BK's Naltrexone journey....

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Hi all..

Still not feeling to good. May have to visit the doc tomorrow. I'm sober and abstinent

Be back when I can type more.

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Feel better, BK. Thinkin' about ya'. :l:l

[gracieb]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Hi yogagurl. I finally found your personal thread! You mentioned having one but I didn't know where it was. Hope your feeling better.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Hey Gracie.. Glad you found me. I will check over at your thread to see what's happening.

Stuck... Thanks for thinking of me sweetie pie:l

I have been having some abdominal pain and went in today for testing to make sure I didn't have appendicitis and I doubt but I there are some problems with my girl parts. Nothing to serious... I guess they are just mad.

Waiting for my doc to call and give me an update.

Nice thing is... During all this I didn't think to drink I just realized
I craved a hand full of almond cluster thingies I love and that was about it.
I am gonna rest some more for bit then I will check in...

How are you guys doing?

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

I'm heading off on vacation in the morning - 3 weeks in Europe. Not nearly as excited about the whole thing as I should be, but that's just me these days I guess. Mostly all the travel part of travel that's bugging me, not looking forward to hours upon hours in a plane. Guess that's also to say I won't be around much if any the next few weeks.

Hope everyone's doing well. :l

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Have lots of fun Stuck! You will be missed...:l

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Good morning...

Just checking in. Been having a great abstinent stint and am feeling reluctance about drinking. Which is good because I am usually more curious. I have been diligently checking in everyday and I really think that it really helps being accountable.

It looks like I may have a hernia. Boooooooo. Will have to get it fixed up one way or another.
I have still been eating healthy... When things like this pop up I usually turn to food like ice cream to make me feel better. I decided I wouldn't do that and stay healthy & clean.
When things like used to happened I would get upset and say fuck it. But not this time I will stay the course and hop over this obstacle with the Grace and patience I know live somewhere inside me.

After my last bout with drinking... I have recovered with love in my heart and for myself. I am having a lot of internal thoughts about how I want to treat myself. I feel warmth and security....
But I am also remembering the anxiety and fear AL lends me so I am hoping for a longer stint of AF.
It's so odd... How relaxed I feel. I like it and will go with it.

I had to skip training today as I have to go to the doc and get this trouble solved. I hate missing workouts.
They are part of my sanity.

Well I hope all are having a good day. Much love.

[skullbabyland]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

BK, good to hear. Your thoughts in particular about how logically you're considering the how and why you turn to AL, and how you're making the choice to endure uncomfortable/painful things without it. Sounds like great progress to me, and yes isn't the calmness and serenity that comes with that a lovely feeling

So sorry to hear about the hernia... Boooooooo. I hope that it doesn't take you out of commission for long. Good luck getting it treated my friend and I'm happy for your days of abstinence! YES do check in here everyday, it really helps!

Much love buddy!

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Skullbaby!!! Good to see you Buddie..
Sounds like your hanging tough! So proud of you..

No hernia... Other stuff to embarrassing to say out loud will have to PM you.
But I am back in the saddle and had an aaaawesome workout today.
Meal plan is getting dialed in.

[gracieb]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

I've ordered the Sinclair book and am going to order some naltrexone. I hate the idea of being dependent on a drug, but reading some of the success with it, I'm going to give it a try. I'm so tired of struggling with this. It looks like it helped you get on top

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Sinclair method isn't 'dependent' on a drug. You only take it if you're going to drink (and talk about being dependent on a drug, that's the definition of drinking alcoholically )

Best of luck.

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Stuck!!! Been thinking about you... How's the trip??
I miss ya around these parts.:huggy

Nal seems to have or is working for me.... Weird I haven't felt like drinking. So I think it must have helped.
I have been less inclined to drink than EVER before... I don't know.. Maybe it helps your head.
I think since getting some of my major issues in my relationship cleared up life seems more tolerable. HA!
And a honorable mention is eating healthy. I think it could help balance things out too. When you are taking care of yourself it seems like matters.

Gracie- if you need any help or advice I what I went thru feel free to ask. I'm here for you girl.
Take care of you.k:

I'm doing so good.. Feeling calm and collected.. Makes thoughts of alcohol non-existent after the anxiety I suffered last time I drank.
Chocolate could pose to be a problem:choc: but I will fight that with diligence as well.

[StuckinLA]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Yo! Hi everyone. The trip's good thanks for asking BK. It's super cold and rainy today, so that kinda sucks. But I'm chilling with my girl next to the Adriatic Sea, so there's that. Life is pretty darned good.

Hope you're doing well. I've been reading quickly over the threads when I have wifi and a spare moment so I may have missed something. But sure hope you can get back to your workouts soon. :l

[bkyogagurl]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

Jane- I'm glad you found us too. I'm laid back and very non-judgmental. Hang out and let me know what is going on with you...

Fucking A: I think it could have numerous definitions depending on when you use it..

Fucking Awesome
Fucking Annoying
Fucking Atrocious
Fucking Awful
Fucking Amazing

It's one if those terms that can be used in a variety of ways. HA!

Stuck... I am soooo very glad you are enjoying your vaca with your girl. Thanks for checking in... Always like to hear from you.

As for me... I gotta say I am enjoying the AF life right now. I think my last episode left a mark as every time I even see AL my mind reverts back to the horrible anxiety I suffered... And I am in no hurry to experience that again. The husband drank this weekend and it didn't even irritate me.. I was like go get it... But I am certainly not joining, I also told him I was definitely not attending the party with him either. He was cool.
I have been getting some workouts in.. Of course... I am looking forward to an awesome new week dedicated to healthy eating and destroying the gym... HA! I'm not really that much of a badass but it makes me smile thinking I might be some day.
I did have a blurb this weekend with staying on my diet... But hey at least I didn't get drunk too.
I am feel dialed in and good about myself.
I tell ya the fun I have with my kiddos warms my heart up like you wouldn't believe.. I feel closer to them than ever. I think AL fogs emotions and when I felt like I wasn't being a very good mom it was because I wasn't. I was missing that very important piece of connection with them because it was numb with AL.

It's like a special treat now to look into their eyes and see things I have missed.
It's late and I have to get up early... Hugs to all.
Just remember..
:loveyou:

[skullbabyland]

BK's Naltrexone journey....

BK, just thought I'd pop in and say hi-- you sound like you're doing great! Keep that memory of the terrible post-drinking anxiety fresh in your mind, since it helps to keep you from doing it again. So cool that you're enjoying the AF life, with all that comes with it- workouts, nutrition, and best of all, being present and happy for your kiddos. SO awesome. You RAAAAAWWWWK (said with cookie-monster metal singer yelly voice)
Love ya!