Just an update, for myself as much as anyone else.
I still crave the booze. I think about it so often. I miss it. But I go plenty of days without it, and have a glass of wine sometimes with dinner if my partner pours one. But the bottle is often not empty at the end of the evening.
I judge myself for drinking at all; I ask the question: 'Are you keeping the back door slightly ajar, so if you need to dash back to safety, it's always there?' Part of me thinks: be one of those people who says, 'I don't drink because I'm an alcoholic.' View it as a permanent condition. I suppose only time will tell what the answer to these questions are.
I can't imagine I'm out of the woods yet, and I think upping the 4pm dose to 75 mg has definitely helped.
Stay safe,
George Smiley
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