I don't drink ever day. I can't even say I feel the need to drink everyday but normally once a week (normally a Saturday) I will have an overwhelming urge to drink wine/rose, and drink it I do.
I drink shed loads of the stuff - i can put a whole bottle away in an hour easily and even worse, if we buy one of those boxes, I will drink the whole thing dry in one evening.
It's almost like I have no control over myself - I have one sip of wine and I can feel it coursing through my body and I love the way it makes me feel. So that makes me want more and more until the bottle is gone.
It even a joke amongst friends that on the odd night I do get to go out everyone has to 'keep me away from the wine' because I just get completely wrecked on it and I turn into a completely different person. I lie about the STUPIDEST of things, I cause trouble/spread rumours about people and take pleasure in things that I shouldn't. This is not me sober - when I am sober I am a nice person, I hate liars and people who talk about others. It's almost as if when im drunk, I turn into everything I despise about other people. As a result, once sobered up, (and dying of the worst hangover) I go into a massive 24 hours depression and paranoia.
I just wish i could stop drinking completely - but I really don't think I can.
I drank a bottle of wine last night - I was only supposed to have a glass, but it never works.
Can anyone help? xxx
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