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[1morechance]

:upset:I'm a screw up
I drank last night and I'm paying for it today:upset: My partner is very upset today and just said "I'm sick of you" I'm sick of myself, why do I continue to do this to myself and my relationship I feel like crying and just hide under a rock, I hate my life at this moment. Please God help me. I know I should be able to beat this but right now I feel beat down and I don't know if I'll be able to continue trying:upset:

Please help me I can't continue doing this to myself

[startingover]

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Hi there 1MC. You CAN do this you know...right now you are feeling bad and hungover, that will enhance all the negative feelings you are having. Can you make a decision? Right now? And decide from now on you are going to change your life and your thinking?
Once that decision is made, you have to live with it, but its so much easier than living with the guilt, the shame and the worry that drinking brings.

[gyco]

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hi 1 more chance,welcom,nice name,something we all have said, o m c.please.your here and accepted,he doesnt no whats going on,nor can he help,there are many avenues,as many say here at 1st,set a goal,24 hours is a good one,the easiest way,dont even have to look at long term,more the days you stop,the harder is to go back,cause you feel so dam good, im here for ya,along with many more gyco

[1morechance]

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thank you startingover
i felt better after i let it out. it's been a very difficult morning. I appreaciate your suggestion and will do it right NOW. I will not drink and I'm changing my life and my thinking.

[1morechance]

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thank you gyco
I've set my goal. It does get overwhelming when I think long term. I just need to keep telling myself I can do this and love myself a little more. Binge drinking is not going to take over my life anymore.

[1morechance]

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Thanks Wally2
I appreciate your words of encouragement. It does make sense to me, I've also decide today that I will be AF for lent. I'm going to church tonight and start cleaning up my life again. AL has really messed up my spiritual life so I have to start again. Thanks for rooting for me:l

[Marshy]

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Hi 1morechance,

Have you read the "tool box" thread? It's a sticky in Monthly Abstinence. There are lots of practical ideas about getting a plan together and working on it. It might help you through lent!

[Accountable for Me]

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You sound much more positive than from this morning. It sounds like a great plan to be AF for Lent!

There are so many people around the world that give up alcohol for the 40 days and don't particularly have a drinking problem.

When we lose our spirituality, we lose a huge part of ourselves.

You will find balance and peace very soon.

[1morechance]

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thanks marshy and accountable for me. I am feeling better now with all the support i've been getting for here. my partner called me to give me her support. I didn't think she would want to talk to me today so I thank God I have her. I will get through today AF and AF for lent.

[Seacailin]

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Glad you are feeling a bit better and will have support from your partner. Take good care of yourself. We are here for you.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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1more,

I know you can do this. I can read it in your past posts. You want it so bad. I did something similar to what wally's doing but I don't think I realized I was doing it at the time. Actually, I'm still doing it and I think it's helping me.

I've been cleaning. A lot. It's like I'm purging my sh** on the outside as well as on the inside. Does this make sense? I normally HATE cleaning. Detest it. But for the past month or so I'm getting a lot out of it. Exercise and a sense of control and accomplishment. Now I'm feeling a calmness I don't know if I've ever felt as an adult.

I know this is all related but I'm not sure how. It's as if the more I'm taking care of myself, the more I'm taking care of my home, my surroundings. It helps me a lot.

I'm here for you. If you ever want to PM me, please do so. It's been a long struggle for me and I'll be glad to help in any way I can. I wish you nothing but the best!

Take care,
Be

[SpiritGirl]

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For the people trying to get some "Spring Cleaning" done check out FlyLady.net: Your personal online coach to help you gain control of your house and home Lots of helpful hints and guidelines for getting our homes in order.

I'm still struggling to get my AF life in order - but on the days / weeks I do, I love the energy I have to take care of my home....

[Sunbeam]

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1mc,
When I struggled against alcohol, I wondered why the Lord didn't help me. Well, He did when I was ready, I found this site and I have my life back. It sounds like your resolve is strong, and Lent is a great time to get your life in order.

[keeta]

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1more...I just now saw this.

I know exactly how you are feeling (or were feeling during your original post) I have been there more times than I care to count.

Have you got a plan in place to help you along yet?

Please just know you are NOT alone. Feel free to PM me any time, for whatever reason.

We are all here for you.

[88Katie88]

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i dont know where i should be, but i sure need help, please, i hate myself-life is so shitty, but i love others, i just so lost, dont know where to be, here? i dont know, only drinking seems to releive the pain, it seems i cannot stand being sober, in reality, it hurts too much- i'm at my end, no where to turn,