I'm back to my old ways..and then some

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Gia;476761 wrote: There have been studies done on the physicolgical and health effects between woman having a natural vaginal birth and those who have under gone a c-section. There are differences shown that it can have on yourself, and your new born.

I can totally see how this could happen. My first two were natural births (NOT my choice-too late) and I didn't even want to hold them after because they caused me so much pain ("they" didn't do it on purpose, I know). But at the time, I was pissed! Then my third, who was also an oopsie, was delivered with an epidural. Couldn't get enough hug time after his birth. So I do think factors such as a c-section, circumstances of the birth really do play a heavy roll in how you feel after.
Incidentally, my drinking really escalated after he was born. One night I passed out on the couch and PEED! How sad is that. I've never told a soul that - blamed it on the dog! :H
OMG, am I ever glad those days are behind me - thanks to MWO! So glad you're here, you're among kindred souls. :l

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Vlad, can my pee story go in the "you know you're an alkie" thread?:H

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Yeah, this is why I can't even consider coming over there to visit you guys. We've be laughing our asses off, have to wear adult diapers the whole time.:H:H:H

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

well, I did mention it to my hubby and he completely wants to go. But he wants to go there to drink/pub crawl. So I can't, the temptation would be too strong. Haven't vacationed yet sober!

[Angelique]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

River0123......you totally cracked me up with the "pee story". I just got back from the grocery store and I feel a bit better. It was nice to just get out and stop thinking about my dependence issues. I don't want my AL problem to escalate beyond this point. I know that I have already let it get too far. I guess I can only do it one day at a time.

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Not one of my finer moments. Funny how I had put that out of my mind. I think we tend to think "we're not that bad, there are worse out there", and so we continue. Good for you on tackeling this earlier rather than later. You just went through a big AF period with the pregnancy, so you know that being AF is a possibility. Now you just need to make it happen again. And we're here to help! :l

[Angelique]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Thank you for reminding me that I did have a big AF period. It seems like so long ago to me. It's funny how I picked up right where I left off......and them some! You're so right....I just need to make it happen again. Today is almost over and I plan on being AF. I made plans to go to my parents for dinner. I think I need to keep busy......at least that will keep my mind occupied! Thanks for being so supportive.....it really helps!

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

I know all about picking up where you left off. My hubby smuggled a bottle of jack into the hospital. I didn't even wait 12 hours.

Geez, I had no idea I was that bad ~ this is bringing up lots of old memories - thankfully in the past! Yes, keep busy, you need to change your routine again and develop different habits. But you know you can do it. It's just easier, I know, when you have that built-in antabuse pill called pregnancy, but you can do this!

[Angelique]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

You are too funny!!!!!!!!! I know I can do it .......I have to do it. There are a lot of things I have done while under the influence that I'm not proud of. Well off I go. I will post again tomorrow to let you know about my AF night. Thanks again river....you put a smile on my face.
-Ange.

[Hopeful mom]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Ange, I am glad to see that you are feeling better. Like everyone (including you) told me...don't beat yourself up. You can't change the past, but you can pick yourself up and change the future. You are a strong lady. I am reading a book called "The Easy Way to Stop Drinking" by Allen Carr and he has a lot of interesting and thought provoking suggestions. You may want to read it if you have time before your maternity leave ends. I don't have PPD experience but have heard horror stories from others. PM me if you need anything...YOU CAN BEAT THIS!

[C&C Mom]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Angelique,
Must get new OB and fast. Sorry men but you don't know crap when it comes to PPD and hormone changes and all of that female stuff. Get a female doc or see a Nurse Practioner - they are very caring and thorough.

I was a pharm rep for 10 years only calling on OB/GYN's. Know them well. Plus I has PPD so bad with my 1st son (c-section) I couldn't be alone with him. Wanted to die. Put me on Zoloft which was a solution that worked at the time. Just be warned anti-depressants can be a bitch to get off of & I think caused my urge to drink even more. Just got off Zoloft 6 months ago.

Now, it could be that your thyroid is off after having baby & is causing problems. This is common.

I have been where you are - it seems hopeless. But use the resources you have - probably best to see a doc/np and go over choices since you do have a little baby to care for & need to be so careful. But the MWO & supplements may be the way.

Regardless - this is the place for caring & comforting support - I know I can't get this support from my husband - he just does not get it. "Just stop drinking. You'll be fine. Suck it up. How bad can it be?" I want to say "Some woman wrote a book called "Sippy cups aren't for Chardonnay. So what does that tell you?"

[chardy]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Hi,
I am new i was just googling alan carr as i heard he had a book about giving up drinking I came across the thread by accident so glad i did.
I to am in same boat as you ange I had a baby 9 weeks ago c-section I managed to controll my drinking some what when I was pregnant to a glass or two a night, this is my second baby my other son is 15 months My first was a natural birth I only binged drank with him every few months.
( still bad thou ) specially when they say not to drink at all.
I didn't breastfeed because I was worried my boobs where full of booze
As soon as both of them popped out I was straight back in to it I drink throu the night everytime the bub wakes for a feed I pour myself a glass of chardonnay manly to get back to sleep because i suffer insomnia, trouble is I am only getting 4 to 5 hours sleep a night because i sit up half the night thats my drinking time and when I do go to bed bub wakes for a feed
I feel sorry for my kids because next day I am usually to tied and hung over to spend time with them
I am off to doc next week to ask for some naltrexon, My thoughts are with you and I know how you feel cause i am going though the same thing

[jgalindo]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

Relate

Angelique, I relate to your post in so many ways - especially on these comments:

Why can't I just be a normal person and be fine with 1 or 2 drinks?


I think deep down I wasn't ready to quit drinking. I can't moderate. That is just not an option for me.

[river0123]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

A warm welcome to chardy & jg ~ you've come to the right place! I also did not breastfeed for this reason. Baby and I both hit the bottle, sad to say. There aren't any do overs, but we can do better! Ange, hope your night went well, check in when you can. :l

[notevergivingup]

I'm back to my old ways..and then some

I will be praying for you seacailin!!

Twosox :l