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[bkyogagurl]

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I do the exact same thing when I drink on unplanned days and I become very destructive and beat shit out of myself which ends up being a bender cause immediately the next morn I just want to drink to get away from how shitty I feel about myself. It is much more productive for me to be kind to myself as Skull suggested and the bender turns into only one days worth of destruction instead of 4. I love it... Closet Duck.

Day 8 for US baby:huggy

spuddleduck;1609858 wrote: Oh yes... And my favorite all time European word.... Bloody...

well im getting educated, i didn't even realise these words were not internationally used... maybe i need to get out more.

im still planning on not drinking until the weekend.... but my weekend often starts on Thursday. for me a good thing about this nal/tsm programme is that i don't need to beat myself up if i drink AS LONG AS I TAKE THE NAL IN GOOD TIME. sometimes i get so pissed off with myself if i drink when i hadn't planned it i get into a real self destruct mode which doesn't help things at all and is likely to send me off to the bottle again. i know that sounds ridiculous but it happens.
without wanting to think about af days i am pretty chuffed that i am now on longer af days than i have for a long time. yes, maybe i am a closet sober person.

[bkyogagurl]

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Spud- I got you. PLEASE POST AWAY... I love hearing your feelings and what you call waffling. It shows your human and have needs. Those husbands can be plain ole pain in the asses.. I just ignore mine now or laugh at him. :ignore:He used to do things like to me and I spoke with him about it and told him I would appreciate it if he wouldn't embarrass me in front of others and if he continued to do so I would consider doing it to him and then he could see just how I feel. Not talking to him for 3 days gets my point across too.:stomper:
Not to blame anyone for my drinking... BUT because I didn't use my voice with my hubby & I would drink to suppress the anger I felt. Now I'm tired of suppressing my feelings and kind of enjoy letting him have it when he is wrong. Don't let Mr. spud run you... You don't have to physically beat him up which I am sure you feel like some times but talk to him. He may or may not respond the way you want him to... But don't take that on... His reaction is his opinion... That's it. Say how you feel and let him process the way wants but speak up... It's good for your soul.
:l
You have you good ole pal BK here to talk to always. DO NOT FORGET IT.
Post 500 hundred times here today if you want I will do my best to check often.
:illbeback:

[bkyogagurl]

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Good stuff Skull... I needed this right now.



[QUOTE=skullbabyland;1609933



Regarding the above, sometimes when I'm craving super hard, I tell myself look, if you MUST have x, you CAN- but you must wait 30 minutes. If you must still have it after 30 min, then you can make that choice. But often, 30 minutes later, it seems less attractive.

Also, regarding TV- I find that TV/movies are actually one of the best tools I have against alcohol, and most welcome. They provide entertainment (from boredom) and distraction (from cravings). It's passive and mindless and easy at the click of a button, and gets me past cravings. Yes, that makes me occasionally a couch potato, but I'm cool with that

Bloody well done, all of you [/QUOTE]

[Yourfriend6116]

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I like that 30 mins deal skull! Day 8 for me, as well. Good job everyone.

[YouKayBee]

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Spud

Is there a reason you are still on 25mg?

At least you took the nal, no problem with drinking on it that's the whole point.:H

[bkyogagurl]

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Welp .... Just had my first turn down to drinking wine with one of my best friends. She was cool. I told her I was taking Jan. off and that I would go to coffee or for a walk. I'm proud of me.

This is really important to me and I want to stay grounded. I am feeling better than ever. Ran 7 miles today and plan on hitting the gym tomorrow.

Spud... If your lurking I'm hugging you.

[bkyogagurl]

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Your friend- AWESOME... Looks like we are on the same day.

[spuddleduck]

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miracles do happen..... I stopped drinking last night..... and threw some wine away.
after my hissy fit grumble here things took a strange turn. I was SIPPING my wine, actually trying to force myself to drink it (yes I know that's crazy). I think I wanted to disappear from myself but it wasn't working. I curled up with a duvet, pillow and crap tv and just couldn't be arsed to drink anymore as it was just gurgling in my tum and not doing it business. well hells bells, the phrase 'couldn't be arsed to drink anymore' is not in my vocabulary .... until now. although yesterday I was pissed off that I had drank unplanned and emotionally, today I am over the moon. this has never never never happened before.... and it was only 25mg which is even more fantastically brilliant.

[spuddleduck]

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bkyoga, I bet your friend didn't even think twice at you having an al free January. because its such a big thing to us I think we build it up to be bigger to the real world than it actually is. thanks for your words of wisdom regarding mr spud.... yep ill just ignore the fecker. actually his last words to me yesterday were 'oh great, so you are going to f%$k up tomorrow'..... hah well eat your words fecker. actually he did. I slept in my 'cave' last night and he came in this morning with a cuppa, appreciative of how well I had done, so ill let him off...... just this time.
ukb, the 25mg certainly worked this time. what I have been doing is if I have a mini thought/crave I take 25mg and in the waiting time before drink the crave has passed. my thinking being that I know if I take 50mg it makes me feel pretty yukky and messes up the rest of the day. plan being if I then do drink is to take the other 25mg so I am still getting the full amount but over time.... just read that back to myself and don't think it quite made sense. I still have a bit of a fear about my marathon puking/ill session when I first took 50mg.
I think the reason for successfully ditching the drink this time is that I wasn't in a 'drinking environment'. all other times I have been either out in pub drinking or home drinking with mr spud, both situations would have me 'speed drinking' ... and drinking through the effect of nal. as we know we have to put effort into it as well as popping the pill.
also this is why I didn't want to count af days officially as I would have been very pissed off with myself for breaking an af stretch.

