As for the switch....

[davelet]

As for the switch....

Hi Captain.

Your experience is EXACTLY the same as mine - fighting sleepiness in the afternoon and then when I get home and if I do have a drink I'm wide awake and buzzing! I too sleep like a baby once I'm in bed, though.

David.

[CaptnHaddock]

As for the switch....

davelet, Lostinspace and perhaps Tee (not sure whether that antabuse post was directed at me or someone else) -- I didn't want to hijack Zampa's thread so I've started a new one (Baclofen vs. routine).

Thanks for your input, maybe you can contribute also there.

[zampa75]

As for the switch....

CaptnHaddock;1684541 wrote: davelet, Lostinspace and perhaps Tee (not sure whether that antabuse post was directed at me or someone else) -- I didn't want to hijack Zampa's thread so I've started a new one (Baclofen vs. routine).

Thanks for your input, maybe you can contribute also there.

Thanks for your being so considerate, Cap

Anyway, I appreciate ALL of your responses, and please keep them coming. :thanks:

It's been a rough weekend. Last Friday was one of those nights when I completely lost it. I only remember banging my chin on the nightstand so hard that I think my brain bounced against the top of my skull. Quite painful. Still bruised. But as for the rest... all black.

I can't wait for this to work. I can't stand being me anymore.
I only hope to God I am not one of those people who require one year or more for this to happen. I don't think I can put up with my s**t for another year - or that my husband can, for that matter. I am amazed he is still here and willing to be...

JKTTDP I guess...
Can't wait for the damn switch to free me from this monster... Sometimes I am not even sure if the monster hides in me and wakes up after a certain amount of wine, or if I am the monster...

[Ne/Neva Eva]

As for the switch....

Hey, Cali (Kim), Thanks for the kind words. I think what you wrote is right on the money. :l

[Lostinspace]

As for the switch....

Hang in there zampa. I'm sure that when things happen to remind you of all the reasons you want to be free of this drinking nonsense, it can be really hard to be patient with the process.

But you will get there eventually. Your initial post on this thread shows that you are already having a change in your thinking toward alcohol. Don't worry about how long the whole process will take. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and keep going until you've found your freedom.

And no, you're not the monster. Alcohol gets us to act in ways we usually never would. One day you'll look back on all this and think "my god. I can't believe I ever lived that way. Things are so much different now!" Keep the faith. You'll get there.