You all tell me that life is better on the other side (of drinking). I get excited. I want to believe you - especially first thing in the morning, but come early evening I think ... Well, you know what I think. I stop consulting the message board, lose any sense of comitment, and open a bottle.
I feel as if I'm waiting for a slap around the face, some kind of wake up call. Really though, I know what I need is to get through the early evenings for enough evenings to break the habit. Can any of you help me? What 'slapped you around the face' what woke you up? I can NOT drink. My addiction at the moment has proved to be psychological. Fortunately for me it's not yet physical. But I know it will become so if I don't change. Please help me want to change. I want tommorrow night not only to be different, but to be the beginning of many different nights. I need staying power that goes beyond 48 hours.
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