BK's Naltrexone journey....

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

spuddleduck;1614806 wrote: aarrrgggh... must be something in the airwaves, same thing happened to me (fortunately only a short post, mostly waffle) and the whole bloody computer went off and tits up.hmmpphhh!

try again... bky, sounds like you did a SUPER SWERVE of the booze. if you're anything like me, which I suspect you are, you can be an emotion driven alki. with all this af time, some emotions could be surfacing which are normally squashed by al, now you are having to feel them and acknowledge them. If I have a weird day with feelings I will hole up under my duvet, remote control in one hand and nice food in the other.... but I guess you cant do that with all your family stuff.
I like the way you are thinking of 're-thinking' your butt crack wake ups. a lot of people seem to take this time for things like yoga, meditation.... or as you are thinking maybe just coming here and reading. I have the opposite problem, surfacing before noon is becoming a rarity since I stopped working. Whatever you are doing, keep on doing it, it is working in keeping you af

Spud~ I love love love the rationality you have pointed out in this post?
I am an emotional drinker and do like to squash feelings with AL?. Meditation is a fabulous idea and something I have tried a bit but need to practice more?. I wish I had the option of staying in bed all day watching TV but my kiddos need me.

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[acadiaofmaine]

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Hi BK yoga,

One of the best things about being sober (I have a big 15 days!) is being able to connect better with my kids-much better-and the ability I have to NOTICE the connection! It's awesome to feel happy about my interactions, instead of just paying lip service to them, waiting waiting waiting til I can get to my room and my wine!

I also take 50mg Traz for sleep. I tend to go to bed early, and definitely get up at the butt crack of dawn! I have decided I like this routine-I get up, have coffee, and watch an hour of the news before I get my daughter up for school. It's a nice routine! I could spend that hour more productively, I'm sure, but I AM a little groggy, and it's nice to just do nothing but hear about the state of the nation for awhile!

I also run and find it a life saver. On so many levels, just makes me feel good about myself, happier in general, and keeps my weight down. If I couldn't run, I'd walk-I like getting outdoors!

Ann

[bkyogagurl]

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Acadia~ thanks for stopping in.. Sounds like we are birds of a feather… AWESOMMMMEEEE on your
DAY 15… Noticing the connection between me and my kids makes me want to stay sober. I am in a much better mood in the morning and actually smile… and sometimes sing… my kids think its hilarious. I'm a bit goofy.
I too used to wait wait wait until I could have my wine or beer… its nice to a break from those chains.

I get groggy too on the Traz.. it stinks but I tried going down to 25 mg but it did not seem to keep me asleep as I woke up every two hours… and that sure doesn't help my state of morning.

How far do you run? Do run races? I like running for weight purposes too. I almost always run outdoors I love it.. I am headed out in a few after I get all my posting in..
I am mostly short distance.. 4-6 miles on a daily basis but did train for and do a half marathon… about killed me and I swore I would never do another but have since changed my mind.

Do you have a thread? I am trying to read up on some threads but get sidetracked with own.. HA!

[spiritwolf333]

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Right on BK! I hope the naltrexone works for you -I have heard other success stories. And congrats on your on thread -great to see an ole-timer (2010) jump in. Lack of sleep and intense dreams have always been an issue for me. And every time I quit drinking, the sleeping really went to chaos for about 60 days. Pre-baclofen attempts at sobriety, my dreams usually including drinking or not drinking, but in time, those drinking dreams went away.

Great job on 17!

[bkyogagurl]

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60 days… shit Spirit really??? Funny I am not using Nal right at the moment because I'm not drinking. YAH! but will if and when I decide to drink… I gotta say these AF days are so rewarding that the ball and chain of drinking seems much less appealing. I'm lucky I don't dream about drinking ever really… I wonder if its because my conscious is happy to be not drinking…

I dream of Superman with his shirt off… haha just kidding.. my hubby is a pretty hunky dude… so I don't have to dream much.
I'm thinking I read you are sober right??? if so how many days… I am not the judgmental sort at all so whatever you have going on it right where I think you should be…
Thanks for stopping in… everyone is making me feel all warm and fuzzy..

For those of you who don't know… my uncle died last month and it was a sad moment for me. His funeral is today and I decided not to attend because I have some toxic relatives including my mother that drive me to extremes like scratching eyes out but worse yet drink… sooo I am protecting me and not attending.
My little sister has recently opened up to me about her addictions which put me in a tail spin but kind of plays with my emotions as I am sure she is quite confused too. But here again I need her to understand that she isn't the only one the issues that she is dealing with and if she cannot be upfront and straight with me I will have to protect myself and distance myself from her..
I am so newly sober and I have got to protect my quit.

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[spuddleduck]

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wasn't that a fabulous idea not going to the funeral. maybe that's what was bugging you yesterday (subconsciously). no doubt you will get to hear any gossip if anything happened. just be glad you were out of it and be proud that you had the strength to make that decision. im sure not so long ago you would have just gone along with it, to hell with the outcome.

[bkyogagurl]

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Spud- I think not going to the funeral worked for me and kept me sane. I think you are right that I may have made a different decision earlier on in my working on recovery..

Had a good day but noticed I felt tired and a bit grouchy. I was wondering why but I think I know this is part of the process...

