So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

[wellseasoned]

Help - I am so very tired and also scared - I look about at my family and wonder if I will ever be free of this parasite - this need to drink my feelings away. It seems like it is alcohol or drugs - all around me. I feel sometimes like the only way to free myself from this is to completely divorce myself from my family. How can I do that when my kids are so emotionally attached and somewhat unaware of the real issues? How do I do this when I am living a life that is so full of responsibility and stress? I look at these programs that put us in a safe place to get better and I think - how can this model work? We have to go back to the same place - stress and responsibility - we have to rely on the same inner voices and, eventually, the same coping mechanism - escape. I am SO discouraged and sad about my inability to make a real step forward.
Please give me some hope. I need it so very much.

[Shikakai]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

I'm in the same boat as you...

When the hell does HELL end?

And how in the HELL did I end UP in it?

:upset:

[tlrgs]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

well you are making the right step .. just keep on coming here and ask all the questions.. there is no easy way to avoid life.. all you can do is exsept everything that comes your way .. you have a family that need you and you know you need them.. so just do your best and life will always have its ups and downs .. it does get better with a clear head and we are here for you and and there are other things you can do for yourself try .. going to AA MEETING AND TALKING WITH OTHER THAT HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM AND JUST LISTEN YOU MIGHT HEAR SOMETHING YOU CAN USE FOR YOURSELF .. SORRY DAMN CAPS .. you can do this and good luck .. stay strong and think positive

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Thanks and thanks again.
My highest hurdle is that I am a low level celebrity. My family brings a high level celebrity in certain circles....................

[Shikakai]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

There's nothing to be ashamed or guilty about, Well...

Many A-listers as well as Z-listers have been in and out of rehab, struggling for years with alcohol and drug abuse.

You have nothing to be ashamed of. No one can or should ever judge you.

Stay strong... it is now 6:00 p.m. here in California, and my "delusions" are kicking in!

Keep coming to this Forum. Lots of good advice and supplements you can purchase here or in any health food store.

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Thank you!

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

tlrgs
Not your fault.
Remember that.

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Thanks
Skiikalia

[startingover]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Wellseasoned, you have made a good move I think, asking for help here. No matter what struggles we have, we can always use some support from others who are taking a similar journey. I thought I would always live a life of alcohol and drugs too. Its horrible. With the support here I have cleaned up. Visit often, read and post, take all the help and support you can. Its here in bucketloads.

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Thanks startingover
I do feel so alone in this - my family does not help at all. I sometimes think I just need to divorce myself from them (parents) completely to have any hope of getting better myself. Break my heart to save myself I guess.

[brightlite]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

I'm also sad and tired after drinking over the weekend. What a merry go round!!! I know I will be better off just realizing that I cannot drink no matter what. Life's stress and responsibilities are weighing heavily on me lately too. What the hell was I thinking!!! It's the lure of the escape that always takes me back there. aargh...I need to keep moving forward and fight the fight no matter what...can't give up. Hang in there wellseasoned....apparently we have to find new ways to deal with our stressors.

[wellseasoned]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

Britelite
Well said.

[startingover]

So Tired - Need Some Positive Feedback

wellseasoned;542604 wrote: Thanks startingover
I do feel so alone in this - my family does not help at all. I sometimes think I just need to divorce myself from them (parents) completely to have any hope of getting better myself. Break my heart to save myself I guess.

Sometimes we need to take radical action to make a change for the better...