BK's Naltrexone journey....

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

skullbabyland;1617413 wrote: Hi BK, it's your pal Skull (shooing crickets away... GET OUTTA HERE YA JERK ASS CRICKETS!!!)

Sounds like you had a bumpy day or two with the Mister. I hope things are evening out. I know how lonely days can feel... hopefully today is better? Even if not, it will be soon. You're protecting you quit and you can feel great about that. You're doing amazing at it!

Thank you Buddie-- I am feeling better. I have been struggling with a really bad headache that I don't know what from... Maybe part of getting sober.. But it is gone I hope forever.
Thanks for cheering me on... I'm not feeling to sorry for myself I have been invading other nice people threads HA.

You know how it goes with relationships and I have been married for a ripe ole 15 years... You can't live with someone that long and not get on each other's nerves. Mr. BK really is a good dude and after he realizes how bad he has pissed me off.. My big ole man cowers like a little puppy... It's kinda funny now... Plus he kisses my ass for a couple of days. I like that.
Well not literally but you know what I mean.:H

[bkyogagurl]

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Ukblonde;1617416 wrote: Hey BK

Hmmm, what I found is that my friends changed, they either drank less themselves, or I acquired sober activity friends. Unfortunately this doesn't happen over night but it gives you time to make sure you're ok - and comfy being sober.

I don't foresee any of my friends drinking less on my account.. But that's ok.

You are right... It will take time to acquire new non-drinking friends and as much as Princess BK wants things right now I will be patience.

I like that ..... gives me time to make sure IM OK and comfy being sober sober & comfy are probably two words I would have NEVER used together..

I am feeling impatience tho because I have not heard back from that trainer guy so I schedule my workouts. I have a feeling he wants to talk with my coach as they work together to to figure out what is best for me...

[YouKayBee]

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bkyogagurl;1617451 wrote: I don't foresee any of my friends drinking less on my account.. But that's ok.

You are right... It will take time to acquire new non-drinking friends and as much as Princess BK wants things right now I will be patience.

I like that ..... gives me time to make sure IM OK and comfy being sober sober & comfy are probably two words I would have NEVER used together..

I am feeling impatience tho because I have not heard back from that trainer guy so I schedule my workouts. I have a feeling he wants to talk with my coach as they work together to to figure out what is best for me...

It'll be ok, sometimes life gets in the way for other people, I know what it's like though you want their attention NOW.

Re the friends I didn't mean they'll do it for you necessarily, I found because I wasn't drinking, or drinking less it sort of rubbed off, they just over time reduced drinking and because I wasn't one extra person diverting to the bar, I wasn't saying "Let's go buy wine" and making a cup of tea instead, stuff naturally moved away from being drinking centred, more days out driving and not drinking, not rushing back to make last orders (cos it didn't matter). It wasn't sudden apart from the alcoholic-drag-you-downs which I ditched before TSM. Friends just know I don't drink and it works out differently.

[skullbabyland]

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bkyogagurl;1617449 wrote: Thank you Buddie-- I am feeling better. I have been struggling with a really bad headache that I don't know what from... Maybe part of getting sober.. But it is gone I hope forever.

In my first month or two I got significant headaches too- not sure why, but they seem to have gone away now...

[Yourfriend6116]

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Hi BK!! How's it going? Any headache relief? I've had a couple headaches and I automatically get mad at myself cause I think it's from drinking but then I remember I'm not! Congrats on day 24!! We are doing it! Are you going to keep it going for Feb?

[bkyogagurl]

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Hi Youtfriend!!! Good to see you!

My headache comes and goes.. Stinks. It seems allergy related but who knows.. It's frustrating because I just want to feel euphoric all the time... HA! Probably why I drank all along. That isn't a reality.
Thanks for the cheers.. I am thinking I will continue into February... Shocker..who would have known I would want to keep going. How bout you??

[Yourfriend6116]

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I have allergies to grass and weeds so I know how annoying the headaches can be. I have some sprays and meds that help. I thought about going into Feb but I'm going to stop counting days. Since I'm on Bac I want to see if I've lost my desire-does that make sense or sound like a bad idea? Please chime in anyone...
I'm proud do you! What part of the country do you live and how old are your kids-(edit-saw one is 15 in prev post)? I felt a kinship as soon as I heard the grocery store story!!

[bkyogagurl]

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I don't know much about Bac... I went and got an allergy shot. I noticed that on your "mood" is was grumpy.... I am too.. I woke up ok but as the day progressed I just got plain grouchy...I basic just want to veg on the couch... I was even complaining to the kids because the little gal at Baskin Robbins barely put any heath bar in my shake... I don't need extra Heath bar by any means... just pissed me off.
Definitely a sign that I need an attitude adjustment.

I have 3 kids... how bout you?

Oh and to top it off my ipad is acting up... I wrote this whole post and it would not let me hit reply..

blah.

[Samandkatharine]

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Hi BK,

Your moniker has yoga in it. Do you have a practice? I used to run only, but do Bikram yoga. Just checking.

There are at least 2 moms of kids under 18 on the board, so we share quite a bit of background. We also share Mr. What's his name! By the way, don't take chocolate back to the store. Send it to me.:hallo:

Sam

[bkyogagurl]

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Hi Sam... You made me giggle out loud.. I shouldn't have returned the chocolate chips... Cause now I just have to go back and buy them again... HA!

