I haven't been around in a while. Looked over the forum and it's heartbreaking/ heartwarming to see everyone needing, trying, finding success. :l
I'm still taking the bac. Had some great success. Then had some serious life changes, everything better in every way, and that overwhelmed me. Since then I've lost my momentum. Still hopeful, have to make this work, have to stop waking up saying 'not today' and by the time I'm on the way home from work stopping at the liquor store.
I am back up to 260 trying to reclaim the switch and the price is a bit steep. I'm using Inhouse. I am seeing a psychiatrist in the Bay Area (the pill pusher kind/ not the talk therapy kind) under my work's insurance for anxiety. The only SE I get from HDB is anxiety, rumination... so we are experimenting w/ Paxil etc. I am very tempted to bring my situation up w/ my doctor but don't want it on my record, especially if they refuse to prescribe bac.
Can anyone enlighten me? Am i paranoid? Or is it unwise to say, 'by the way doctor, i drink against my will and for 3 years have been self medicating using high dose baclofen from overseas pharmacies and liquid marked 'not for human consumption'" ? I mean, once that is out of the bag, and they look at you like you are insane and refuse to support you, you can't just say, Just kidding, I'll take my Xanax and go. Then they'll type it up in my Kaiser record and it will be there forever.
But if they say Yes then I get a good, cheap constant supply of Walgreen's bac.
Please advise. I looked at the 'Doctors that prescribe bac' thread but wonder if I should try to get it under my insurance first.
I haven't been here in a long time but it is a great comfort knowing there is a least one place to turn about questions like this. Otherwise I am an island.
Thanks!
Jack
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