A deathwish??

[Suzanna]

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great!!

Gelgit, just wanted to check in on you, and yeay for getting that vodka outta there!! It is lunchtime in this neck of the woods, don't know what woods you are in Love.

:goodjob:

[gelgit]

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Thoughts and prayers are very, very good. West coast woods and still morning here. Maybe lunch tomorrow... vitamin C and water today!! Thanks for checking in. I'm still going through all the forums. It's like there's about 15 of me, all posting the same thoughts and feelings.... so much pain here and then, so much hope.

[Marv]

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Magic Pill

Know you are loved....

Here is the majic pill I take a least once a week, more if I can get it:



:h

[Captnjack]

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LATE here G gotta sleep I find you to be someone very special a very honest person
you gotta love youre self a morning nap wont hurt ?? west coast woods sounds wonderful seems to me you have more hope than pain lock that pain sucker away. Hitch a ride with hope.
Luv to you Cap

[gelgit]

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Hi Marv, What is that pill; antabuse? and am I hallucinating a golden chalice of burgundy?? I just took more "Calms" as my chest is really beginning to hurt. I might have drunk myself into a bout of congestive heart failure. This is where the deathwish part comes in. No panic here. If it gets worse I'll go to the hospital... not as long as I'm conscious though as I don't have any insurance. Now, you know that I live in the good ol" USA.
sweet dreams Capt. you've been a great help!! xxxxxxxx

[Captnjack]

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love you g talk the next day after this one

[Marv]

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gelgit;316289 wrote: Hi Marv, What is that pill; antabuse? and am I hallucinating a golden chalice of burgundy?? I just took more "Calms" as my chest is really beginning to hurt. I might have drunk myself into a bout of congestive heart failure. This is where the deathwish part comes in. No panic here. If it gets worse I'll go to the hospital... not as long as I'm conscious though as I don't have any insurance. Now, you know that I live in the good ol" USA.
sweet dreams Capt. you've been a great help!! xxxxxxxx

That pill is the best Anti-Buse: It is the Eucharist. :h

[jinja]

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Listen sweetie, I have 2 beautiful daughters - they laugh & they play!! Beautiful sounds!!! I am so lost because I can't feel the joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have tried so many things. New one now!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't leave ever - because of them. My trial or maybe my lesson. I am learning every way I can.

I won't to go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can I? They love me so much, I will not be that selfish & I WILL find a solution to this. Focus - you will too.

Take care
xxx

[gelgit]

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Thank you Marv, I can still keep trying but the antabuse is the ONLY thing that has ever worked. But, here I am trying again.... is that like communion? Oh Jinji, many great hugs to you. We need to find the wonder and put some magic (no pills) back into our lives. My children are grown and all the harm I did is water under the bridge. The only thing I can do to make up for it is to stop doing it. Stop drinking. Doesn't that seem so simple?? Keep writing about your girls. How old are they? What about daddy? My children's father beat and raped me. I thought I might never get over it. I finally got the strength to leave. I did, and then went on to make more poor choices. The best way for me (and it took a lot of years) was to think of all the mess and pain as a lesson that needs to be learned in this lifetime!! Can we help ourselves to move on, learn and be AF happy? You bet we can.

[BigMac]

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Hi G, I am so sorry to hear the state you're in. Please, please take care of yourself and get the help you need. You were so caring and thoughtful to me when I first came here 17 days ago. I wish there was more I could do or say to support you.

When I came here and finally went AF I honestly felt that if I went back to drinking I would never make it back, so you can say I'm in large part scared sober. But you can make it back!! We all have - most of us 100's of times. I very clearly remember waking up to morning chest pains and thinking, 'Is this the day I am going to die?' That's no way to live. You are NOT in this alone! Please feel free to PM or email me any time!!

[gelgit]

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Hi Big Mac with a big heart. My chest is awful, and I wonder too "is this the day?" Awesome beautiful day. I think I'm finally rehydrated and managed to eat a strawberry, along with the calcium, magnesium, C,D,E and everything I have on hand to get feeling better sooner. I did try to talk to a doctor once and he told me the exact same thing that your doc said to you. I didn't get it either.
As you're in Southern CA and I am North....be safe and stay out of the ocean and off the freeways for while. This means that while there is a greater chance of getting killed by a car, there is something soooo terrible about being eaten. That poor man.
Going to do some serious praying and listen to the CDs....I love the part where he says "very nice". So sexy!!

[jinja]

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Morning Gelgit

Boy, was I on a downer yesterday!! Sorry about that. I?m coming off the anti-depressants ? gee, to you think anyone noticed?

I know they warn about posting under the influence, maybe they should also warn about posting when your brain feels like it?s been smashed by a bowling ball!

You are sounding better!! Well done for each step! I think I might get the CDs ? they seem to be quite good from what I?ve read from those who have tried. Especially if there's a sexy voice!!

Anyhow, my problem is getting the ?connectivity?. I?m just waiting & hoping that it will happen. Feeling the joy and wanting the next day ? how cool would that be!! 'Feeling the love' - - I do try, honest!

Take care
xxx

[gelgit]

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Morning Jinja from California,
Ya, yesterday was quite a day!! Thinking back I wonder if you might be having some hormone problems: drinking drains the juices out of us and getting older doesn't help. Female hormonal inbalances actually start way before menopause... late 30's even.
I still have a shitty feeling but I'm breathing better today. I read a good book until I couldn't keep my eyes open and then I plugged in the ipod and listened to the CDs and feel asleep with a good dose of melatonin. All I can do is hope and pray for the will to overcome that which I have allowed to overwhelm me!! What is this depression shit? I know people who had gone through horrible times (not of their own making) and still they are happy with their lives today. I hope you are getting a good night's sleep and have sweet dreams of your little girls:l g. xxxxxxxxxxxxx