BK's Naltrexone journey....

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Ukblonde;1619191 wrote: A few years ago I had a terrible acne outbreak much worse than usual(I've inherited acne), it started after losing almost 20lbs and during an AF spell. I was convinced it was due to toxin release, however I didn't seem to suffer much during future AF spells, some of which also included losing the same if not more weight & body fat. Maybe I'd not picked up the same toxins again, I dunno so can't say how it'll be for you.

Yeah that stuff works its way out of your system over *months*. So don't be surprised by acne, general malaise, and not to be gross but some bathroom issues.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Ukblonde;1619191 wrote: A few years ago I had a terrible acne outbreak much worse than usual(I've inherited acne), it started after losing almost 20lbs and during an AF spell. I was convinced it was due to toxin release, however I didn't seem to suffer much during future AF spells, some of which also included losing the same if not more weight & body fat. Maybe I'd not picked up the same toxins again, I dunno so can't say how it'll be for you.

Strange you mention the acne... This last summer when I was running a ton I broke out horribly.. I actually had to go on oral medication for it and am still on it. I wonder if I was releasing toxins then? All these things my body are going thru make AL much less appealing.. Now that I will be starting my new meal plan I would how my body will respond to the fat loss and toxins now..
Ugh.

[bkyogagurl]

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StuckinLA;1619196 wrote: Yeah that stuff works its way out of your system over *months*. So don't be surprised by acne, general malaise, and not to be gross but some bathroom issues.

*MONTHS* ugh again but thanks for letting me know because it helps me understand what is happening and not give up... It's been easy in the past to say "I still feel like shit so might as well drink and feel good for a couple hours"

Not gonna happen this time.

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

bkyogagurl;1619334 wrote: *MONTHS* ugh again but thanks for letting me know because it helps me understand what is happening and not give up... It's been easy in the past to say "I still feel like shit so might as well drink and feel good for a couple hours"

Not gonna happen this time.

No problem.

Do you go through acute withdrawal when you don't drink? Just asking because I do, or have, and once that happens you can end up having post-acute withdrawal syndrome which has the fun acronym PAWS. But it's not fun. Not at all, and that can come and go for months, too.

Just sayin', don't give up! Smoke some weed, do what you gotta do, just hang tight and it DOES get easier.

5 Things Nobody Tells You About Quitting Drinking | Cracked.com

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[Samandkatharine]

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StuckinLA;1619387 wrote: No problem.

Do you go through acute withdrawal when you don't drink? Just asking because I do, or have, and once that happens you can end up having post-acute withdrawal syndrome which has the fun acronym PAWS. But it's not fun. Not at all, and that can come and go for months, too.

Just sayin', don't give up! Smoke some weed, do what you gotta do, just hang tight and it DOES get easier.

5 Things Nobody Tells You About Quitting Drinking | Cracked.com

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Omg,

That article on cracked.com is the funniest and saddest thing I've ever read!! It's all so true:upset: the shitting out an antler hit home...this explains my sweating and constipation.

The sleep issues and nightmares...oh, the agony of it all... I need a good nights sleep and a craptastic crap. What's worse than not having either? Death....

Sam

[StuckinLA]

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I generally switch between OTC sleep pills and Benadryl for sleep. Works so-so. 50mg of Benadryl can kind of knock you out though. Sleep is really important, but at the same time I try to avoid the downward spiral of sleep meds, so anything to just take the edge off is a plus in my book.

[Pavati]

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That article cracked me up!

I wonder if the blues I am feeling that won't go away are some sort of PAWS, although I never had acute withdrawals. Can you get them anyway? My dreams have been pretty amazing...

Great thread - interesting to think about food. I gave up most carbs two years ago and lost 25 lbs without changing anything else (especially not drinking). Since quitting the drink I have picked up more rice, potatoes and candy, but have still stayed away from bread and pasta and have managed to keep off the weight. I WILL get this candy thing off my back soon - makes me feel yucky.

[StuckinLA]

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Sorry I'm hijacking - I don't mean to!!!

PAWS is acute withdrawal without actually drinking. It's like a major, major, major anxiety attack at least for me it is. Shaking, sweating, racing heartbeat and can't breath, dizzy and going to die, etc. But blues and mood are also a normal part of stopping drinking. So is problems with sleeping.

We get all worked up about quitting, and psych ourselves up to think that we've hit bottom, or gotten to the worst, and so we're going to quit drinking because things have gotten to be as bad as we can imagine them to be - basically, I'm projecting here. But what nobody tells you is that things get *worse* after you quit, before they get better. That's really hard to deal with, especially if you're not ready for it.

So again, just do what you have to do to avoid drinking for a while, and know that the sh*t you're going through is temporary and it will get better. If you need to spend a day in bed, or a day doing nothing but watching TV or playing video games, or a couple days on message boards, or a week doing pretty much nothing but masturbating, then do it. Give yourself permission to just f**k off for a little while, take some baths and read trashy novels. Whatever. Things'll start looking up... sometime.

