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[Kayla]

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Bluesy,
To ditto what Savon said, consider this ... The Dr who commented on the early AAers said that addiction can be seen not in the 'spree' but in the 'remorse'. I think he has something there. It's us, intuitively reaching for a better, more wholesome state of being.

So reach away, know that you have plenty of support here, and keep on trying x

[Popeye]

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Bluesy;651307 wrote: The gal sitting next to me said a great thing that is sticking to me, she said sobriety is a better way of life.

Hi Bluesy.
Although I'm not far down the sober path, I have found this to be true.
I didn't believe that it would be. I thought that I would feel a little hard-done-by. That I would be punishing myself for my past behaviour, but that's simply not the case. I am pulling myself out of a pit that given time would have been too deep. I often thought that I was a drunk and that was that. I'm so glad that I was wrong. I'm so much more relaxed and at ease with myself. It has allowed me to see life in a realistic way and I have found the daily grind more enjoyable and easier to deal with. There is a freedom and peace that I had forgotten existed and I'm working on becoming the person that I know I can be, and not the loser that I was. I'm not going to tell you that my life is perfect because it isn't, but I look forward to the future and I'm more able to deal with the present in a proactive and positive manner.
It may sound a little too good to be true but I could go on about the benefits and I really can't see a downside. Dealing with my drink problem has been one of my better life-choices.

[me1455]

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Blues I am feeling the exact same way. if you google my recent thread "ashamed" you'll see my story. did the same as you with everyone around me making me feel upset with my drinking and problem and that i need to go to aa. today im recovering and i dont have a job so im literally sitting here staring at the wall and mwo forums to pass the time. other people who are not alcoholics do not understand it and look at us like we're weak and trash. that is what im most upset over right now, not even my own problem but what theyre thinking of me. crazy! did you try any of the medications? look at the threads, u may want to try one. im trying baclofen, it should be here any day now. a year or two ago i didnt want to deal with meds and try them but ive gottten to an all time low with my drinking now. its scary. so scary.

[Becky]

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We can't do anything about the past but for tomorrow we can always provide.

[Bluesy]

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Day 6- Have to say...

I'm really proud of myself and feeling good (not cocky, just good)! I went out last night, drank soda the whole night and ya know what...I didn't feel like I was missing out on anything- it was actually really great Taking it a moment at a time...and for right now, all is well. Thanks so much everybody- your support makes ALL the difference. XOXO Happy 4th!!

[scrubbly]

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Great job last night, and it makes me happy to hear you sounding so much more hopeful today!!! All the best to you and continue that positive energy!!