* I am pretty much a functioning sort of alcoholic, and don't have any major "problems" because of it. Hence the difficulty in convincing myself to quit or cut down. At worst, drinking often causes me to stay up too late and then wakes me up too early (thanks, cortisol). Then I am in a tired haze all day, and not on my game. I could be so much more effective and on my game, if this weren't the case. A few times I've shown up to work with a hangover that must have been rather obvious, which is embarrassing.
* I am in my 40s and the weight keeps creeping up. Drinking doesn't help.
* I have a 5-year-old child. Right now "drunk daddy" = "fun daddy." However, growing up I had several friends with an alcoholic for a parent, and they most certainly did not consider that parent to be fun in any way.
* I drink around a bottle and a half of wine a night, on average. Not sure how many units that is, but it amounts to a pretty good chunk of money. Right now that money is literally going down the toilet (by way of my kidneys). It could be going to lots of other, more useful things.
* I am constantly clearing my throat and have a swollen throat almost all of the time. Doc says this is due to acid reflux at night, and that the remedy is to not drink wine in the evenings. Easy enough, unless you're someone who feels compelled to drink wine every evening. I worry this might eventually cause throat cancer, and that would be a real bummer, wouldn't it?
* When I drink too much sitting by myself watching TV, and stay up too late, and then I'm hungover and tired the next day for absolutely no good reason, it really makes me want to kick myself.
* I am getting tired of being "that guy" who can always be expected to get drunk. (No one has ever said this to me, but I feel that is the perception people probably have.) In my 20s and 30s it was kind of cool or cute, but now it isn't cute anymore.
* Back to the weight thing again, trying to cut carbs or whatever else is totally useless when you drink alcohol, as it totally screws with your blood sugar and makes you compelled to wolf down a bagel in the morning.
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