[bkyogagurl]

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StuckinLA;1619387 wrote: No problem.

Do you go through acute withdrawal when you don't drink? Just asking because I do, or have, and once that happens you can end up having post-acute withdrawal syndrome which has the fun acronym PAWS. But it's not fun. Not at all, and that can come and go for months, too.

Just sayin', don't give up! Smoke some weed, do what you gotta do, just hang tight and it DOES get easier.

5 Things Nobody Tells You About Quitting Drinking | Cracked.com

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OMG- Stuck... Everyone in my house is sleeping and it was all I could do not to bust out laughing..
I can actually relate to all of those things.. I felt great the first week of AF thinking it was pure bliss only to find myself the following week tired and VERY irritable.. And I have been having the butt problem too but opposite.
But I have never had the acute withdrawal.. No shakes or anything.

I will totally hang tight.

You are so welcome to hang out here.. So don't worry about high jacking.
Your hilarious... I need some humor.

[bkyogagurl]

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Samandkatharine;1619412 wrote: Omg,

That article on cracked.com is the funniest and saddest thing I've ever read!! It's all so true:upset: the shitting out an antler hit home...this explains my sweating and constipation.

The sleep issues and nightmares...oh, the agony of it all... I need a good nights sleep and a craptastic crap. What's worse than not having either? Death....

Sam

Ya know I got the opposite of shitting an antler... Regular Rhonda here became Constantly Connie...

I will just be glad when it smooths out... No pun intended. HA!

[StuckinLA]

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bkyogagurl;1619459 wrote: You are so welcome to hang out here.. So don't worry about high jacking. Your hilarious... I need some humor.

Thank you my dear. My thread's still (miraculously) on page 1 right now, but I just feel like floating around. And I'm glad you don't mind me floating on your thread. I feel like I should drop some serious words of wisdom, but I don't have any... So go forth, you all, and conquer, whatever it might be that you're all after.

Sorry, I was really wanting to keep up the humor but I drank 2 bottles of wine and then ran out of ice cubes while pouring whiskey. Who the f**k breaks my ice cube trays? Oh yeah, that one b**ch, that's who. So I have brokenass ice cube trays. And that is a problem.

Hugs to all. :l

[bkyogagurl]

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It's been awhile since my last post-

Been experiencing some downs and am trying to muddle thru them...

One very important thing is I am realizing once again that just because you stop drinking it doesn't solve the issues that are in your life at present. It once again makes you face them.. Like slams them in your face.

At least instead of belly-ing up to the bar which did cross my mind-
I headed to Starbucks to post here.

My husband and I have always seemed to have a "normal" relationship in that we do not get along sometimes... Half the time. In fact as of right now I hate his fucking guts. He says and does things that repulse me. It's a huge long story but I will try to shorten it up a bit.
Today it was breakfast. Little background.. My husband has always been a bit controlling when it comes to food. Would get mad if I baked cookies and things because he felt I was trying to make him & the kids fat.. Because he has no self control. None of us are fat. Just completely fucking ridiculous about food preparation... I know what your thinking he should just do it himself... Yes I agree but I feel compromise is part of any relationship so I try to compromise...
So back to this morning,,, I made French toast as my middle kid loves it.
After everyone ate my husband says "that was a nice low calorie breakfast" and I did react.
I took a moment then confronted him and he completely turned it around on me. He said he was saying that toward himself and that I was totally ridiculous and wearing my feelings on my sleeve. Maybe.
I went on to tell him that I was entitled to have feelings. And his reply was that it's "allll" about me.
WTF.. All about me.. Bull shit. When it was hunting season for 3 months who helped that asshole prepare and made homemade meals, sealed them up and frozen them so he would have good food to eat while on 10 day hunts. Who took care of everything at home? Who washed all that hunting shit when he returned home.. No magic fairies at my house.
It's ok when it's all about him. And I never even think about it being all about him. I just want to help in hopes that it will be returned.

He only can handle supporting me for a very short time then the jabs come in.

I am really tired and I know this does not show the complexity of our relationship probably just the opposite.. Seems like a silly fight but it one of way to many..

I wish I had a happy place to go and be... Somewhere I don't want to drink... I do not want to go home and have to sit in the house and see and hear him... It's like fingernails down a chalk board.
Ugh.

