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    Poured alcohol down the toilet

    I had to do it finally. I have no idea if I will actually stop drinking. It has gotten to the point where I am terrified of this addiction and terrified of myself. I do not feel I have any control anymore. I am really scared but I really want to stop. I had 3 bottles of beer left of a 6-pack and they are now gone. I thought in my head it would symbolize my desire to stop and somehow help me quit to just pour them down the toilet.

    My life has just become one big "When can I have my next drink?" I have 2 amazing children that I don't feel I deserve, I don't know how they are so amazing with an alcoholic for a mother. I feel myself losing my temper with them and they do not deserve a drunk for a mom so I have to stop this.

    Like many stories on here, none of my friends, even my husband, knows how much I drink. Even I probably don't know, I mean, if I really kept track of it all, it would probably sicken me. I just have to stop this and I'm so scared I can't.

    Thanks for listening. :new:

    #2
    Poured alcohol down the toilet

    Welcome T4C, like you I have beautiful kids and although they know that I am an alcoholic they do not know exactly how much I drink. Which is way too much. But now I'm focusing on increasing my days AF. And slowly I'm getting there.
    Draw up a plan and work towards it.
    Jessie.
    make the least of the worst, and the most of the best - everyday.

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      #3
      Poured alcohol down the toilet

      Welcome Time4Change,

      I was horrified when I eventually added up (honestly) the number of drinks I had each evening, it was a great shock to the system.

      Well done on pouring the beer down the drain, I look forward to reading more posts from you.

      Dee
      "The person who says it cannot be done should not interrupt the person doing it"

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        #4
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        Well done on pouring out the beer!
        In one attempt to stop, I threw out a lovely wine rack that was a Christmas pressie from my mum and my last bottle of wine... only to find myself raking around in the wheelie bin 20 minutes later to retrieve it.. covered in rubbish and stinking.
        still drank it... but left the wine rack behind. Felt awful
        ?I am playing all the right notes... But not necessarily in the right order.....?

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          #5
          Poured alcohol down the toilet

          Hi Time4Change
          I can totally relate to you. I too have two beautiful daughters and my husband definately does not know how much I drink. I am ashamed to admit that I hide usually a bottle of wine from him so he thinks I am only consuming what we have in the fridge, normally half a bottle. This addiction is so so hard but I am still here battling on, that's got to be a positive hasn't it. I am going to order the supplements today as I have had a couple of bad days and gave in to my cravings. I am trying to stay AF tonight and see how that goes. How are you feeling now? SetoXX

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            #6
            Poured alcohol down the toilet

            ODAT and for this day you did the right thing, which is am improvemnt !! on days gone by...remember that a journey starts with one step. GOOD WORK!! Keep writing and reading
            FH

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              #7
              Poured alcohol down the toilet

              Hi Time
              Great that you got rid of the al.
              If I told you that you are in a fight for your life what would you do?Learn about the enemy and formulate a plan.You are in a fight for your life just like me and the rest of us here.The people here are great for helping us see and learn about the enemy.It is the individual who has to figure out how he is going to fight his fight.I looked back at the things I used to enjoy in life before al and used them as weapons .I have embraced a new lifestyle and that is working for me
              Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
              Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
              AF 5-16-08

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                #8
                Poured alcohol down the toilet

                Good for you! Yep, did it a zillion times before I finally quite. I always was a slow learner! LOL! Keep it up! You have everthing to gain if you do, and everything to loose if you don't! Sending hugs and support!

                Best
                "It wasn't all I wanted, but all I could stand!":bigwink: Alcohol free since April 8, 2008

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                  #9
                  Poured alcohol down the toilet

                  T4C - Great job on throwing the beer away. Takes alot to do that. What a great way to start though with a positive act on your part!!!
                  Happy to be AF Since 9.13.08

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                    #10
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                    Kudos

                    Good 4 U-Have to start somewhere.
                    "Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)

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                      #11
                      Poured alcohol down the toilet

                      You too CAN quit. Good for you for taking this step.

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                        #12
                        Poured alcohol down the toilet

                        Awesome Job Time For Change !! You put AL exactly where he belongs....in the sewer !! I've dumped my wine down the sink quite a few times.....but I like your idea much better !!

                        You are correct, our children do not derserve having alcoholic mothers...or fathers. That's why we must stop.....for our children and for ourselves. Yes, it is very hard to stop this addiction, but we must keep on trying, and NEVER EVER give up ! :l
                        Miss October :blinkylove:

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                          #13
                          Poured alcohol down the toilet

                          I keep that visual of myself pouring AL down the drain,very near and dear to my heart.It was the hardest BEST thing that I ever did.Keep up the good work...
                          sigpicEyes on the PRIZE, a SOBER Future !!!

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