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[bkyogagurl]

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Thanks UK... I certain believe you. I feel awesome.

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1610890 wrote: Thanks UK... I certain believe you. I feel awesome.

Yeah, day ten all the badness had passed sleep's a lot better, skin clearing all that normal stuff!

[spuddleduck]

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I wont go into what my botty has been up to today but it hasn't been very pleasant. ok so no one wants to no about my toilet habits but I like to share my progress in all aspects oh my health and sanity.
bkyoga... is that a bottom on your post?? 10 days is fantastic, no wonder you're feeling great, as ukb says you're really starting to get somewhere at 10 days. it sounds like you're really focused on sober January, the sober January thread is really positive and I keep popping by to enjoy all the success going on there. for me whenever I've got any significant sober time together its as if I have a completely different mindset. the should I shouldn't I debate about drinking just isn't there is I am simply not drinking (I cant answer the question of why I cant get into that mindset all the time). so bkyoga just keep saying that to yourself 'I am simply not drinking' no big deal, just having a break from the poison.
just thinking if anyone reads this thread expecting lots of nal action they will be disappointed. ukb, our resident nal expert doesn't even possess any, bkyoga is storming through a sober January, and me and my occasional 25mg use isn't exactly a nal packed thread. at least we are all heading in the right direction. I feel more positive about my alcohol problems than I have for a long while. I guess it is because I am doing something different instead of trying and failing with the same old shit. I have a little mantra going on I WILL ALWAYS TAKE NAL AT LEAST ONE HOUR BEFORE I DRINK. for now that is good enough for me.
and now ive got the smileys on my side :nutso::happy::baaah::cheering:

[bkyogagurl]

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Superduck... You sound solid. And aware of what your plan is with drinking:goodjob:
I will keep my Nal close as well just in case.
Yes I was teasing you with a butt icon maybe now isn't a good time to tease if you still aren't well..
:sorry:

Thanks for the encouragement I have been telling random people that I am not drinking for the month of January. Something I would never do before because I was afraid of failure. I do feel exactly like "I'm not drinking" it's just not an option this month. I am feeling better than ever physically and don't want to waste another day being hungover or even just tired from drinking. You right we really aren't using the Nal to much but maybe that is all it took for us. I don't want to get to over confident tho.

Me too. I am feeling more solid with my alcohol issues. I don't feel like they are controlling me like they used too.

I have to admit I have been face some feelings that I think have been deep seeded and it feels weird to think about them. I keep telling myself they are just feelings.. It's ok to feel them.. They won't kill me.

Here's to another AF weekend for me:wow3:

Feels nice to say that. :l

[YouKayBee]

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spuddleduck;1611014 wrote: I wont go into what my botty has been up to today but it hasn't been very pleasant. ok so no one wants to no about my toilet habits but I like to share my progress in all aspects oh my health and sanity.
bkyoga... is that a bottom on your post?? 10 days is fantastic, no wonder you're feeling great, as ukb says you're really starting to get somewhere at 10 days. it sounds like you're really focused on sober January, the sober January thread is really positive and I keep popping by to enjoy all the success going on there. for me whenever I've got any significant sober time together its as if I have a completely different mindset. the should I shouldn't I debate about drinking just isn't there is I am simply not drinking (I cant answer the question of why I cant get into that mindset all the time). so bkyoga just keep saying that to yourself 'I am simply not drinking' no big deal, just having a break from the poison.
just thinking if anyone reads this thread expecting lots of nal action they will be disappointed. ukb, our resident nal expert doesn't even possess any, bkyoga is storming through a sober January, and me and my occasional 25mg use isn't exactly a nal packed thread. at least we are all heading in the right direction. I feel more positive about my alcohol problems than I have for a long while. I guess it is because I am doing something different instead of trying and failing with the same old shit. I have a little mantra going on I WILL ALWAYS TAKE NAL AT LEAST ONE HOUR BEFORE I DRINK. for now that is good enough for me.
and now ive got the smileys on my side :nutso::happy::baaah::cheering:

:H:

No, no nal action here:H

It's me birthday today and I will be going out at various points but I won't be drinking. If I do it'll be tea for me.

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Arse!!!

[spuddleduck]

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WEHEY... HAPPY (SOBER) BIRTHDAY UKB. please keep drinking, you don't want to dehydrate.. ha ha. yes tea sounds good. hope you enjoy whatever you are up to. I think im still a big kid as I always like to do something special on my birthday, nothing too outrageous, maybe just an extra nice walk with the dog or a day out up the lakes. in recent memory ive only had one sober birthday, back in 2010 and I can honestly say I had a marvellous day, all the better for being about 1.5 months af.
bkyoga, I'm confident that you will fly through sober January, you sound positive and definitely taking on board the right attitude. enjoying every sober day that isn't wasted and not mourning alcohol is most definitely the way to go. I think knowing you have your nal backup could be a help as well. telling people is a great idea as well, yet again proving how strong you are .... a big fat WEHEY to you.
As for me, I woke up pretty pissed off this morning after drinking without taking nal..... WHAT!!!!!! nah, course not, it was just a bad dream. im actually quite pleased with the dream. a) because I felt so pissed off when I woke means I must be serious, and b) because I only ever dream about al or al related things when im serious about my action..... so all in all I guess IM SERIOUS ABOUT KICKING SOME FECKIN' ASS. .talking of asses, mines much better today, I had a marathon 11 hour sleep and woke up feeling much more perky and its a lovely bright day here so my dog may be in line for a stomping good walk.

