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[TrillianToo]

Brand new, lost, need help

Well, I'm DEFINITELY feeling shame and embarassement, which isn't helping at all.

That's feeding the "stinkin' thinkin'" which can get out of control.

And I have no idea how to deal with the stuff that makes me want to drink, such as intense pain or to slow my brain down from the high speed negative train and switch over to a meandering tour bus, or when I'm feeling so freaking frustrated about my body not being able to work normally, not being able to do normal things, having everything I do always hurt, always be something I have to think about, plan for, evaluate, when I just need a break from constantly FEELING it all the time.

I need another solution, but I don't know what to do. The alcohol was the only thing that consistently worked.

[Helpwanted08]

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Don't feel shame or embarassement, you will never be judged here. We are here to support each other.
Help

[TrillianToo]

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It's not so much here, I'm starting to feel more comfortable here, but with my boyfriend.

[KAT20]

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Trillian Too Welcome, Just take it one step at a time, one day at a time, one minute at a time. You can do this. Don't worry about the boyfriend, this is for you. As you start to learn more about the disease and learn about yourself you will be better able to educate him. Best to you.

[Michaela]

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Welcome Trill.

I can see how overwhelmed you are right now. Just TRY and relax and take it in slowly. I too have shame and embarrassment with my husband and let me tell you, it's worse than any hangover! But, everything takes time. We are here to listen and help if we can.

Mich

[Evie.Lou]

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Dear Trill, So glad that you found us.We are all in this together and together we can beat the beast...If you become a MWO subscriber you get a free download of the book plus Kudzu...GREAT DEAL, isn't it..I look forward to knowing you..

[gyco]

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well gyco is here hahahaha,they have said it WELCOM,as you can see the support is over whelming,mt deat TAND T,this is for you no one else you will succeed gyco

[gyco]

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dang it again my spelling sucks or my fingers are to thick just like many other parts of my body hahahaha

[gyco]

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go ahead make your comments im talkin about mt belly hahahha

[Evie.Lou]

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Lets go on a diet together GYCO

[Guest]

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Welcome Trillian, Welcome!! This is a good place to share and get support...try not to let yourself get overwhelmed and ask for all the support you need.

[TrillianToo]

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Actually, this IS a lot about my boyfriend. I drink less alone because I can rest and have a rhythm to my day, control of my life, meditate, and do things that are wonderful fun for me.

But I have no money now, no job, no income, and he's the breadwinner, it's his house, he works at home, and the situation is such that it creates a lot of stress & no outlet.

Then when I drink because I can't take it, he gets angry, we fight, and then it gets really ugly. Being alone I have things I can do that help, or if I need to drink, it's not much, then it's done and over. But there's no way to do that with him, and no way for me to be alone, no way to fix the underlying problems (until my body is working properly again), no way to work out the stress.

And he pissed me off so much this last time - I think I told him how I really feel about him and about being here, words I've felt for over 2 years I've tried very hard to never, ever say.

And without him I have no way to live, no way to survive, no home, no food, no nothing. I have to make this work.

So I have to not drink so we don't fight.

[DeeBee]

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Hi Trillion,

I'm in chat, but you aren't answering??

[TrillianToo]

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It's not working on my end. I see people posting, but I can't figure out where to type. someone started talking to me and it popped up a window i could talk back in, but not the original chat window.

[DeeBee]

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Ah, sorry I should've thought of that!
I'll go back to chat and help you out:-)