BK's Naltrexone journey....

[YouKayBee]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

bkyogagurl;1628539 wrote: I wish I had that kind of support.... I should have PM'ed you or at least posted on my page about my feelings. I know I would have taken the Nal after hearing responses. I could have reached out but did not do it. I don't know why? I knew I was going to drink too. I was dreaded that our friends were coming up and hoping they would cancel. I knew if they came I would drink.

I am so done with this game. I just wish half of our friends didn't drink. I feel like a stick in the mud when I don't drink & plus I really hate being at around drunk people when I am sober...
I am not feeling supported by my husband either. I wish he would stop with me but I think after awhile passes he is ok with drinking again.

Well I am still recovering so maybe that will stick in my mind. These hangovers are brutal.
I just wish I a had been stronger.
The reason I did not take the Nal is because of that flat feeling it gives me. I wanted to be lively and fun. What a fucking joke. Sit in a hotel room and drink massive amounts of alcohol...
Now that is fun... REALLY... Hell no and had I stayed sober I would have been bored as I should & wanted to go home as we should have done. I need to be honest with my friends.

I none to be honest with myself.

You really need to be honest with yourself, and do this for yourself.

Flat?I bet you felt flat after the booze. It's easy to say afterwards, all you have is today to stay sober.:l

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

You are so right... I'm learning how to take care of myself first and I think this will be a huge step in my sobriety because I won't care what others are doing to their body...
I won't want to drink the poison and know I'm better because of it. I hate it.

I want to do this for myself as I feel so much better about me when sober..

[spuddleduck]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

bkyoga. yep you are feeling poo. cos your alcohol mind has been stalkining you . so ok things are ok me lolvely... i am reading your thoughtsl so stop all the self loathing thoughts.. drinking is poo poo ppoo . and all the reasons we are here is because we dont want to feel so poo ppooo pooll..... ... ok bkyoga,,, i will never be disapointed in you so let me know how you are.... xx

[spuddleduck]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

bk . again will say as ukb. we all know how fun we think we are.. but we are. not as fun as we think we are,,,, so think agian about .how we are, .... on your side myear

[YouKayBee]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Morning BK (or whatever time you are at in your neck of the woods).

Have you ever had a go on the Army thread in the GD section above?It's very good if you need some instant chatting type stuff, and they talk about all sorts, sometimes booze and but a lot of the time just what people are doing with their day, stuff that's on their mind, that sort of thing. You could disappear into that at difficult times.

Just a suggestion.

[Yourfriend6116]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Have a great day, BK! Are you in Brooklyn? Wasn't sure what the BK was for.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

I will look into the army thread.. Thanks... I think in the midst of everything I exposed my body to a virus and I have become really sick. I am wondering if it was actually starting before my episode and drinking made it come on ten times worse..

YF- BK was for bikram but I don't practice anymore... I am trying to get a name change processed.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Good morning...

Today is rough day for me... I am having anxiety quite bad and I am feeling disconnected.

I am weepy and sad. I am feeling overwhelmed. I feel physically sick. I have been noticing around my monthly that I deal with anxiety more than usual. I am glad I recognized this as it helps me stay away from AL so I can work thru these moments.

Please today if you don't have something encouraging or nice to say... Please leave my thread alone.
I don't need to be reminded that this is what alcohol does to me. I know. I know some of you are pillars of strength and are dealing with your sobriety on a very pleasant level. I am happy for you.
But today I am not...
I am dealing with some other issues that lend to me drinking and it's not just as easy as stopping drinking.
Cause when I do- I am faced with the unsettled mind and thoughts I am trying very hard to sort out.

And sometimes I could just use a hug...

[skullbabyland]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

I am sorry you're having a rough day BK... just know you're not alone. Take care of yourself today buddy... *HUG*

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Thanks Skull.. I thinka hug was all I needed today.. I went for a run too. I am feeling more grounded after venting and getting some fresh air.

[Yourfriend6116]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

:l:l Here is my hug to you. Two of em!


This, too, shall pass.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Your friend- thanks it already feels better..

[Pavati]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Hi, BK --

Stalking your thread to check in on you. I hope all is ok and you're out enjoying the weekend.

xo
Pav

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Pav- you sweetie pie! I was busy cleaning my house today. Fun.

All is good here. No desire to hop back on hungover train. That may have cured me.
Had a good and quiet weekend.

How bout you?

[Pavati]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

All good here. I really don't want to be hungover again, either. That's a good reminder. And I need to clean the house, too. Maybe you'll give me inspiration.

Back at work after a week off. Feeling tired but grateful I made it w/o AL.

xo