Struggling bigtime time get sober

[jacksoncage]

Well, people, I was on day 14 af and blew it. I was still dealing with withdrawals (severe fatigue) and just couldn't take it. Now the alcohol is back in my system and I feel fine. Sick. I need to know if anyone out there has experienced severe withdrawal like this (not the shakes or tremors) but a total lack of energy that is soooo unbearable that it causes you to relapse. I mean after 13 days you should begin to feel better. Maybe not, I really do not know anymore. I was trying so friggin hard to stay sober and I consider myself a fighter but the pain I was in was unbearable. I was also taking campral and was on it over a week and it wasn't doing anything for me. So i was pissed off about that. Anyway, please if there is anyone out their that has struggled like this I would like to hear from you. Writing to you all about this is this is really hard for me to do because I feel like i am just bitching and moaning but I really am going through hell trying to get sober.

[beautifulred]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Jacx,
Not physical for me but very emotional......as you can tell, if you have read my posts....I have been there alot as of late but I do KNOW that I FEEL BETTER SOBER.....can control my thoughts....Chief told me something a short while back....better in the drivers seat feeling uncomfortable than being in the passenger seat completely out of control.....I embellished his post, but that is how I read it. As people have told me....pour it out, or not....but tomorrow try again and DO NOT give up. ((((JACX)))) , RED

[Lavande]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Jackson,

So sorry to hear you're having such a hard time.
It's 3 weeks today for me and I am still definately dragging my ass around most days. I notice the fatigue more when I'm not really busy doing something that requires physical energy. In other words, if I sit a minute or two too long, I'm falling asleep. When I'm on my feet, actively engaged in doing something, then I'm OK.
I really think when my sleep patterns return to a more 'normal' state things will even out. In the meantime I am faithfully swallowing my anti-anxiety/depression products, good multi vitamins, good food and lots of water & herbal tea.
Have you considered the possibility that maybe you're dealing with a touch of depression yourself? Even if you don't start out depressed, alcohol will eventually make you depressed. I feel it really helps to address the depression issue before and while trying to quit alcohol, nicotine, etc........

Don't give up, just get back on your horse and feel free to do all the bitching you need to help you get to your goal!!!!
We're all here with you.

Take care,
Lavande

[CS04]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

When I had some AF time last summer, I was totally exhausted all the time. I also caved at day 14. Amazing how AL makes us feel better, falsely, when in the end we just sink further. I am still struggling but think I need to hit a breaking point soon. Listen to the wise ones here.

[greeneyes]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

You didn't "blow it". You have the 14 days and nothing can make that go away. Good job on that! Gee, after all that past drinking, give yourself a break. Ignore wht you think you "should" or shouldn't feel like. Just focus on AF. Feed yourself well, drink lots of water, exercise some and let everything reset at it's own pace. Try not to be impatient. :l

[startingover]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Hi JC,
Yes, I had severe fatigue for a long time....a few months actually. In fact it is only recently getting better. However, I am not sure how much of that was due to the fact I came off painkillers about 4 months ago too. All I do know is that it can take your body a long time to heal from the abuse.
I try to eat well, get enough sleep and take supplements to balance my body chemistry.
It is getting MUCH better now...
Dont give up, I cannot compare to how I felt before and how I feel now. I have a life now...

[peacenik]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

me too starts...i've been sober since 1/1 and still feel tired all the time...i wonder if our systems just need to adjust...i mean it took years for us to mess them up, it seems it would take quite some time to be back on track.

i am going to the dr. monday and going to get a full physical with bloodwork including a thyroid test...

hang in there everyone, al is a temporary "fix" that hurts alot more in the end.

[startingover]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Yep I had the full bloodwork done too, all was fine thankfully. I think we need to give ourselves the great gift of time...and a healthy lifestyle.

Good luck with the tests Peace

[stashia]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

wow j 14 days sounds a long way off for me so well done you!! im a newbee and am reading every ones posts and on the whole every one has been inspiring i hope when i get to 14 days u by then will have a few new pearly beads of wisdom for us newbees! i for one hail u well done

[DeeBee]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Welcome Stashia!! 14 days does sound long when you start so try taking it just one day at a time and with commitment and the support here, you too can achieve it.

[stashia]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

thanks deebee im only 2 days af how long before i feel any withdrawel symtons? i have an aunt in south africa always wanted to go there so maybe with all the money i save not buying wine i may go see her.

[DeeBee]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

Great idea Stashia!! Save up and treat yourself to a trip over here:-)
I'm assuming if you haven't had any withdrawal symptons yet then you might be okay. Are you taking the suppliments/vitamins etc?

[stashia]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

not taking anything.just stumbled onto this site yesterday not sure how to navigate round it yet or how or what to buy. should i subscribe to mwo to get additional help? how big a drinker were you if thats not rude to ask? when i drink i dnt remember going to bed and wake up with bruises that i know nothing about! disgraceful and yet no one seems to suspect. i manage to hold a 13 hr day at work 4 days a week but feel crap all day and my hangovers make me want to eat junk all day. i was a personal trainor till some unmentionalble things happened and for a while i was even drinking all day. but everyone here seems to be doing well so i am going to hang around lol s

[DeeBee]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

I used to drink on average a 5lt of wine every other day. Makes me sick just to think about how I was destroying myself. I can relate to the memory loss AND the bruises. My worse was waking up in the morning with a sick feeling in my gut but I couldn't remember why or what I had done the night before to feel like that -- or even worse I did remember what I had done or said the night before and wanted to just die a slow death of embarressment.

I joined as a subscriber because you get a free bottle of Kudzu and a copy of the book My Way Out which you can download onto your computer and get reading straight away. The book explains the MWO program clearly and very simply. You will then be able to get a game plan together and decide how you are going to get control of your life back.

Have a look at "first time here" First Time Here? Read our FAQ! - My Way Out Forums
and "Just Starting Out".

[stashia]

Struggling bigtime time get sober

cheers DeeBee thank u so much for your time much appreciated. will try it out.