RIP LoOp

[MaryGoRound]

RIP LoOp

Renee-

I spoke to Evan several times. He talked of his family and his mission. He gave me hope and I always loved, and appreciated, the energy he sent my way,

A true entrepreneur. An inspirer. A good man.

[Alky]

RIP LoOp

Samandkatharine;1602027 wrote: I hope you get coal in your stocking. I usually don't respond to &@#???s like you but you hit a nerve.

I wasn't going to say anything given that we are honoring Evan in this thread, but I suppose we can add anti-Semite to Hope's already impressive assortment of titles.

My heart really goes out to Evan's family. So horrible that this had to happen at what is supposed to be a joyous time of year.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

RIP LoOp

I still haven't found the words to respond to Evan's passing. This isn't the first time that something Evan has said or done has left me completely speechless. It is incomprehensible that it is the last.

Renee, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. Like so many others, I loved him and took for granted that he would always be a part of my life.

RIP Evan.

[LadyLush]

RIP LoOp

OMG,
Just heard from his sister on Facebook. We remained friends and kept in touch. I am just speechless and in total tears right now. He was a rock for me and helped me through some very tough times. God, I know his rewards are coming for the help and strength he gave to us and others. Peace and blessings to his family. Hold on tight everyone because it's times like this we realize how much we need each other!
RIP my friend!:h



LL

[Bruunhilde]

RIP LoOp

Rest in Peace Lo0p

:upset:

I am shaken by this news about our friend Lo0p, and my heart breaks for him, his mom and sister, family and friends.

What a wake-up call. Lo0p, now I know why you didn't respond to my email from Friday.

Evan will always be Lo0p to me, and I will always wonder where that name came from... Lo0p was a genius smart guy with a big heart. He leaves a big gaping hole in this group.

Rest in peace, dear boy! May we meet again and not be battling addiction in that next life.

[gratitude]

RIP LoOp

shocked and saddened.
RIP LOOP

[Samandkatharine]

RIP LoOp

If anyone knows an address I'd like to send a card to Renee and family. PM me if you know it. I'd also like to know if a service is planned. This maybe a private service or maybe none at all but I think it would be nice of us to remember our friend in some way.

Renee, is there a charity you'd like donations sent to? I know you are otherwise entangled but I want to do something.

Sam

RIP Evan

[ThirdMan]

RIP LoOp

Longtime Lurker

I have been haunting this forum for quite some time now. I only recently started communicating with LoOp directly for liquid Baclofen and I just wanted to echo what has been said. I'm floored, he was a couple years younger than I am and did a helluva lot more for other people than I ever have. This world doesn't make a lot of sense some times. My heart goes out to his friends and family, especially Renee.

[kronkcarr]

RIP LoOp

I've been asked to post 2 things here.

There are no plans at this date for a memorial service for Evan.

People have asked about donating money in memory of Evan. Evan posted this mission statement on his website baclofenforalcoholism.com in August:


Phoenix Risen Research LLC

08-15-2013, 11:20 PM


Mission Statement

Our purpose is to provide information about the use of the baclofen for the treatment of alcoholism and other addictions; to collect and make permanently available to the public: scientific research regarding baclofen for alcoholism or other addictions, and any further applications that may be discovered regarding improving health and quality of life for any individual; and to collect and preserve a comprehensive and permanent record, including first-hand accounts from individuals who have used baclofen to address their alcoholism, other addictions, or other relevant conditions; their methods of using baclofen, and their results, within the meaning of section 501(c)(3) of the Internal Revenue Code of 1954 and NTEE Code E70 - Public Health: Organizations that inform the public of health and safety hazards and measures for furthering the early detection, treatment or rehabilitation of people who have an illness, injury or disability.

For anyone interested in supporting his cause to further education and research for baclofen you may make a tax deductible charitable donation. All monies will be held in a restricted account that Evan's mom Renee is responsible for. When she determines what will best further his mission she'll disperse the funds.

Evan was in the process of becoming a 501c (nonprofit organization). His company is now under the umbrella of another 501c, so donations are tax deductible.

If you have questions please contact RedThread at RedThread@baclofenforalcoholism.com.

[bleep]

RIP LoOp

I saw this when I returned from a holiday.

Nobody has touched me, reached out to me, and done more for me in my quest for a life worth living on this website than Evan. I will miss him terribly. I am heartbroken.

