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    Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

    How are these three things related, you ask?

    They are the three things that control/mold my life.

    With the chronic pain and alcoholism, it is the old chicken/egg game so we won't go there...the third, I am so tired of juggling the other two it is killing me emotionally and physically. I am not whining, or really not sure why, other than the fact I needed to get it out somewhere, that I m posting.

    I guess the third thing, is the why, of why I am posting. I am a shell...I wake up, take my pain meds, and clean as best I can and go to work, and take my pain meds to get through the day, and come home...utterly exhausted and empty....clean if I have the energy (of which there is very little these days), and drink if I can afford to and the kids have no "thing" going on...to numb...the pain, the depression, and the mental agony I seem to be stuck in.

    ACK...a huge circle I need to escape. The alcohol is only one (but big) factor. Any one that can relate, I could use a buddy or something...and feel free to give me a kick...I am slipping into "poor me" mode that isn't going to help.

    I have a husband who has two ex wives, we have six kids, we both work...and I feel like I am coming to the end of my rope.blah...

    thanks for listening,
    sorry...I really needed to share,
    K
    Striving to live life without ALCOHOL
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    #2
    Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

    Sorry you are feeling so low.

    :l :l :l :l
    Enough is enough

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      #3
      Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

      thank you Waves

      :l right back
      Striving to live life without ALCOHOL

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        #4
        Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

        You are welcome here :h Please let us know how you are. My mother lives with chronic pain. Such a rough road....sending you support and prayers. Stay strong, stay with us...we will listen and offer what help we can. :l
        :flower: I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be.

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          #5
          Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

          Alc and depression go hand in hand. I know everyone says it, and i used to think that my depresssion was a completley seperate entity to my drinking. I am taking prozac, and when drinking i just thought they didnt work. I am now on day 36(i think) and feeling so much better about myself. 40 days ago i was at the end of my teather, and if it wasnt for my daughter, i would of got on a plane and disappered and prob drunk myself to death pretty quickly. I am now beginning to teach myself to like myself again, and am dealing with my propblems rather than puting them away in the cupboard, which was full to bursting point.
          If i deal with my day as it comes and deal with each problem on that day, i go to bed with a clear concience, happy that i am happy.
          To Infinity And Beyond!!

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            #6
            Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

            It's the alcohol because no matter how bad things are it can all still feel copable with if you don't drink. I speak from years and years and years of drinking. I've had some really tough times but I've always felt lucky because life has always given me a second change (sometimes more). I keep struggling carry on drinking and now I suppose I don't drink too much at all but IT'S FAR TOO MUCH FOR ME because I get stressed, anxious and feel like shit most of the time (but not when the bottle still has some booze in it!). Try just giving yourself one day at a time. Some of us just can't stop straight away, some can but one day at a time is such a help. Try focusing on how different things will feel tomorrow - I know you can do it - I try not to think about the times I've had but without the alcohol you will feel an awful lot better - at the very least you will have some self-respect and I find when I have that it can help me focus and begin thinking about building blocks for the future. Hang on in there and keep logging on. Today is a danger day for me for many reasons - I'm going to eat all day (not something I usually do) and employ lots of psychological tricks (I hope) to try and get me through this evening - I think I'm more of a habitual drinker than chemically hooked but in the end I still end up feeling like SH*T when I drink. Keep strong. Px
            Short term goal 7 days AF

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              #7
              Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

              Hi Keeta, its definitely a vicious circle syndrome. We drink cos we get stressed, the Al is a depressant, so we drink more to try and cheer ourselves up or to numb the depression and stress... It may seem like its neverending a the time.. but something has to give.
              Can you try changing your routine? A new hobby.. activity? Something for your mind to really get stuck into. What did you used to enjoy doing, before the alcohol took hold?
              I used to love yoga, taking my dogs for long walks and this all stopped because I was too interested in popping to my local pub on an afternoon. Im now trying to exercise more (well, that is I will once this darn flu-bug goes, lol) and its amazing the sense of achievement you get with doing even the smallest of things that you wouldnt previously have been able to do while under the influence.
              Take Care,
              C
              ?I am playing all the right notes... But not necessarily in the right order.....?

