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[Yourfriend6116]

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Hi Everyone! Happy New Year!
BKyoga--thanks for stopping by. Yes, I am impatient cause I feel like everyday I drink I'm closer to ruining my health. So I decided I'm not drinking today. I also even thought about getting pregnant again so I could be AF and hopefully never go back-but that's just insane! It does show how desperate we are, though.
J's mum--hey there! I'm up to 30 mg and I split it up 4 times a day. I've had no real side effects, yet.
I've heard some say they drank while on bac and some think drinking slows the progress, so I'm just going to try to get as many AF days as I can. When I've tried in the past I could only get 3 or so, but that was before I met all of you lovely, supportive people.

[Samandkatharine]

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Hey you.

I'm on a search to find a thread that Evan posted, or another member, that is called BAD BAC.... Some Bac we get overseas have more side effects than others. Pacifen is a huge no no for me. If someone knows of this thread, bring it back.

As you go up in mg, SE while imbibing do get worse. Sleep is my worst enemy, due to increasing sleepiness during the day. I nod off during the day and sleep poorly at night. I'm trying to keep the naps at bay.

Sam

[Yourfriend6116]

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I JUST read that one. Let me try to find.

[Yourfriend6116]

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It did say pacifen was good for them. Those are the pills I have once my liq is gone

[Yourfriend6116]

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https://www.mywayout.org/community/f2...fen-46174.html

[Yourfriend6116]

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hi All!
Just wanted to give a positive update. I'm on day 2 of 30 mg and day 2 of AF. I haven't done 2 days with out wine in months. The last time I did it was 3 days and I was obsessed with thoughts about drinking. I totally haven't! I've also started the L-Glutamine. I'm not sure what this means, but it feels great and so weird that I wasn't bargaining myself into drinking these past two days. I'm just going to keep taking the bac and move forward day by day-but these past two make me feel very optimistic.

[spiritwolf333]

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Good job!!! Congrats..

[Yourfriend6116]

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Thanks so much spirit! Day 3 and still no cravings I couldn't handle. I feel so " I'm charge"! Finally, I'm the BOSS!!

[skullbabyland]

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So happy for you, Friend Keep it up! Also, if you experience less good days re: drinking, don't beat yourself or the process up, or let yourself get crestfallen.. it's a long process to recovery and bad days are part of the process. But I digress- I'm happy you're having good days. Feeling able to handle cravings is quite empowering and exciting, isn't it???

[Yourfriend6116]

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Thanks sbl! Tonight will be the first night we will be out and I'll have to decline alcohol. I'm not sure what "reason" ill use or even why I think I need one (my husband says I don't need to say anything). I think it's cause I cannot ever remember a time I've said no to a drink. Kind of sad/weird/proof I'm an alcoholic. I'll ck in later. Thanks everyone!

[skullbabyland]

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Hope last night went well for you. I think your H is right- often times "I'll have an iced tea/club soda/fill in the blank please" is statement enough, and people just notice (or not) and them move on, and that's the end of it. No biggie to anyone else- oftentimes we just build it up as a big deal in our own head when nobody else cares either way.

[Jazi's Mum]

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Hi Yourfriend. Hope things went well last night.

When I've been in that situation I've said something like: "oh, I'm so thirsty what I'm really craving is a big glass of iced tea (or whatever)." And I make it sound like I'm just dying for that iced tea. Then it makes it sound like I'm not turning down alcohol, but that I really PREFER something better for me at that time. As time goes on no one remembers that I've turned down the first one.

Looking forward to reading how things went (for better or worse!)
JMum

[Yourfriend6116]

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I made it through AF! However i was very irritable by the end of the night and wine sounded so good, but ive felt so good i couldnt mess it up. But the fact that i still craved it proved that i have a road ahead, but i feel good about things so far. Im much better than i was pre-bac-cravings and anxiety-wise. Thanks for the support!!!!

[SlipperyPete]

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Hey Friend, just checking in and it's awesome to see that you're able to go AF and have reduced cravings. The longer you can go AF, the easier it gets, so you're definitely on the right path :goodjob:

[Samandkatharine]

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Bump.thanks!:goodjob: