Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

[Lavande]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Dear Red,

First of all, congratulations on your 5 weeks AF, that's something you should be very, very proud of, for sure!!

I think I understand your feelings of not receiving positive reinforment from those closest to you. I am almost 3 weeks AF myself and am not getting the response I thought I would from my family - it's disappointing. BUT, I am determined to stay on plan and not let their attitudes mess me up! I've come to realize that we really need to be realistic with our expectations. As much as I would like my family to be as happy for me as I am for myself, I know now that I need to be patient. They will come around when they come around. Waiting is the hard part, for me.

Stay true to yourself and remind yourself everyday why you wanted to be AF. For me, it was all about finding my old, strong and confident self and being able to spend quality time with my new grandson.

Hang in there,
Lavande

[beautifulred]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

A new outlook

A few very good friends of mine (from this site) cared enough to call and many, many others cared enough to pm me because of this desperate message.

I has been a few days since I posted this and as I look back...sober....I think of what pain I was in when I posted and how things really dont look so devastating now.......that I am sober.

I am constantly reminded how much worse things look when I am not sober.....and wonder why I do this to myself. Of course, for about 2 hours, things are numbed and look clearer...then, The BEAST takes ahold and we (the beast and I) are in hell again.....AL pulls me to HELL....and it never gets better.....the definition of insanity: doing the same destructive behavior over and over again, expecting different results.

Thank you to all that have responded on my post and by pm.....I am back and DAMN.....I'm staying and back to SANITY!

[tlrgs]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

red always good to have you back girl .. lets fight this fight together

[PHOTOGIRL]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Hi Red

Hi Hun, just read your posting from the 14th - gosh, you sounded so down, darling ..... it is a constant battle but you've done it for 5 weeks and you know how much better you feel. I hope the pain has now gone from your life. You're sounding strong now so :finger: to the AL now for you, eh?! Go for it red:cheering: Keep strong, :lxx

[startingover]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Reddy, I am happy to hear that :-)

[Evie.Lou]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

I never doubted for a minute that you'd be back with us...WE NEED YOU HERE. You are one tough lady and you will beat this bastard !!!...I know you will !1
I am always only a PM away !!!

[Popeye]

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It's tough sometimes, maybe even most of the time. These periods of overwhelming gloom seem to effect most of us from time to time.
Stay strong.

[Prest4time]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Red,
just wanted to say I am thinking about you. I understand the feelings of being overwhelmed, especially in the face of crisis in your life.

Take good care of yourself, and allow yourself to absorb the love that is coming your way from everyone here.

:l

[beautifulred]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Prest....you, of all people should understand overwhelming feelings.....havent heard from you in quite some time since your father past.....hope all is going well now. I am ok.....just focused on the wrong end of good and bad for a few weeks.

Thank you all for your thoughts and concerns....I am back on track now!

[southernbelle]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

You GO RED! I am thinking about you and cheering you on! Keep that cunning AL freak at bay, sugar and you will be so much better off.....
I am so proud of you, we are all here for you and send you our love. H

[boozehag]

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Good for you Red very glad you are okay now and that things dont looks so bad. Another good reason not to drink!
BH

[tlrgs]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

yes red back on track .. kinda wierd reminds me of this

[brittzak]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Beautiful..i KNOW how you feel..i havent had a good 3 years really and right now..TODAY..my life is SHIT. we are gonna make it...cause we have too!!!

[tlrgs]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

brittzak;593536 wrote: Beautiful..i KNOW how you feel..i havent had a good 3 years really and right now..TODAY..my life is SHIT. we are gonna make it...cause we have too!!!

BRITT WHATS GOING ON GIRL ..

[beautifulred]

Thinking It Is a Loosing Battle

Brittzak......I'm with T, whats going on?

My days have gotten much better as of late.....only thing I can say is hang it there.....it really does get better.......and much clearer with out the liquid suicide!