Tonight I am drinking. I'm feeling a little down. Please don't send me any nasty pms....I'm trying and I usually succeed in moderating. I suppose i just would like a friendly 'ear' .....! Are there any nice looking friendly ears out there?! The bigger the better!!! I suppose I'm a bit of a saddo really, but hey ho.....keep the old chin up eh! Being serious,,,,I would ideally like to get off my face so I don't have to deal with the madness in my head. But..the madness comes back unfortunately the next day. Sometimes I think about ending it all because I know it would be over then...Like my brother.... but responsibilities stop me from doing that. Responsibilities are a bummer aren't they. !
Anyway, enough of self pity....I am happy sipping. I'm lonely I think and just a little bored of being a mother, a lover, a cook, a cleaner and nothing else......please don't think I'm a horrible person. I'm not...I've just lost Bella somewhere down that long line. Now Bella drinks to get high...Not a pretty sight I would say. I would rather get high through Flying lessons!!!! Umm...still trying to pluck up the courage to do that.
ahh well, time to get more beer....or a coffee...
Bella X
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