I used to be an avid birkam devotee... But am a runner at heart. So we have that in common too.. Yoga just wasn't working for me and some of the poses that you lock your knee out seemed to be aggravating my sore knee... I haven't practiced in a couple years and wish I could change my moniker(totally did not know that is what it's called.. I call it a tag name) I have since moved to weights to build the muscles around my knee.. Plus I like the result I see from weights better.

Those Mr.'s can be a real pain in the butt... But we love them. Sometimes.

[bkyogagurl]

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I just had a revelation... Tomorrow is 25 days AF for me.... WOW. I did think a brief moment about AL but then laughed and thought NO WAY... I am getting up at the butt crack of Saturday because it's one of my running partners birthday.. It's nice not being hungover... I like it more than I like being a drunk.

Amazing isn't it. I think you guys cheered my grumpiness away... You ROCK!

Maybe I will stay up til midnight just so I can change my signature to day 25.

[Samandkatharine]

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I hate the founder of Bikram(rapist) but like to sweat. The lock your knee crap is just that..locking your knee is downright dangerous. I microbend....

I love to run. It was one of my addictions- before wine.

Glad I stuck my nose in this thread..:thanks:

Sam

[bkyogagurl]

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Me too. Sam... I hope you stay awhile... We can share running stories and husband stuff.. And other things.

Hmmm didn't hear about the rapist things but will google it... Nothing surprises me anymore. It seems a bit cultish to me because they seem to be judgmental of other types of yoga. Some of our instructors were crazy strict almost humorously so... No one is the boss of me... But me. I never had any trouble but saw them chastising other members. So stupid. I totally agree with you on the locked knee thing and understand liking to go... I almost went today because I like the way it makes me feel like I'm detoxing thru sweat..

How is your running going? What and when do you run.. I'm working on a conditioning program now with my friends.. For winter. I don't do marathons but did my first half last Aug. I usually stick with 10k's and 5k's. Keep it fun. Funny you said running was an addiction because it was for me too. I would get so grumpy if I couldn't go for a run and would for go drinking just so I wasn't the slightest bit tired. I got pretty thin for awhile too.

Another thing in common is wine... One of my addictions along with beer.

Keep in touch. I like talking with you.

[bkyogagurl]

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Hello and Good afternoonie..

I got up this morning and ran with my running partners as it was one of their birthdays. I felt sort of quiet and grouchy... long 6 miles.... freezing my ass off. My friend wanted to run at 7am. I love her so I was compliant.

I noticed when I got home I was feeling slightly irritable. I have been waiting for a trainer dude to call me back and as I am sure I am not his only client and he is a busy dude... I haven't heard from him yet..
Princess BK wants what she wants and she wants it right NOW... I have noticed when I get excited about something I go full throttle and this is something I am grappling with.....

PATIENCE... and letting things fall into place instead of forcing them. hmmmmm
such a concept.

So to relieve some of my pent up frustration I went to my favorite lil coffee shop and got a black coffee(I was going good at this point) then this dark chocolate cherry scone jumped right into my palm... I mean I was innocently reaching for my coffee and BAM that thing attacked me..
Oh alright I will come clean and be honest... I would have knocked on ole lady out of the way to get the last one... and I ate most of it. I always don't eat the last bite or two cause I think I'm saving myself some calories... what a joke... might as well eat the whole damn thing and enjoy it..

So this starts another concern of mine... I was pissed off so I ate... not only did I eat.. I ate a very poor choice of a dark chocolate chip cherry scone which actually seemed to help my mood.
THis bothers me on alot of levels because I can fore see it possibly becoming a problem..
I don't want to get pissed and down a cartoon of ice cream or bag of chips to make myself feel better...
I gotta find a new direction for this anxiety I get...
I am thinking I am still getting used to being sober and I keep telling myself at least it isnt alcohol...
some people jump on this band wagon and are ok with it..
"sigh" I hope someone out there understands that I don't want to trade addictions...
I want to understand why I feel the frustrations I do and feel them... not grab some chocolate to release the endorphins to mask them. Isn't that what alcohol does...

Ok that is enough depth for me... I want to get unserious and do something fun.

XOXO

[skullbabyland]

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BK my friend! 25 days, you so RAAAAAWWWKKK (metal singer voice) It must be nice to be able to get up not hungover and sick, even if you are quiet and grouchy, and irritable (as I've mentioned I am often this way too). But it's still so much better than losing a whole day (or 2 or 3) feeling hungover, sick, depressed.

As to the sweet treat/food thing, yeah I have to watch that too, for myself. I don't want to gain a sugar addiction in place of my previous addiction. That said, it IS true that you didn't drink today and that is a WIN. A little chocolate/cherry treat endorphin thing is not nearly as damaging as a bunch of booze, right? So you're protecting your quit, which is priority one. If priority two is sugar/food, well just keep an eye on it and work on it, but give yourself credit for priority one being successful.

I hear ya with the being pissy/irritated, what should we do in that situation? It's a tough one. For me, I tend to find that the best way is some time on my own to "recharge the batteries". that's usually a time to close the door, take a bath and read, or sack out on the couch with a Netflix show. Or if I'm good, some exercise or something similar. But even a "time out" usually does wonders and my cravings for junk food (or cigs or whatever) will usually go away if I distract myself with a show or a book, or MWO or something like that.

Anyway have a good day buddy, go find something fun to do and feel good that you're zeroing in on 30 days! BADAZZ.