I am taking tomorrow off from technology.... I get sucked in to much sometimes..

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[acadiaofmaine]

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Hi BKY,

You asked if I had a thread...mostly I post on Ladies on a Mission under Monthly Abstinence. Check it out! Lots of wonderful women (and one man!) with a serious but fun approach to sobriety. We have our ups and downs, but are mostly on the upswing! Everyone is very supportive and non judgmental.

I only run 2.5-3.5 miles each day. I am 57, with sore knees, and limited time. I ran a marathon many many years ago-would love to get up to your level but not sure I can any more! But the distance I do is enough in terms of how I feel physically and emotionally! I love it. I remember when I used to run 6+miles/day, I could eat ANYTHING and not gain an ounce!

I think what we have to remember is, whatever we feel on any given day is "normal." Especially in early sobriety, our energy level is going to be up and down, our emotions all over the place. To expect anything different is to reject the power of AL and what it has done to our brains and bodies! We just have to hang in there. I don't know, that's what I tell myself anyway!!

Anyway, happy to know you, and visit that thread (or Newbie's Nest, too, is great) and introduce yourself!

Ann

[YouKayBee]

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I'm really pleased you avoided the funeral. Yeah the food thing can feel like it's the only thing you've got, just got to take it easy. The hangover days are wierd, I get them if I've not slept properly and I think hell, I feel like I've been partying all weekend except I've NOT!

Have you noticed feeling any different without nal in your system?

[spuddleduck]

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I know some will say its better than AL but I don't agree... I don't think sugar is any better for you than AL... I don't want to turn over addiction for addiction....

Food glorious Food.. well I would say YES FOOD IS BETTER THAN AL... I know you are talking about sugar, not food, but sugar is food. my diabetes makes me very aware that when my blood sugar is low I need sugar and I need it now. when all said and done all carbohydrate breaks down into sugars to be metabolised. so, if you became addicted to sugar, whats the worst that would happen... get a bit fat and lardy. I don't think you would find yourself 'snot slinging' (not heard that for a while) or blacking out and hating yourself and the world.... so ... yep, in my mind, go ahead and have that cream cake, ... just don't make a habit of it. ok, the sugar lecture is over (loads would disagree with me). Did mr bk go to the funeral or was he somewhere else. im sure all of this has something to do with the 'funk' you have been feeling. Happy sober sunday to you bk

[bkyogagurl]

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acadiaofmaine;1615412 wrote: Hi BKY,

You asked if I had a thread...mostly I post on Ladies on a Mission under Monthly Abstinence. Check it out! Lots of wonderful women (and one man!) with a serious but fun approach to sobriety. We have our ups and downs, but are mostly on the upswing! Everyone is very supportive and non judgmental.

I only run 2.5-3.5 miles each day. I am 57, with sore knees, and limited time. I ran a marathon many many years ago-would love to get up to your level but not sure I can any more! But the distance I do is enough in terms of how I feel physically and emotionally! I love it. I remember when I used to run 6+miles/day, I could eat ANYTHING and not gain an ounce!

I think what we have to remember is, whatever we feel on any given day is "normal." Especially in early sobriety, our energy level is going to be up and down, our emotions all over the place. To expect anything different is to reject the power of AL and what it has done to our brains and bodies! We just have to hang in there. I don't know, that's what I tell myself anyway!!

Anyway, happy to know you, and visit that thread (or Newbie's Nest, too, is great) and introduce yourself!

Ann

I will check out LOM.. I did stop by once I've heard really nice things about the ladies there and they seemed really responsive and supportive.

Does stink that our bodies start feeling the effects of age... I used to be an 8 min. pace. But after hurting my leg I have been running 12's. It's so hard for me to wrap my head around being slow. But it is better than not running at all.

Thanks for your thoughts on feeling normal.. It really hit home with me and I needs to hear that. Being newly sober is lending a plethora of emotions and physical stuff and is interesting for me to digest sober. Good... But interesting.

Can I ask you a sort of personal question? Did you ever feel your hormones mess with you?

Thanks for your support.

[bkyogagurl]

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Ukblonde;1615441 wrote: I'm really pleased you avoided the funeral. Yeah the food thing can feel like it's the only thing you've got, just got to take it easy. The hangover days are wierd, I get them if I've not slept properly and I think hell, I feel like I've been partying all weekend except I've NOT!

Have you noticed feeling any different without nal in your system?

I do need to take it easy concerning food.. I can feel my mind saying well if we aren't drinking you can eat more... We both know that doesn't not work out well. I felt even more "hungover" today... I had a headache and felt like general shit. I went for a run and it didn't really clear things up.. I am wondered if the sugar from the donut started my day off wrong? I have heard of sugar hangovers and my 12 year old actually gets them.
I am hoping I will wake tomorrow better.

What do you mean by difference without Nal.. Do you mean like cravings? I have had a few slight ones but am able to push them aside quite easily.
Or do you mean how the Nal itself makes me feel because I can definitely tell a difference not having it in my system... I would have to take it again to describe more correctly exactly the feeling I was having because I'm dealing with this headache that isn't helping me concentrate very easily. It's hard for me to look at my ipad.

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