I am not going to try and eulogize here. We all know what he did. His influence will live on.

[RudyB]

RIP LoOp

LoOp was kinda like a big brother when I was active on this forum, whether he knew it or not. He was selfless and kind and full of knowledge that he was ever-willing to share. Like everyone else's, my heart cries to hear this news. I think his timeless soul must surely be pouring down love and hope for us all.

[RudyB]

RIP LoOp

But still, Ow!

[Marioisback]

RIP LoOp

Just seen this,

Very sad May he rest in peace.

[Isolde]

RIP LoOp

I found out that Evan passed at the beginning of this week (thanks to Bruun for reaching out to me). I had been thinking about him out of the blue for the few days before that, and when I found out he was gone, I knew why. I read all of the comments on his FB page and the thread here. I wasn?t sure what to feel for a couple of days. Aside from trading a few texts a couple of months ago, we hadn?t been in touch for awhile. I started thinking about the times that we spent together, the conversations that we had and the memories that I have of him. I didn?t feel the need to post anything publicly. I said everything to Evan this past week that I needed to say, and I know that he heard me. Not only that, but I?ve felt him. He even paid me a visit on Christmas Eve and turned on a string of musical Christmas lights when I was the only one in the house. Sounds kooky, but I ?knew? that it was him. I said out loud, ?Hi, Evan?. I?m an atheist as well (one of the many things we bonded over), but I do believe that the energy of the spirit hangs around after it departs the physical world. His presence is extremely peaceful and serene. Most importantly, his mind is at peace. I think he was kind of tortured for a while, trying to find a balance between having enough energy and focus to get everything done that he wanted to do (which was a LOT, as you all know!), and the resulting crash that inevitably ensued. He had a hard time sleeping. I spent a few weeks with him over the course of our 6 month ?adventure? together, and he very rarely slept in bed. He would often fall asleep in front of the computer with his head on his arm. I even found him asleep on a patio chair in the middle of the night once after he?d stepped out for a cigarette break. That was one of his quirks that took me awhile to get used to, but which his family was very familiar with!

All that being said, after thinking about the times that we spent together and reading other people?s accounts of how they knew him, I realized that it?s a very healing experience to share these things with each other. So here we go.

It was the beginning of 2011. I?d been on baclofen for about 6 months and had hit the switch and I was very active on the MWO forums. I started a thread one day about a song that I found very inspirational and how it related to being able to start again, thanks to baclofen. He responded with his favorite inspirational song, which, of course, was Tool. Tool happens to be my favorite band as well, and the rest was history. We monopolized the thread talking about Tool until NE decided to play matchmaker and insisted that we become friends on Facebook and start conversing offline. We PMd each other numerous times a day, then started emailing. Then came the phone calls and the constant text messages. I had to bump up my cell phone plan to unlimited text just for him! We had a lot in common ? Tool, atheism, baclofen, working out, and that was just the tip of the iceberg. He absolutely swept me off my feet and I agreed to fly from Ft. Lauderdale to Sacramento for a long weekend a month and a half later. 2 months later, I was there for another week. I was already into weight training, but he introduced me to the app JE FIT, showed me the most important benchmark exercises, and got me lifting heavier. I never would have made the gains that I did if it wasn?t for him. We worked out together when I went to visit him. I even corrected his deadlift form! (That?s right Ev, I said it!) I started intermittent fasting and we were on the same eating schedule when I was there. He cooked dinner for us every night, and even woke me up once when I?d fallen asleep on the couch with a bowl of cottage cheese and berries to make sure I?d get enough calories in during the feeding window. Though we clicked in so many ways, we ended up being better off as friends.