[bkyogagurl]

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Spud- there you go... That is so awesome... :clapclap: you did it. Your brain was saying where's my drink but your body said no thanks.

It's funny strange how we force ourselves to drink when our body is say no.. But I do believe the Nal is working for you. Now you have to deal with the underlying issues that are bugging you.
roud:
Very insightful about what a big deal we make AF days here... But it is a big deal doesn't the whole world know when I'm having AF days everyone should stop and celebrate??:lol3:

Just kidding of course. But very good mention.

Fecker.... Another fabulous word. You don't want to know what I call my husband.
I'm so glad tho that he brought you a cuppa(is that coffee or tea) it shows his compassion and love for you.

I am feeling a bit groggy this morn. Need to get my butt to the gym. Ugh.
But I am feeling strong in my AF days and just as I suspected Mr. BK did have beer last night but not directly in front on me... Soooo I will concentrate on myself and not let anyone or anything control my choice to be AF. I usually cave if he is drinking. But not last night or any in my 31 days. It's about me this time... Me getting healthy. Me learning to love who I am..
Me raising 3 kids. Me having a healthy state of mind. Me me me.. :H

Have a good day friend and anyone else out there lurking or reading...
I will check in after bit.:l

[spuddleduck]

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11pm and im still feeling amazed that I stopped drinking last night. having done it once there is no reason I cant do it again..... if I put my mind to it.

Very insightful about what a big deal we make AF days here... But it is a big deal doesn't the whole world know when I'm having AF days everyone should stop and celebrate

bk, im just stopping for a moment to celebrate your af days...... YEEEHAAAA !!
I know what you mean about caving when your other half drinks.... its tough, at least he wasn't drinking in your face. when I had my glorious 3 months sober back in 2010 I did manage to totally ignore mr spuds drinking (how the hell I did that I don't know, I must be stronger than I think). just remember THIS IS FOR YOU, THIS IS YOUR LIFE, YOUR BODY AND YOURE DOING BLOOMING MARVELLOUSLY and why shouldn't it be about YOU YOU YOU !
I was kind to myself today because every minute of today was a bonus compared to what would have been the day if I had carried on drinking the wine... did I mention I STOPPED DRINKING AND CHUCKED SOME WINE AWAY LAST NIGHT. funny im actually more excited about this than if I had not drank at all. im very much an all or nothing when it comes to al. if I know I could only have one drink I would rather not drink at all so this was quite an eye opener for me. I don't want to get too excited as I may not get the same results next time but I can live in hope. in the meantime I intend to carry on with as many af days as I can.

[spuddleduck]

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having spent half of the night on the loo with a bad tummy (cant spell diareoeah) I think I will be in for a quiet day today. don't know what caused it, just a tummy bug I think but at least I don't feel like drinking,,,,, what, but its the weekend. sod the weekend. maybe my evil scales will credit me with some weight loss now, surely I couldn't dump all I dumped without some effect on my weight.
sorry im just being a bit gross there.
I think I will spend the day here trying to get smiley things working. I used to use them but cant seem to get them going..... ha, that didn't take long... just found them in advance post so ......:welcome::goodjob::new::thanks: :H:H:

[skullbabyland]

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Haha Duck, your parade of smileys made me laugh.

Yes it's the weekend, hope you all have a good one. Stay AF or at least take your Nal

[bkyogagurl]

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Your so funny Spud!:moon:

Sorry your butt isn't feeling good but feel free to post about it. Nothing really grosses me out that is a natural bodily function. I hope today finds you in a better way. I always lose weight when I have diarrhea. But don't like the process I would rather lose weight the old fashion way.... EXERCISEinkele: be gone evil scale...

Thanks so much for supporting me on my AF days. I'm on day 10 and am really feeling like a rockstar. I am curious when a big craving will hit and how I will handle it. Right now I'm golden. It's the weekend and I don't even feel like looking at alcohol. No desire what so ever.
Thank you for this. I'm going to write it down and stick somewhere when I can see it all the time.

THIS IS FOR YOU, THIS IS YOUR LIFE, YOUR BODY AND YOURE DOING BLOOMING MARVELLOUSLY

I have to take the kids for a play date so I will be back later to post more.
:soothe: feel better

[YouKayBee]

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Well done both Spuds for recognising you didn't want to carry on drinking and BKYG for getting ten days under your belt, can only get better!