[Samandkatharine]

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Hi BK, first of all, here is a :l

Some of us on the board have had a tough couple of weeks. I think the euphoria(pink cloud) of sobriety is wearing off. The fingernails on a chalkboard is a good analogy. Can I tell you my story, only because you aren't the only one with a jerk off SO? And, you are not crazy for making french toast!:nutso:

My DH is a former bike racer. I do yoga and ran for 10 years. He thinks he is overweight, and he's not. Total body dysmorphia. I'm ok for being 54yo. 3 kids, 2 a at home. I have to cook everything separate for him, or we all eat the food he wants. The kids don't want salmon 3 days a week with quinoa and a salad! I don't either. So, I make a pot roast or spaghetti or something everyone will eat for us. He looks at it and thinks I'm poisoning the kids. If i buy a fun cereal I'm a bad mommy. Cookies? Don't get me started. Today he's pissed at me for no reason other than it's raining out and he can't ride. I'm his whipping post. I've been on baclofen for a month(sober except for one 3 glass of wine nite..whoopie) I've been sleeping like crap and I want to SCREAM:mad-door:

My point is this. If making french toast gets your hubbies dander up then it's HIS issue, not yours. But, also keep in mind that he has a right to his feelings, just as you have a right to make the fecking breakfast. He does need to own his food issues though. Where do men get their food issues from? Will my huge 12yo baseball playing son have issues because his dad does? my son could eat a whole box of cereal in one sitting. The sad thing is my hubby could too, and he wants too.

Hugs BK. I will save a spot in the virtual hot tub for you...

Sam

[YouKayBee]

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I don't know if this would work but I did something this last week.

I told my other half how galling it was when I'm dieting and he gets my food wrong (it's a diet given to me for a specific purpose and for that purpose it has to be EXACT, exact ingredients, exact amounts measure a certain way). That I try so hard to be prepared, resist cakes and sweets, even sat with people eating pizza and I'm not having anything, when he then cooks and he's forgotten the amounts (which are mostly the same several meals a day for like 3-6 months at a time) I feel like dying. Well I came home last weekend and my fridge was full of all the right stuff, all portioned out and boxed up.

I was gobsmacked, yes gobsmacked and touched.

It also meant I was less stressy and we had a lovely evening together as a result (so bonus for us both).

The resentment I had for last time he'd 'forgotten' I'd held from almost a year ago, then another incident few weeks back. They way I'd handled it at the time was to just huff and puff which is what I'd decided was better than snapping. The resentment was still there, which made me dread him cooking so finally decided to tell him outside of any incidents and it made the difference.

Sorry for taking over your thread, not sure what I'm trying to say but I do know it's really difficult when you are sober, these things come up and it's like a massive learning process and you won't always get it right, it's a bit like trial and error.

I'm also wondering if DH has been so used to you being a certain way when you were drinking, now you are sober 24/7 it could be very different for him. The power shifts, the way in which you react changes, so learning for everyone.

Hang in there and I'm proud you've got 30 days, here's to the next 30 which will take you up to March, the 3rd Month of the year!

[bkyogagurl]

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Samandkatharine;1622038 wrote: Hi BK, first of all, here is a :l

Some of us on the board have had a tough couple of weeks. I think the euphoria(pink cloud) of sobriety is wearing off. The fingernails on a chalkboard is a good analogy. Can I tell you my story, only because you aren't the only one with a jerk off SO? And, you are not crazy for making french toast!:nutso:

My DH is a former bike racer. I do yoga and ran for 10 years. He thinks he is overweight, and he's not. Total body dysmorphia. I'm ok for being 54yo. 3 kids, 2 a at home. I have to cook everything separate for him, or we all eat the food he wants. The kids don't want salmon 3 days a week with quinoa and a salad! I don't either. So, I make a pot roast or spaghetti or something everyone will eat for us. He looks at it and thinks I'm poisoning the kids. If i buy a fun cereal I'm a bad mommy. Cookies? Don't get me started. Today he's pissed at me for no reason other than it's raining out and he can't ride. I'm his whipping post. I've been on baclofen for a month(sober except for one 3 glass of wine nite..whoopie) I've been sleeping like crap and I want to SCREAM:mad-door:

My point is this. If making french toast gets your hubbies dander up then it's HIS issue, not yours. But, also keep in mind that he has a right to his feelings, just as you have a right to make the fecking breakfast. He does need to own his food issues though. Where do men get their food issues from? Will my huge 12yo baseball playing son have issues because his dad does? my son could eat a whole box of cereal in one sitting. The sad thing is my hubby could too, and he wants too.

Hugs BK. I will save a spot in the virtual hot tub for you...

Sam

Thanks for the hug and the hot tub is great... Although I would normally associate that with drinking.. I don't know what happens to men well I do know what is wrong with mine.. His fucked parents who turned vegetarian and believe everything the read... That is another story.

I am sooooooo sick of mine.. I realize he is entitled to his feelings. And I don't have to take them on. So hard living in the same house.

That stinks you haven't been sleeping good. If I don't get sleep I'm a raging bitch from hell. Mostly just on the inside but of course it creeps out...

I will survive...