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                #8
                Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                Hi there Keeta:l
                Just want to say so sorry you are feeling low and yes I can sooo relate to what you are saying. I suffer from chronic pain as have had an eat disorder for over 20 years and I too use painkillers and al to relieve it. Having a long depressive history I too know the alcohol doesn't help but its hard to resist when it feels such a quick fix.
                I do really believe that by cutting down/ abstaining then the symptoms will improve as I did 7 days af (in a row!) last month and the pain/ low feelings and ability to cope vastly improved even over that small time.
                Small steps, its hard with responsibilities even at this mo I have a 3 year old and a 10 year old demending my attention!
                Take care , you are not alone in this and keep posting
                lots of love
                Evie
                Jesus said"Come unto me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
                Take My yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls.
                For my yolk is easy and My burden is light                "

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                  #9
                  Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                  Hi Keeta, Hope this day finds you feeling a bit better. I can't relate to chronic painz (knock on wood), but I do know that alcohol is a depression enhancer. You've been around here long enough to know the basics of dealing with the alcohol so I am wondering where you are with that? Do or did you have a plan? Maybe stating specifically what you have put into place that was or wasn't effective can help you arrive at one that will. Not only by sharing the info with others here who may be able to offer alternative suggestions but by clarifying it for you and keeping you on the road so to speak. Somehow you've got to break the circle pattern. So, what's your first promise to yourself? :l :h You know I care.
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                  Thoughts become things..... choose the good ones. ~TUT

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                    #10
                    Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                    Hi Keeta,

                    I posted a while back in another thread much like this one.
                    I began to abuse alcohol ( or would that be alchol abusing me???) due to chronic pain. While it helps for the 3-4 hours that you can 'escape' from the pain, what I have now realized that is that it makes the next 20 hours sooooooo much worse.
                    Exercise- just walking- 30 mins a day has helped tremendously. I also am taking Vitamin D ( I notice you are also a Canuck and we simply do not get enough of the suns rays).
                    Sleep is also SO important for us chronic pain folk- alcohol in any amount kinda screws that up. If you don't sleep well, get some medication from you doctor to break the cycle.
                    I also use a Cancer technique, based upon 'look good/ feel good' and it does work. When I take as little extra time to fix myself up, I just smile and engage more, which gets the endorphins going... rather than hiding with a hang over, ball cap and sweats everyday.
                    Anyhoot- those are my 3 bits... hope they help.

                    Skoots
                    "I have not failed - I have just found 10,000 ways that won't work"- Thomas A Edison

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                      #11
                      Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                      i know thing dont look that great now but in time ..things will turn arounf for you dont give up you can make it thur this... stay strong and think positive
                      :beach: life does change as long as you are willing to change yourself ..
                      best thing about the future it comes one day at a time..

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                        #12
                        Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                        When I drink it's the only time I feel I can tolerate my life right now. I have leg, back, and hip pain, use valium for the chronic anxiety and drink at night to escape for a just a little while. Tomorrow, we'll do it all again.

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                          #13
                          Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                          Keeta,

                          My depression gets much worse when I drink. It didn't used to when I was younger but it does now. I take Lexapro for my depression and that helps IF I'm not drinking heavily.

                          I also found that getting outside helps. It's the hardest thing for me sometimes. As someone else posted, just getting outside and walking for even 10 - 15 minutes can make a huge difference.

                          I hope you feel better soon. :l

                          Be
                          "Action is...the enemy of thought." :l Joseph Conrad

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                            #14
                            Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                            Hi K.....

                            I too suffer chronic pain...I know exactly how you feel. What is the source of your pain if I may ask? I keep searching for help...and I think I am finally finding that tiny bit of relief...but it is a very slow process...and it may or may not be the answer but I'll be damned if I'll give up hope..and I hope you won't either..someone is out there that can help you hon. Please don't lose faith...we all care about you and are sending good thoughts your way....SS

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                              #15
                              Alcoholism, Chronic pain and Mental Break down

                              Hi everbody

                              I get dreadful aches too which I've put down to regular use of alchol - it always seems to get better when I don't drink but occassionally I do wake up with no pain - it all doesn't make sense but I do know, as you probably all do, that life is better AF but it's just difficult sticking to it. Hope you all have a nice day - let's join virtual hands to beat this thing.

                              Px
                              Short term goal 7 days AF

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