[spuddleduck]

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o poop, im sure I put loads of cute smiley dancey things in that post but theyre not there, well, consider yourselves smiled and danced at !

[YouKayBee]

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spuddleduck;1611299 wrote: o poop, im sure I put loads of cute smiley dancey things in that post but theyre not there, well, consider yourselves smiled and danced at !

I reckon you're banned from smilies now.:H

[bkyogagurl]

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First off HAPPY BIRTHDAY UK!!!! I hope you have a great day filled with no alcohol and an expensive purse if you like that sort of thing!
:bday3:

Spud-- I'm glad you said your a big kid cause I feel that exact same way... Glad you are feeling better.. Bad dream that was a fecking nightmare! So glad that is all it was.
Another day under my belt Day 11... Feeling strong. Thanks for the support.:thanks:

I just got back from a run and drinking some greenie juice.

Need to go to the store:wavin:

Post more in a bit...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN UK!

[spuddleduck]

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WHAM ! out of the blue came a crazy mad craving to drink. around 5pm. no sense or reason where it came from but as stated in the rules I TOOK MY NAL STRAIGHT AWAY. just 25mg.... and waited. I carried on busying myself with what I was doing.... just faffing about doing 1001 different things but not actually completing anything. I had a big case of the should I shouldn't I going on but the shouldn't part of the debate won out. I went through all the scenarios in my head if I chose to drink and the best outcome was if, like the other night I stopped drinking after a few glasses of wine. then I get to thinking, well if that happens I will have consumed a shit load of poison calories just for the hell of it. as im trying to be a bit more healthy in general and lose a bit of blubber that just seemed utterly pointless.
now I know the whole thing of tsm is to carry on drinking as normal (internal fighting about it is my normal), but I don't want to use nal to allow myself to drink willy nilly when the fancy takes me I want it to be a tool to help me get away from the craziness . without the discipline of taking nal and waiting I would have just thought 'o feck it .... its Saturday night, why not' so I can thank nal for this successful swerve. and the calories saved got eaten in a bowl of raspberries and ice-cream.

bkyoga, you really are rocking through January. when is the funeral, is it this week. perhaps you should take a bottle of your green hulk juice, it would be sure to be a talking point. '' no thanks I'm not drinking alcohol, just sticking to ectoplasmic snot juice this month''
ukb, hope you had a lovely sunny splendid day..... with a naughty treat or two

[spuddleduck]

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i didn't mention, i think the nal made me feel a little bit queasy. not too bad but enough to take the edge off the idea of drinking.

[bkyogagurl]

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:goodjob: GREAT JOB... Partner. I know how you feel about using Nal to abuse drinking.. I want to use it only if I can not manage a craving.. I don't want to go back to daily drinking to say I'm using my Nal so I can drink when ever I want. I too want to get away from the madness... I have been loving and cherishing my AF days. Even on the weekend. I gotta say I love your swerves.

My little sister who is 25 called me today very upset and going thru a difficult time... She Is dealing with addiction too and I asked her to come stay with me because she is at my mom's where she can get whatever she wants and it totally bugs me... She lives 3 hours away.
After I got off the phone with her the first thing I thought about was a drink...
I told myself this a good time to recognize this trigger and tuck it away... I decided to come here and talk about it instead of stewing about whether to take my Nal or not.. I really don't have a craving tho... I thought to myself how can I help her if I'm drunk... No dice and no drink for me... I think I will go to the gym and work my feelings out there.

Feeling bummed for her...Spud. But I can't not internalize my wanting to help her and let it impede my progress. I just won't do that. I am going to get out of the house.

Be back. :l

[bkyogagurl]

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I feel like shit. I hate it when I let things or people get me down. I feel like crying and I may just do that. But I am not going to drink. I'm going to feel these crappy emotions and work thru them without AL.
:upset:

I feel so angry at my mom.

:soapbox:

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1611662 wrote: I feel like shit. I hate it when I let things or people get me down. I feel like crying and I may just do that. But I am not going to drink. I'm going to feel these crappy emotions and work thru them without AL.
:upset:

I feel so angry at my mom.

:soapbox:

Do you feel angry that's she's helping her in her addiction?

You need to stay safe for yourself, your recovery is the most important thing at the moment - no use to anyone otherwise and long term you will be there.

Do you have a mantra to help you?

[spuddleduck]

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for bkyoga,

INNER PEACE BEGINS THE MOMENT YOU CHOOSE NOT TO ALLOW ANOTHER PERSON OR EVENT CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS