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[groggy]

Why is it when I manage to quit for a week and start to feel better I decide to drink? I've binged this week and I am in a mess...

My legs feel like they might go out from under me.
My nerves are spassing out ( legs, back, arms ).
I have lost a lot of weight and it's really starting to show.
Of course I don't feel well.

I seem more concerned with what alcohol is doing to me and why... And, I should know by now that stopping is the only solution. I understand some of my triggers and ways to thwart them. I know I drink not only after something bad, but as a reward. Jeesh, at this rate I may loose my legs... Why cannot I lock on to the idea of a better life without these problems??? I have glimpses of it. I can only seem to make the smallest of efforts even though I know the things I need to do....

[groggy]

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Coach/Pen Pal

I know loneliness is a BIG trigger for me. And as I do not like talking about my personal problems to current friends and family, I think it would help me immensely to have someone knowledgeable about what I'm going through... I'm not trying to be picky, but someone who's had the same bodily damage from AL would probably work best. I think Liver and Nerves are what AL targeted the worst in me.
Also, my hours are a bit abnormal... I work until around 1am EST and most of my internet use occurs from then until roughly 9 or 10 am.
So, I hope someone is available and willing... I've done the e-dating scene and would like to look at this as like a "e-sponsor" scenario. Meaning, I don't just need to chat... I need to talk about life issues and develop a relationship.
God will put a feather in your hat if you do, I'm sure.
Help me to help me, please.

[tlrgs]

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keep on doing what you are doing now come here and write how you are doing thats the way...
we are all here for you and our hand is out to you please take it .. and know you can and will be able to get what you want in life and that is to be sober .. stay strong and think positive

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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groggsters,

It sounds as if you have a strong foundation for getting this under control. We're always here for you. As Mr. T said, please keep posting. You already know some of what you need/want to be well. Take care of yourself and let us know how your doing as you recover from your binge.

Be

[Seacailin]

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Hi Groggy
I hope you feel better soon. I do the same thing. I get some time under my belt, start to feel better, and "forget" how horrible I felt after the last binge. Lonliness is also a big trigger for me, so I have been going to AA meetings. I don't know if that is possible for you. You will form many wonderful relationships and get lots of support here.

[j-vo]

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Hi Groggy,
You've come to the right place for help, lots and lots of it. You're not alone in your struggles. If you navigate this site, you'll see many different posts on various topics. You'll find many answers and options available to help you to devise a plan for yourself. You won't be lonely here!