wrote: failed misereably.. the orange with vodka awakened the beast, I wenrt and got more, wobbled off and wemt to town and pubs and had drink drink drink. talk to people and now I am home and drink dri/nk drink drink.. bugger but at least I am am aware that I am being a drunk bum,,, oh bugger trying and failinf but I am stll trying , oh bugger I don't like thkis . I kow my own advise is to stop drinkimg right now . bugger :thanks::thanks:

Have you taken some more nal?Up until around lunchtime you were probably still covered from last night. TSM isn't about trying not to force abstaining, it's about making sure if you drink you have taken the naltrexone first.

[bkyogagurl]

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I'm Nal-ing up today just in case! I feel an urge. I am taking my son to a birthday party so that will help me ride my urge for a while.

[bkyogagurl]

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I decided against drinking tonight. I am going to take my son to the movie.

I am proud of myself. I thought about drinking but I just didn't feel like getting up & getting a beer.
I don't feel like being tired tomorrow. Funny I'm not even worried about being hungover I just don't want to be tired because I want to go running & get some shopping done & some things around the house.

I am trying not to be to confident just be happy for today.

[spuddleduck]

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have crept in quietly afraid of what i may have been posting here. yep it all went horribly wrong on saturday. i thought after my orange/vodka mishap i had swerved the urge..... nope. went out with dog and bought some wine.. which fell through the cheap carrier bag and broke... so went to the pub (mid afternoon) and drank. i did take 25mg nal but this was after my initial drinks. it didnt seem to make much difference but i dont think i actually drank as much as i perhaps would...... maybe cos most of it ended up on the floor. spent sunday feeling miserable at this weakness. drinking hadnt even crossed my mind before the accidental drink and then to be set off down the rocky road so easily. CRAP!! anyway, misery wont get me anywhere, so yet again, draw line and move on. i now only have 50mg left. I expected my next lot to have arrived by now so i need to try and chase it up. i am inclined to take 25mg on my next drink as i would rather at least keep some nal in me.... as per rules and hope it has some effect, rather than take 50mg and have none left for the next time.

[YouKayBee]

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spuddleduck;1599630 wrote: have crept in quietly afraid of what i may have been posting here. yep it all went horribly wrong on saturday. i thought after my orange/vodka mishap i had swerved the urge..... nope. went out with dog and bought some wine.. which fell through the cheap carrier bag and broke... so went to the pub (mid afternoon) and drank. i did take 25mg nal but this was after my initial drinks. it didnt seem to make much difference but i dont think i actually drank as much as i perhaps would...... maybe cos most of it ended up on the floor. spent sunday feeling miserable at this weakness. drinking hadnt even crossed my mind before the accidental drink and then to be set off down the rocky road so easily. CRAP!! anyway, misery wont get me anywhere, so yet again, draw line and move on. i now only have 50mg left. I expected my next lot to have arrived by now so i need to try and chase it up. i am inclined to take 25mg on my next drink as i would rather at least keep some nal in me.... as per rules and hope it has some effect, rather than take 50mg and have none left for the next time.

You took some nal and that's all that matters, once you get your supplies (and the post office/royal mail is very busy at the moment), try not to beat yourself up over drinking - TSM requires you to drink for it to work. Not drinking means no alcohol + nal which mean you aren't getting the mix that will eventually kill the cravings.

Hope it arrives soon.