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[chelsea98]

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so last night was the first without smoke for many a year. i had a restless sleep anyway as I have a shoulder issue since my motorbike accident and it makes me jump and twitch. However, I did have a very vivid dream last night. nothing scary or nightmarish (like the traumatic dream i had after only one day off the weed, not the hash), but vivid nonetheless which is more than I've had in a very very long time. I woke up this morning and have not thought about weed/hash apart from writing this message. i was kind of at a loss last night as I'd normally be rolling away, in fact i threw out my packet of rizla papers yesterday after my final spliff. so not strictly cravings, but as with finishing drinking, i was kind of at a loss what to do with the additional free time that i'd normally use for smoking.

feeling ok today though, some stressful shit this morning but it's ok to handle. i'd normally have had at least one wake and bake (get up,skin/roll up) but don't feel the urge, not that i could anyway as i don't have anything.

[chelsea98]

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so it's been almost a week. the dreams havent been too bad, vivid yes. i did try and stop over a month ago and the dream was traumatic, but that was when i was smoking weed and not the hash that i finished on. as before, i've been thinking about it but not craving it. some odd things have been happening though. yesterday i was quite teary and i can't figure out why. i felt this sense of impending doom, that there was something about to go majorly wrong soon. not sure if i can put that down to stopping smoking or whether its just life in general really. i feel better for not smoking though. i can't tell if my memory is improving or not at this stage though it's supposed to in due course. alas the memory improvement is only from this day forth so it's not like it will magically give me back all that i've forgotten (as far as i know). i've not been around anyone who's been smoking it so temptation is not there at all, as opposed to booze where its everywhere.

there's no events on the horizon where i'll come in to contact with it either so it's been quite easy to stay off it. that's good because you have to make an effort to get it

[chelsea98]

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emotions are up and down like a fucking rollercoaster. coupled with some paranoia it's not making it an easy ride. cravings are still zero, but feeling like i need a major escape and quickly. been fighting all day against hitting the bottle as thats the quickest route to anywhere but here that i know. instead im just sitting stewing in a big pile of shit of my own making. i can't say its all down to stopping but i hope this shitstorm passes asap.

[COSGringo]

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thomas m;1622619 wrote: If I lives somewhere where I had access to certain strains I'd probably give it a shot but where I live its a class B drug (crazy) and you take what your given... Usually sativa strains which send you up the wall. You guys in the states with the MM cards have it good.

You are right on the high Sativa content. They can really set a lot of folks off panic and paranoia- me included.

Actually most of the strains here in Colorado are just too strong.

They do have that medical one "Charlotte's Web" made right here in the city I live in. More so for children with seizure disorder.

If you want MJ here, you can find a store that sells without requireing a "red card" or just go on Craigslist to have it delivered.

Me, meh, booze was always my go to social fun drug.

[chelsea98]

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so my recent emotional episode was i think more to do with my private life than the marijuana. that has now passed. what i find myself now doing it pretty much everything. as with the booze, i'm making up for lost time. as a stoner, it's typical you get stuck in a rut and getting out of that rut has seen me almost in a mad rush to get things done, tim eis so precious to me now. im getting stuck into hot yoga like a mofo, getting more organised, getting things done which weren't so much left on the back burner as weren't even being considered. it's not so much motivation (my wife has asked me for some of mine), it's more like impatience. i'm more focused, i'm more attentive and more alert. i can't say for sure that my memory is improving as it's still early days but I am remembering things from my past. i can't say that they're long forgotten, it's maybe that i'm just being reminded of things and they're easier to recall.

regarding cravings, as with booze on the baclofen, they're gone. there's no temptation in front of me at all which of course helps but i'm not thinking about it at all unless it's mentioned to me or when i tell my friends, much to their astonishment, that i've stopped and am done with it.

i've had almost a few hundred hits on this topic so far, i'm not looking for replies at all, but if anyone has any questions then please ask because there may be things which are asked of me which I hadn't considered which in the long run could be of assistance to someone else going through a similar situation.

[skullbabyland]

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Wow Chelsea, sounds like you're doing well since you've kicked alcohol and MJ to the curb. Getting a lot done and being very motivated must feel great. I can relate-- nowadays I have to remind myself to find ways to relax or I'll be too wound up a lot of the time.

I was recently considering getting MMJ as a way to relax from stress and if I'm being honest, as a somewhat healthier replacement for alcohol as a means to "check out" at the end of the day, but I've decided against it, because I'm too wary of developing a dependance on something else and sliding back to where I was with alcohol- not getting anything else in my life done. Better I think for me to learn other ways to relax while being completely substance free, and thus keep the doors open for motivation to live life more fully.

[chelsea98]

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hi skullbaby,

thanks for your reply and it does feel great! though I now have to get used to me again. it's the first time in a couple of decades i've been substance free, legal or otherwise so I'm very much still a work in progress.

regarding you using medical marijuana for relaxation etc, I personally wouldn't advise against it. You've gone through the ringer with booze as have i, so you're more than aware of what can happen. Having said that, I did have a 20-25 year habit so I wouldn't worry about becoming dependent on it at all. If it ever gets to the stage where you're smoking it everyday, throughout the day, starting in the mornings, then yes, that'd be a serious issue. In the same way that most people can have a simple single glass of wine at the end of the day and leave it at that, the same can be be said for marijuana.

if you don't smoke cigarettes (and I do) which I mixed with marijuana to smoke it, then there are other ways to take it. You could make cakes with it (that'll give you something productive to do!) or, you can buy vaporisers. There was an american guy i met in amsterdam recently who'd had a lung operation a few years ago but liked to smoke weed. he couldn't of course due to his lungs so the vaporiser was perfect for him.