Most of you know that Evan went to Burning Man almost every year. Well, he had decided from the moment we met that I was a ?burner?, as they?re called. And after a lot of coercion (Evan persuasive?!? Nah! :H), I agreed to go with him.
I was out there for 2 weeks ? a few days before Burning Man to prepare, the week of BM, and then a few days after to decompress. Prepping was insane! Evan had a grand idea for the camp, and he and I worked together at his mom?s shop next to his parents' house ? cutting rebar, filing it, prepping the shade cloth and then eventually doing a dry run w/ the camp set up. We made a great team, we didn?t have to say much to understand what the other needed, we were always on the same page. He worked tirelessly to get everything ready. He cooked massive batches of chili and spaghetti and meat sauce to take with us. Though there were only 3 of us in our camp, he made enough food to share with everyone around us, and we hosted dinner a couple of nights that we were there.
Burning Man is indescribable. It?s beyond what I?m able to convey here, and it?s different for everyone. For anyone who?s interested, do some Googling. There are great pictures and stories out there. It wasn?t easy for me, I?d never even been camping before, and I don?t like being dirty. You?re never NOT dusty! Everything is covered in dust. You do kind of get used to it though. Despite some of the difficulties, I do have some great memories as well. The absolute BEST one was from Wednesday night/Thursday morning. I was super excited to find out that Infected Mushroom was going to be playing, and I made it clear that I HAD to see them. Evan and his friend Jacob have no interest in electronic music, but Evan made sure that I got to see them. Infected Mushroom wasn?t playing until 2am, so we were out roaming the playa, hitching a ride on an art car, making new friends. We made it late to the concert stage, but Evan forged a way to the front of the stage and insisted that I hop up and sit on his shoulders. I had played ?Cities of the Future? for him before, which I?m convinced they wrote about Burning Man. It?s an awesome song and I kept hoping that we hadn?t missed it. I was so happy when it came on and I leaned down and screamed to Evan, ?This is it! This is it!? and he bounced me up and down on his shoulders. That is a very happy memory. :yay:
After that, the 3 of us took some tabs of acid that we had come across, hung out back at the camp and listened to Tool, then watched the sun rise over the mountains while we walked along the ?pier?, giggling all the while. For those who have never done pschyadelics, let me say this ? they affect everyone differently, and it?s incredibly difficult to find someone who is on the same level that you are while under the influence. Evan and I were absolutely on the same level. During our ?trip?, Evan and I shared a connection deeper than I?ve ever had with anyone before, and which I doubt I will ever have again.
(I want to point out here that though we did a few recreational drugs at Burning Man, I never knew Evan to do illegal drugs at any other time, and I believe 100% that they had nothing to do with his passing.)
Then there was the night of the Temple burn. During the week, people go to the temple and write all over the structure - things that they want to let go of or messages to loved ones that have passed, etc. (Sharpies are freely provided for all). The Man burns on Saturday night and it?s a big party (well, the whole week is a big party, but the burning of the Man is the pinnacle of the celebration). The Temple burn on Sunday is a 180? shift. Everyone is completely quiet. It is the ONLY time that the playa is quiet. No music is playing, no one talks above a whisper. Take a moment to imagine that ? a city of 50,000 people, all watching the same thing in quiet reverence. It is truly one of the most amazing things I have ever witnessed. We were on the top level of an art car, so we had a great view. I was standing at the front rail, Evan was standing behind me. I don?t know if I can describe the emotions that I was feeling. All week I kept saying how the Temple was one of the most beautiful things that I had ever seen (that?s it in my avatar), and I couldn?t believe that they were going to burn it. But at that moment, I understood why. It?s so we can let go.
I was absolutely transfixed and speechless, with tears in my eyes. After the whole structure had been ablaze for a few minutes, I turned around to look back at Evan. But he wasn?t looking at the Temple. He was looking at me. He wanted to see my emotions in response to seeing my first temple burn. I?d forgotten about that moment until just now. That makes sitting down to write this all worth it. I have the chills right now thinking about that moment.

I love you, Evan. Thank you for everything. :h

For everyone who has a hole left from Evan?s passing ? know that he is still with us. Talk to him, he hears you. You might even hear what he would say in response. He may not have believed that there is anything after death, I know I didn?t used to, but I guarantee you he believes now! I know that he wants us to be happy, and to remember him at his best ? energetic, passionate, clear headed and focused (and ripped, of course! Always so humble, Ev, yeah yeah!). Most importantly, don?t EVER give up yourself - HE never would.

[Otter]

RIP LoOp

Bill*;1601248 wrote: Goodbye my old friend


Unfortunately, I think liquid baclofen has passed away with him, last I spoke to him, he spoke of our dream to change the world by helping any alcoholic have access to baclofen, he has helped save thousands of people, he was so proud of all the people he helped, I asked him how he was going and he said "im living the dream"
Evan Picard passed away last night. You will be missed

I don't know what to say. I had just sent him a Christmas message yesterday as his Skype was online. He gave me hope to carry on with the struggle against this horrendous illness.

He was a wonderful and inspiring person and he will be missed. My heartfelt condolences to his family.