The long and winding road

[FloridaBoy]

The long and winding road

I finally realized that I just cannot moderate. My brain is not wired that way. Once I accepted that going AF became a lot easier. I feel so much better now that I don't want to
pretend to be like people that have the control mechanism. I do not miss the hangovers either....or the depression that came with AL. Good luck and keep trying.

[CMCEREZA]

The long and winding road

Hello Gumby.. I'm reading thru this thread because I'm waivering "big-time" today and I so understand what you are saying. . I love the words that Cookoosnest83 said and I agree. Keep on trying, we are not perfect, but we're doing better everyday.

I have done better in the past 3 wks being a part of this site, then the past 5 yrs doing things on my own. I 'm a newbie still, but I just did 4 days (over memorial day holiday too) of AF, thanks to this site and everyone's input. Unfortunately, my boyfriend (who is AF) left after being here all weekend, and after a stressful day of work, I'm wanting a drink bad! It's more habit, i think.. i took my meds/supps and started to feel better, but now a long time 'drinking' friend is on her way to my house for some "girl therapy" and I know what that means... Getting drunk! God is diffinately testing me today!

Hang in there and keep on reading....

[Cinders]

The long and winding road

Gumby, Cuckoo and MB,

It sounds like all of you are facing a habit thing.

I remember vaguely someone here had a hubby that would tell her to wait until 9:30 at night and if you still want a drink then have one.

She said that most nights by the time 9:30 came around, she didn't want one anymore.

Just a thought.

Like Florida Boy, I know I cannot mod. Period. Tried that a few too many times and lost each and everyone of them. I could not get enough AF time under my belt to withdraw, I am a wussy girl.

So, I checked into a short term detox and got on Antabuse before I walked out the door.

Other than one slip, I have done well on it. (I let myself go a week without the med and of course had to "test" it.) Yep, test proved out exactly what I have learned over and over and over again.

I am very good at drinking. I have proven that to myself. Now I have to work on being good at not drinking.

Good luck, all. I know this is hard but I believe you can do it. I truly do.

Love,
Cindi

[KateH1]

The long and winding road

Hi Gumby, good to see you again!

I get what you mean about "sheer determination". It is definitely needed to beat this thing! But, I also think that the Kudzu and L-glut helped me with the cravings. I also think that life style changes help. Go to the gym, go for a walk go sit with a coffee and Barnes and Noble, whatever it takes to change the routine during "The Witching Hour".

Welcome, Kat.....best wishes on your success!

[Gumby]

The long and winding road

Thank You all....some how it is helpful. I feel confident, which is how I felt about kicking the wine...that is accomplished. I have vowed to not swich one addiction for another this time. I will keep checking in here and stay true to myself. :-)