Again, i wouldn't say to start on it, but I wouldn't say not to. It can be good to de-stress and can be an enjoyable escape so it would be entirely down to how you feel about it.

Hope you're well!!

[Yourfriend6116]

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Chelsea--
Thanks so much for sharing your story. I'm also a daily pot smoker. I'm about 50 odd days into my baclofen journey for alcohol. I hope that I can have the same success you've had with both alcohol and mj.

Thanks again for sharing.

[chelsea98]

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yourfriend, i wish you the best of luck. if you can get off the booze which im sure you will if you titrate properly, then you can use it for the weed. it'll seem daunting when you get to the weed (and get off the booze first and take a while before you do the weed). it seemed more daunting to me for the weed as i had a much longer relationship with it but if you want to do it baclofen will have your back.

[chelsea98]

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one of the hardest things about stopping weed and booze after such an extended relationship with both is discovering me. i've not really known myself at all to be honest and that realisation is kind of difficult to come to terms with. i'm my own person yet am borne of my parents and their genes. i see traits in them which i now see in myself and am not entirely happy about it. yet, i have, now, the wherewithall to recognise them and do something about it. you always tell yourself you'll be better parents that yours were when you have kids and i have done that to a certain extent (though being pissed and stoned for 20+ years means that i've not been, just a terrible escape artist from life).

so now the real work begins, getting to know myself, realising my faults, adapting so that i can work with them, being aware of them and trying to change them.

[chelsea98]

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so now i'm just about 4 weeks free of mary jane. it seems I have a kind of double impatience. the first was when i stopped alcohol with baclofen and was making up for lost time and that's now got the impatience I've gained from stopping weed thrown in on top. I'm being even more productive that i was when i stopped the booze and that's obviously a very good thing but the main difference is the dreams. HOLY SHIT!!!! THE DREAMS!! absolutely nuts. they're not settling down but im getting used to them. some are so vivid i can recall finite details days later, others are boring so i file them in the forget-em-fast folder but damn is it a big difference.

I'm still titrating down since hitting the switch from the booze and am currently at 100mg per day. I had thought that i may need to head on up again to try and get over the weed but i think baclofen has probably already done it's work for me when i got way up to 240mg for the booze. I didnt realise it at the time but now think that i could have stopped weed and booze together. I think it was probably wise though to use weed as a parachute, because i could. the next step is cigarettes. that may take some building up to but I'm not sure. if baclofen has been so good for weed and booze then why shouldnt it be so for tobacco? I don't think it's so much the stopping that's the issue, but it's maybe more to do with what i'll do with my hands and all the other sub-routines Ive had for this 2.5 decade long relationship.

all in all, it's going very well. I have absolutely ZERO cravings for weed/hash, none whatsoever. I'm not even thinking about it at all which is slightly different from the booze when on occasions i think "i might have a beer" then like a burst bubble, the thought is gone. the one thing i do miss a little bit about the weed is the rizla rolling papers and the only reason i miss them is that on a couple of occasions, i've broken one of my cigarettes and have nothing to repair them with!!

[chelsea98]

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hi shoner, yes, there are many medical issues which it can benefit though legalisation for recreational use is not far off in many countries now.

however, i never used it medicinally, only to get stoned/high/escape. it will be interesting to see if in years to come people who use it purely medicinally have issues with it in the same way that i and many others do.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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He's a spammer, Chelsea. You can tell by the number of posts someone has, and the link.

(You have to have at least 3 posts in order to post a link. Spammers generally only post 3 times, or if they post more then the posts are generally a copy of something in the thread--completely out of context--with the link.)

My husband quit smoking cold turkey about 2 months after he quit drinking. Couldn't have done it without bac. I actually had no hope that he'd give it up because he's been doing it consistently since he was a kid--more even than drinking. He said he never missed it.

It can be done!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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[StuckinLA]

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skullbabyland;1626494 wrote:

I was recently considering getting MMJ as a way to relax from stress and if I'm being honest, as a somewhat healthier replacement for alcohol as a means to "check out" at the end of the day, but I've decided against it, because I'm too wary of developing a dependance on something else and sliding back to where I was with alcohol- not getting anything else in my life done. Better I think for me to learn other ways to relax while being completely substance free, and thus keep the doors open for motivation to live life more fully.

Sounds like you've made your decision - which is great. I did go and get a MMJ card and couldn't even smoke the very little I bought the first time. I think it was like an 1/8th of a gram and then got a free joint for making my first purchase. Smoking shot my anxiety through the roof - even with a fairly "mild" sativa. And the indica in the joint put me through panic I've not experienced in a long, long time.

And I pleasantly got high almost every night toward the end of high school. Just enough to kind of shut down the day and get some sleep. Worked like a charm. Now, not so much.